Ok i really dont know what to do with my life now..no amount of anything can do anything to change the way i feel right now..maybe i should write that in a song well anyways, i've lost everything that i have in my life, which includes to my dismay Hilary and everyone else in the world that i ever cared for..i know my friends are still there for me when i need them but theres only so much that they can do and i have to pull thru and here's a song that has been helping me... its by The All-American Rejects..its like the best song ok not as good as fly but i love it...
Straightjacket Feeling
Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straitjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again
Trust you is just one defense
off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
to take you back now, but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you
And when the memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear
it falls away
Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you
Right now i feel that this song means soo much to me and i dunno i just hope this f***ed up life ends soon