Ok trust me, the title isn’t what it seems to be at all, not even close. It was great at first, I loved it, it was heaps of fun, satisfying and probably almost everything I dreamt of. Definitely not what I saw on tv, but still mildly close. Ok fine im lying to myself, nothing like what I saw on tv but I mean the thrill of it and just the whole experience probably got me a little happy. And yes I know this is what it’s going to be like in the future. But literally months have passed and its totally different now. It’s like me sitting on the beach enjoying myself, listening to the waves and soaking up the nice warmth of the sun. My face glows with happiness because I am contented with where I was. Enjoying every moment that was spent there, not wanting to move to any other place. Sitting there and just staring was satisfying enough for me. Of course the occasional going in the water and wading around the shallow waters of the ocean was amazing. I’d then go back and dry myself and continue sipping my nice chilled iced tea and chilling out to my tunes that’s playing on my old ipod. It was just like what I never thought of at all. Everything I pictured, it was different but somehow I just loved every moment of it.
However, suddenly in the midst of my chilling out and just really enjoying myself, storm clouds start to form. Those clouds aren’t those that come with heavy rain that pours down massively, but they are just those storm clouds that look extremely threatening, but nothing really happens except that the sun is being blocked out and you wont feel the sun on your skin. Chilly winds start to blow and you get chilled to your spine and you run to try to find something to cover yourself because all your things get blown away. Slight drizzles start to fall, but nothing great. This carries on for days and days and you just cant help but want the sun to come back out again because you miss it so much. However, after waiting for days, weeks and even a month, you give up because you know that the sun isn’t going to shine like it used to do anymore. You try to find another spot, another new spot where you can enjoy the wonders of the beach again. You succeed at first, as that small little ray of light passes through all the clouds in the sky, but in the end the clouds are just too overpowering and it blocks that small glimpse of hope. Your days just grow cold and miserable all over again and that whole cycle just repeats itself.
That’s what exactly happened to me and I really have nothing to say about everything that has happened. I hope this ends soon, yet I am wanting for the period of time where the sun shone on the beach again, each day hoping and waiting that the sun would come out again, singing, rain rain go away, come again another day….
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