Life was really stole for Justine, she was soo close and yet soo far..after soo long im still in the state of mourning its just soo sad..i cant get over the fact that she actually lost..she was on the verge of winning and her stupi injury came back...well i guess in life you never know whats gonna happen dont you!
Its just amazing how some things work out right while others dont most of the time..well i guess thats just one of the cycles of life and all of us have to accept the fact that not everything is going to go our way. As the saying goes, something that i will always believe in, "Any moment, everything can change" like seriously this is soo true and i firmly believe in it with all my heart..
Well Chinese New Year has been dead boring as usual with the exception of a new member added to the family, baby Justin ahah he's soo cute, once i get my pics uploaded i'll put them here..yeah it was great when my cousins came over yest, talked to them and stuff..its great to be able to see them again, we're really close and stuff so yeah
Basically thats it, nothing much really happened..im still in love with Jess and yes she's just soo hot haha..
Ok this is what i want to say to that person..im not gonna wait for you anymore, because waiting for you is like waiting for rain in a drought, useless and disappointing. I've been waiting for ages already and im sick and tired of playing this waiting game, i loved you once before and i think i will always still but i cant carry on like this anymore because im just living one big lie, hoping that you'd come back to me..apparently you claim to be someone that you're not and that you're a changed person..whatever the case is im gonna forget about you, forget everything that has been said and done. Tho i know that it isnt gonna be easy for me but im gonna do my best..i was heart broken once and im not prepared to be again so if you're not gonna come back im not gonna wait anymore..because its just pointless to keep a pointless relationship
looked what you've missed, living like this, nobody wins....
1. Hilary Duff - Fly (PW:#1/=/P:1[11])
2. The Veronicas - 4ever (PW:#2/=/P:2[7])
3. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not (PW:#4/+1/P: 3[1])
4. Hilary Duff - Someone's Watching Over Me (PW:#3/-1/P:2[6])
5. Ryan Cabrera - Fall Baby Fall (PW:#4/=/P:4[8])
6. Ryan Cabrera - Shine On (PW:#6/=/P:4[1])
7. The Veronicas - Nobody Wins (PW:#11/=/P:7[5])
8. Ryan Cabrera - Photo (PW:#9/=/P:8[2])
9. The Veronicas - Leave Me Alone (PW:#8/=/P:8[2])
10. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart (PW:#10/=/P:7[3])
11. Hilary Duff - Beat Of My Heart (PW:#13/+2/P:11[1])
12. Lifehouse - You And Me (PW:#16/+4/P:12[1])
13. Ryan Cabrera - From The Start (PW:#11/-2/P:11[3])
14. The Veronicas - Mouth Shut (PW:18/+4/P:14[1])
15. Hilary Duff - Wake Up (PW:#14/-1/P:5[1])
16. Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You (PW:#14/-2/P:10[5])
17. Mariah Carey - We Belong Together (PW:#15/-2/P:15[2])
18. Hilary Duff - Come Clean (PW:#15/+1/P:10[1])
19. Britney Spears - Someday (I Will Understand) (PW:#-/RETURN/P:10[1])
20. Ashlee Simpson - L.O.V.E (PW:#-/DEBUT/P:20[1])
Fall Offs
Kaci Brown - Unbelievable @No.17
Yellowcard - Only One @No.20
On The Verge
21. The All-American Rejects - Straightjacket Feeling
22. Kaci Brown - Unbelievable
23. Ashlee Simpson - Boyfriend
24. Britney Spears - And Then We Kiss
25. Kate Dearaugo - Faded
okok these are the things that i must get asap i derno how im gonna get it i must must get it!
1. Yellowcard - Lights And Sounds (Omg the previews are just awesome..i love all the songs on their new cd its really good and i cant wait to get it i really want it now the previews are making me want it more and more each day!)
2. Ryan Cabrera - Live at the Wiltern (DVD i need this desperately)
3. The Veronicas - The Secret Life of The Veronicas[Us Version] ( hahaha shut up i really want this cause its the veronicas and rumours has it that it might have extra stuff and the songs are mixed differently...excited (: )
4. The OC season 1 Dvd - if i dont get this i will just kill myself
5. Lost Dvd Season 1 - same as above
6. An Ipod Video - i really want one of those..they are soo cool!then i can watch the veronicas (:
7. More veronicas stuff!
8. The All-American Rejects Cd - im still contemplating whether or not i should get it
ok thats about it for now..
These few days have been really bad for me..i woke up on the wrong side of the bed..tho there's only one side for me to get up from i denro how i did that haha literally..but yeah as the saying goes i woke up in a really foul mood..i felt like slapping everyone that i saw and i had no mood to do anything at all..no work, the homework no nothing..every song that i listened to i hate well with the excpetion of The Veronicas cause their musics a little bit more angry and angsty so that sorta helped me calm down cause i was assured that yes hahaa im angry but Lisa and Jess are always there to cheer me up with their angsty music..yeah so basically i've been listening to alot of The Veronicas these few days but thats not really a big thing cause i always listen to them all the time..
I slep at about 4 last night cause i was doing stuff and then i woke up at 8 cause i had to go to school..i was soo tired and i couldnt even concentrate at all..and i was kinda distracted too because i wanted to watch the match between Justine and Amelie(ewww dreaded name that i officially hate from today) Ok so Justine lost..yes its really sad..im close to tears because she was playing soo well and she really deserved to win she has done soo much and its really sad that she had to retire and that really sucks cause the stupid girl won just like that..and the worst part is that she won the semis also cause her opponent retired..argh thats just f'ed up..but Justine was sick..this is what her official website reported..
Very disappointing. Can you tell us about the illness?"Yes, it's been a few days I wasn't feeling well. My stomach was very upset. And then last night, I didn't sleep a lot because it got worst and worst. Two weeks now I had to take anti inflammatories for my shoulder, and that killed me a little bit. Pretty sensitive. But I had to for my shoulder. Now I got on my stomach, and then I had no legs today. I couldn't move. When the stomach is so upset and so inflamed, you know, you just don't have any energy. And I felt it when I woke up, but I tried. I knew at the beginning of the match I couldn't win it. I just really tried to stay in the match, but there was no chance for me. If I would have keep playing and continue, maybe I would injure something else, so that was the best decision, even if it was very, very hard for me."Has the doctor diagnosed what exactly is wrong?"It's pretty hard. Last night I was feeling so bad I thought I would have to go to see a doctor at 3 in the morning because I was such in pain. Never had pain in the stomach like this. I had to double the dose of my anti inflammatories last few days because my shoulder was painful, and it's probably I just had a very bad reaction to that."Do you think you might have to miss time with the shoulder problem, that you're having problems with the anti inflammatories?"I don't know? I think that I did what I had to do for my shoulder, and then it's been another problem that came on my stomach. I'm not quite sure there would be another virus. I know there were a lot of gastro, but I don't think it's that. I think it's just the fact that it's been a lot of pain with the medications. So it's going to be probably just a question of a few days. That's why it's very frustrating now."Is this the biggest disappointment of your career?" Oh, it's one of the biggest because I don't know what is harder: to lose even when you're playing well and just you lose, or just when you have to retire like that. I think it's very disappointed because I was playing so well, and I had a lot of good chances to win here. When you lose that like this, it's pretty hard."
and this as well
The match started with Amelie on serve, and then Justine dropping 4 of her service games. The Frenchwoman directed all of her shots to the Belgian's forehand. The unforced errors were flying left, and right from Justine. Things were unravelling for the Australian Open 2004 champion, as coach Carlos signalled for Justine to stop the match. Amelie confidently marched to take the set 1-6.A very somber mood cloaked Rod Laver Arena, as they nervously awaited the return of Justine, from a mini bathroom break before the start of the second set. Justine started on serve, and asked the chair umpire for a medical timeout. The Belgian was unwell, with stomach, and headache problems. Justine was back on court, and after trying to play two games, she was unable to give anymore to the match. The final score 1-6 0-2 retired."I'm feeling very disappointed for sure to end the tournament this way," explained Justine with tightened voice, and tears. "I am feeling very sick and I couldn't stay longer and continue so I'm sorry about that. It is impossible to play thus. I make a point of congratulating Amelie for its first title in Large Slam, until it waits since so many years. Thank you for your support, thank you with my coach, my entourage and the next year," concluded a sad, disappointed Justine.
all tihs is taken from www.henin-hardenne.be its really really sad..Poor Justine was almost in tears..because she worked so hard and yet nothing came out..urhg im just utterly disappointed
Today is an exceptionally weird day..its really good and yet really bad at the same time..its just soo eccentric and i really derno how to really describe it. Definitely many mix emotions and i derno so much is going thru my head and i just confuses me all at once..ok i shall just start off by explaining the day events chronologically..
I woke up at 7 you hear me 7 such an ungodly hour..i dont know how i managed to do that but yes i did..i reached school at 7:55 am and it was empty i tell you it was like some village or some ancient place where its a dead town..haha
The reason i went to school so early was to prepare for my presentation and everything..ok i was pleased with the way that i presented today but its just that i made a really fundemental error and im very disappointed that i did so because i shouldnt have made that error..but nervousness came in and it took control of me and i was just soo scared of the Q&A cause i really didnt know what to expect from her and yes i made a grave error that cost me alot..sigh but its all over now..and the only thing that i can do is to work harder for my exam
So i went out to lunch with all my group members and some other friends and we were eating and talking and stuff it was fun..and yes i decided to propose to James and Sarah that we should go to the library to watch the tennis match between Maria Sharapova and Justine Henin-Hardenne..i was soo excited for it because its my Fav player, Justine against my Second fav player Maria...it was an intense match and my stupid friend james couldnt have made it less stressful he was like disturbing me and irritating me all the way...everytime Justine missed a shot he goes awww see look she sucks soo badly and all that crap..and whne Sharapova makes a mistake, nothing comes out from his mouth..and im like wtf?????its just soo freaking retarded..the game was really close and two of them were battling it out like crazy and i really admire them for what they've done its amazing..however there could only be one winner and my hopes were for Justine to win but everyone was somehow against me and i was the only one around that area that was rooting for Justine..in the end she prevailed and she's thru to the finals..im really happy that she's in the finals and i know she can do it..and im also sad that Maria is out..its heartbreaking as well but unfortunately as i stated before, there can only be one winner..
Well thats basically about it..im too lazy to blog already really tired guess i'll be turning in soon..
till next time
Come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever
Let me show you all the things that we could do
You know you wanna be together
And i wanna spend the night with you!
Urgh i just hate tort law soo freaking much...its soo freaking irritating..the worst part is that we dont even get taught anything at all..which is soo weird and yes its my worst paper..i derno how am i gonna survive man..the projects are just killing me cause i just hate this subject soo freaking much its soo weird..anywhos i had crim law test today which was like sigh i dont wanna talk about it..i spent like so much time looking for the stupid sections in the penal code..i should have just stuck more post its to tell me where the sections are cause im soo unfamiliar with the penal code. I tried really hard today...and i kinda couldnt think cause i had no space to do so..the exam room or should i say LT was soo freaking packed and i couldnt think..im kinda like claustraphobic if thats how you spell it and i need space..i cant be cooped up in one small room or small area for too long because i will just freak out and it turns out that today, it was so that it was all cramped up which isnt good..but yeah i was sitting next to priya..i could literally see whatever that she was writing and everything but i was honest and i didnt peak at all not even one glance..honestly..hahaha its weird to be able to be in such close proximity with your partner that you can actually see everything but you cant copy..i mean it was dumb to put us soo close but yeah i was honest so i have nothing to worry about..maybe she did see my answer who knows but yeah its her loss if she saw and copy my answers cause i didnt know shit about that stupid test today..hahaha..the part where i taught in school didnt come out..damn ahhaha..but yes i hated it still..
And my parents are just killing me..the more they do housework, the more they kill me..i wish that they would just stop cause its annoying the hell out of me..asking me to do this and that and that argh just leave me alone!
Leave me alone, get out of my face
Im tired and low feeling so misplaced...
Ok life is just soo freaking f'ed up now..its just soo crappy..ok maybe it was just today but i really hated today..once i stepped into the house from school, its like i derno a storm cloud of extreme anger or something just passed me by..i got soo freaking angry at my parents for being such idiots that they always are..making me do this and that when they can just do it..and tricking me to some shit crapped up stuff..argh yes i just cant take their nonsense anymore..it just pisses the hell out of me..and now i dont feel like doing anything at all..or should i say i cant do anything because i have no mood to do anything..its bad cause i have a test that im supposed to study for tmr but im not doing anything and i still have 4 chapters but i have no mood to do anything, talk to anyone whatsoever..im telling you my parents just ruin my life.with their stupid cheena weird mentalities that they have that they will never change..and they think that they are right all the time..when im sorry to say that they are not and im not trying to be biased or anything here but im sorry its really true that im being objective cause i've had second opinion on this matter and the people that i've "interviewed" actuallly agree that they are too closed minded..all that oh you can come talk to me when you have problems is all crap..CRAP you hear me..its all a bunch of lies..i bet when i tell them anything at all, they go out to look for someone to talk to me about it, find a shrink or someone that is a trained professional to talk to me to counsel me or something..they never keep to their word and they will confiscate this and that take away this and all that blabla bla shit stuff
Argh i hate my house..im still soo freaking sick and yet i still have to do so much..you dont know how tired i am..even staying up till this hour tires me and i cant do anything at all..i derno this whole being sick thing has kinda changed my life..i've lost 3 kgs and somehow some of my clothes dont fit me anymore..they are just too big for me..which is weird cause i buy clothes that are just nice and now i cant wear them at all cause they are too big..what am i gonna do?i need to put on my kilos back but how?i've been trying to eat alot but to no avail cause everytime i feel like eating, i dont get food and when i do get foood, somehow i dont feel like eating anymore..its like my hunger just vanishes into thin air which is just weird but yeah..
Ok went out with Priya and Steph again today..why wasnt i surprised that i would be forced to eat Pastamania as usual..everytime without fail, when we go out we have to go there..and i really hate that place alot..with every emotion that i have..the food there isnt that fantastic or anything..thank god i got a discount cause im a student..or else i'd be pissed..but the nice SELFLESS Priya actually paid 3 bucks for me..aww isnt she a sweetheart (: thanks for paying for me..haha she's the best..so we went to watch Memoirs of a Geisha today with much reluctance from me of course, seeing as to how i would never force myself to watch a movie that even comes close to any asian culture, instead, i watned to watch Hilary in Cheaper by the Dozen 2..alot cause i mean i still like Hilary and all but NOOOOOO they didnt wann awatch..BUT i still went that show...it was good tho..not bad for a cheenafied movie but still good..hahaha i predicted the ending tho..overall it was alright..i've seen better shows like proof ahhahaha its a great show..go watch it kae..yes but even tho it was a reluctant outing, i still enjoyed that company that i had..with Priya and all cause i mean its a good stepping stone for us, the more we go out and hang out, means the more we would interact and it would make our bonds stronger, and soon enough, we would be even closer than we were before..but yeah we're still a long way from that but im glad that both of us are working on it..i know she's trying really hard and i can see it..
Come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever!
Let me show you all the things that we could do
Just one taste and you'll want more
So tell me what you're waiting for!
yeah i've been sick so im combining 2 together
1. Hilary Duff - Fly (PW:#1/=/P:1[10])
2. The Veronicas - 4ever (PW:#2/=/P:2[6])
3. Hilary Duff - Someone's Watching Over Me (PW:#2/=/P:2[6])
4. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not (PW:#5/+1/P: 4[1])
5. Ryan Cabrera - Fall Baby Fall (PW:#4/-1/P:4[8])
6. Ryan Cabrera - Shine On (PW:#6/=/P:4[1])
7. The Veronicas - Nobody Wins (PW:#11/=/P:7[4])
8. Ryan Cabrera - Photo (PW:#9/+1/P:8[1])
9. The Veronicas - Leave Me Alone (PW:#8/-1/P:8[2])
10. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart (PW:#10/=/P:7[3])
11. Ryan Cabrera - From The Start (PW:#11/=/P:11[3])
12. Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You (PW:#14/=/P:10[5])
13. Hilary Duff - Beat Of My Heart (PW:#12/=/P:12[1])
14. Hilary Duff - Wake Up (PW:#9/=/P:5[1])
15. Mariah Carey - We Belong Together (PW:#16/+1/P:15[2])
16. Lifehouse - You And Me (PW:#19/+3/P:16[1])
17. Kaci Brown - Unbelievable (PW:#18/+1/P:9[4])
18. The Veronicas - Mouth Shut (PW:17/-1/P:17[1])
19. Hilary Duff - Come Clean (PW:#15/-4/P:10[1])
20. Yellowcard - Only One (PW:#20/=/P:16[1])
Fall Offs
None
On The Verge
21. Britney Spears - Someday (I Will Understand)
22. The All-American Rejects - Straightjacket Feeling
23. Ashlee Simpson - L.O.V.E
24. t.A.T.u - Friend Or Foe
25. Ashlee Simpson - Boyfriend
Im still not over it...this is bad really bad..now i just wanna go up to the person and tell that person that im still deeply in love with that person! Which is soo retardedly wrong..noooo i cannot do that..but im still really in love with my past and i derno why..i cant really come up with a reason why i still feel for this person..honestly i really really derno..i mean there's nothing good about this person at all and yet still im head over heals...sigh its just soo weird..i mean i have no reason to like that person and yet i still do? Why why why am i doing this?getting myself into this? Im in a big mess right now..i was on the verge of liking someone else..finally opening up after soo long because i was too hurt to do anything at all and now its all back to the begining where i started again..i dont wanna go back to the begining its ugly and i dont like it..
Anywho i dont wanna talk about that anymore for today its just depressing..ok i skipped class again today cause my group didnt wanna present..the sacrifices i make for them..i mean they could have been the ones that skipped class but i gladly offered to haha well i was going to catch proof but the timings were all bad but since i skipped class i could make it ahhaha soo happy i did cause i got to watch that show..and its AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its sooooo complicated and twisted and mind boggling..love it hahaha and there was Jake..my fav actor whoo hooo! Anywhos it was fun i went out with my socio group mate and yeah we had fun..its deff a movie that im gonna catch again for sure cause its just soo nice and the storyline is soo good..
Ok let me tell you how i bought the tickets ok? So my friend was late so i went to get the tickets first..i walk up and ask for 2 tickets to thw 12:30 show for proof..so the person clicks on the mouse and says oh its an NC16 show so i need your id and your friends id?im like ok here's mine im near 18 and so is my friend and he's like no no i need your friends too cause its NC16..im like what the hell????hello who wants to freaking sneak into an NC16 movie???huh i ask you?sooo stupid..so i walked away disappointed..so while waiting for my friend, i went around looking at stuff..and i decided to try my luck again after that to see if its a different ticket person..and while on the way i saw my other friend..so i went up to her and said, hey can i borrow you for a while, i need your id to get a ticket..do take note that my friend that i was supposed to go with is way above 16..so i went to the counter and true enough it was someone else..guess what she didnt even check me or my friends id so i didnt even have to use her at all..soo stupid but yaeh i thanked her for her "services" tho it wasnt needed..hahaha i cant believe it..i havent got checked for these kinda things for a really long time already why now?weird people...
Oh no dont go changing, thats what you told me from the start..
Its funny how when you look back at the past and you think of the past, fond memories start flooding your head and all you remember are all the good times that you've had with that person and everything that the person has said or done which is bad and ugly, you just forget about everything and just look at how good and wonderful and perfect the person is when actually the person is full of flaws..sad but true..you're just soo blinded that you dont see anything and all..it feels as tho you're on cloud nine but actually you're on a cloud nine that isnt real at all because you're not opening your eyes, rahter you're in a dream that isnt true at all..a make believe one because you're soo blinded by that persons flaw that even you yourself dont realize and someone else has to point out to you to tell you this and that...
Sometimes its really hard to believe what the person said but its true..They say that love is blind and it really is because you dont really see the ugly side of it and all you see is the nice wonderful perfect side..its sad really sad
Yesterday, i met my ex-lover/crush/person that i like..whatever you wanna call it. It wasnt easy for me trust me..because honestly, when i was sick, all that i've been thinking about was that person and no one else.i kept thinking about what would have happened if i didnt do this, we could be this if that didnt happen...all the ifs and whys and stupid me came out of my head and it just brought my brain into a wild frenzy of possibilities that could've happened if i just controlled myself..it was hard cause i still had feelings for that person when i saw that person...i mean i tried to avoid that place where the person usually hangs out but no Priya insisted on bringing me there assuring me that that person would not be there and i soo knew that something bad was gonna happen that day in the morning and true enough it really did..Priya thinks that i have good intuition hahaa..whatever you call it..i still have really fond feelings for that person everytime i think about the past now..and although i've tried to not communicate with that person, the persons name just keeps flashing in my head and the face and everything..damn it isnt easy its just soo hard..i just wanna tell that person "come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever, let me show you all the things that we could do. You know you wanna be together' I really wanna be with this person but its just soo wrong and i just cant but i want to..
now im trying my very best to forget about this person but it aint easy at all it really isnt...sigh i derno what to do with my life..why when i want things to not happen they just happen..at the wrong times..i was on the verge of forgetting but i just had to meet that person
ok now on the happy side..me and Priya are progressing really well..i mean we're still ex best friends but its moving faster then i thought which is good cause i really want us to be like we were before..and im proud of our progress and our frankness with one another its really good..Maybe its because she read my blog hahaahha..but whatever the case is im happy that she did and she's willing to change..it takes 2 hands to clap so yes im gonna change as well..Change isnt easy but if you're willing to take the chance, why not take a crazy chance. You never know whats gonna happen and until you try it you will never know..i've tried it and im happy about everything so yes rock on and i hope that we move even further than we were before because i see our friendship escalating to greater heights and its gonna be a long one, one that we will never forget for the rest of our lives tho we may part after school and everything
TO that person you're everything im not
Ok todays the first day that i got back to school yay!!!!!!!yes finally back to school after soo long..but yes it was great hahaha i made sure that i said hi to everyone in class cause i've missed all my wonderful classmates and i asked how they were and how they've been the past week..well most say they miss me ahha which is good..cause i miss them heaps too..You dont know what its like to sit at home for one week sick and not doing anything but watching tv the whole day but yes its good cause i got to watch the australian open which i will talk about later...
So its still rush rush rush with all the hectic deadlines that i have to meet for my projects and everything but yeah im still coping thanks to my wonderful group mates and i mean all of them, be it for Tort, Criminal, LSM2, Econsor Mbs or my socio group i love all you guys..you guys have been great friends to me and i cant ask anymore from you guys cause you guys are heaps awesome! Rock on! hahahha
SO yeah for like one whole week my fever has been fluctuating like the waves that form high tide and low tide..and im not joking when i say that..it literally goes up and down ahha in the morning sometimes it can go up to about 39. something degrees and then in the afternoon it can fall to about 37. something and at night again it rises to about 38..so basically thats my whole life for one week it was going up and down and going up again and going down..hahah its really irritating actually cause i cant do anything at all and i even missed my friends birthday party which i was soo loooking forward to go cause she's soo nice and i went for her sisters party last week..well i basically crashed it cause it was soo last minute haha but nah she invited us so it was all cool..but still i didnt go for hers..damn!
The funny thing is that music was my life and everything..i didnt listen to any music at all not even the veronicas or anything..and not even mtv ): sadly..but yes finally on sunday i started to listen to music and i didnt even touch my ipod for like one whole week..amazing ahahhahahaha its been like the boringest week ever in my life..but it was much needed recooperation. I guess my body was already giving me signs and signals telling me that i need rest but i just didnt give heed to it so hence the sudden breakdown without any warning at all and it all started with a sore throat that inflammed hahaha..
Ok the australian open started on monday and i was soo excited cause all my favourites are playing and yes im sure some of you heard that MARTINA HINGGIS is back whoooo hoooo...i used to love her heaps when she was around but she retired at such a young age and now she's back in action, but she's still not my number one tho..its stil Justine hahaha (: and yes i saw both of them playing on monday and i must say that im very impressed with Justines service and forehand..it seems to me that she claimed that she needed to work on these two components of her game..and she did and she came back strong with good service which is really impressive..she even sereved a 180kmph which is really good for a girl..thats what guys serve i think haha..and Martina i thouhgt that she was playing really well..she was wearing a black adidas two piece ands he loooked hot ahahhaha totally love her! But yes here's my standings...
1. Justine Henin-Hardenne
2. Maria Sharapova
3. Martina Hinggis
4. Daniella Hantchucova..
thats all and my fav guy player is none other than mr Andy Roddick ahahha rocks! ok i gtg do my work so see ya guys soon kae hahaha!
It was a holiday today..which is really good..but sadly the weather wasnt on our side today..as usual its raining again. Just like every other day now..its really irritating and its getting on my nerves because you cant do anything at all..miserable..is one word to desrcribe these past few days of agnoy i would say as i cant live without the sun! i really really need the sun back in my life..I love the sun alot..ok here i go again being obsessive over stupid things that dont exist at all like my bed but hey some people do share the same sentiments on my comments on my bed haha yes yes i love my bed and if you dont, shame on you! You really need a life if you dont love your bed..i mean how can you not love your bed?its the most important thing in your life haha you do EVERYTHING on your bed and i mean everything...now now are you thinking dirty?hahaha *shakes head...well i wasnt talking about that..i meant everything like sleep study chill, talk to your friends..sigh young people are perversed these days arent they???hahaha what the hell..i can come up with these lame shit crappy stuff that dont even make sense at all hahaa yes i am one of the young perveresed generation to my dismay haha isnt everyone??
So i went out shopping for Chinese New year stuff..as im told im not allowed to wear all black..damn..i was soo excited to wear black during chinese new year..i mean like who the heck cares man i wear all black to everything..and no one makes any noise or says anything like oh you know you cant wear black cause its wrong and its just too dark..like hello..i love wearing black..and it doenst matter to me..but yes so i actually bought a shirt that isnt black..but its dark blue.still close to black..but yes i derno if im gonna be allowed to wear that too cause i bought black pants today haha..and no im not turning goth!
Well im sure all of you know that Priya and I arent enemies anymore and we're friends now. But i have doubts about our relationship as friends right now..Simply because i derno i mean we've said soo many mean things to one another and its not easy to you know forget about everything and act as tho nothing happened at all..I cant do that at all, because things did happen and im trying my very best to forget about what happened but its just so hard. Plus i feel that its really one sided now and im trying my best to open up and everything but im not getting the same vibe from her. I know it isnt easy for her either..i want us to be like before so badly, but right now i doubt that that can ever happen..i derno if she's gonna read this or not but this is just what i think and i havent told anyone about it..and its not that i dont wanna talk to her about it..but its just that i need time..and yes it aint easy at all trust me..
Haha did i say that i love the Veronicas?
1. Hilary Duff - Fly (PW:#1/=/P:1[9])
2. The Veronicas - 4ever (PW:#2/=/P:2[5])
3. Hilary Duff - Someone's Watching Over Me (PW:#2/=/P:2[6])
4. Ryan Cabrera - Fall Baby Fall (PW:#4/=/P:4[8])
5. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not (PW:#5/=/P: 5[6])
6. Ryan Cabrera - Shine On (PW:#6/=/P:4[1])
7. The Veronicas - Nobody Wins (PW:#11/=/P:7[3])
8. The Veronicas - Leave Me Alone (PW:#9/=/P:8[2]
9. Ryan Cabrera - Photo (PW:#13/+4/P:9[1])
10. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart (PW:#10/=/P:7[3]
11. Ryan Cabrera - From The Start (PW:#11/=/P:11[2])
12. Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You (PW:#14/+2/P:10[5])
13. Hilary Duff - Beat Of My Heart (PW:#12/-1/P:12[1])
14. Hilary Duff - Wake Up (PW:#9/-5/P:5[1])
15. Hilary Duff - Come Clean (PW:#18/+3/P:10[1])
16. Mariah Carey - We Belong Together (PW:15/-1/P:15[1])
17. The Veronicas - Mouth Shut (PW:20/+3/P:17[1])
18. Kaci Brown - Unbelievable (PW:#-/RETURN/P:9[4])
19. Lifehouse - You And Me (PW:#-/DEBUT/P:19[1])
20. Yellowcard - Only One (PW:16/-4/P:16[1])
Fall Offs
Ryan Cabrera - True @No.19
The Veronicas - How Long @No.17
On The Verge
21. Britney Spears - Someday(I Will Understand)
22. PCD - StickWitYou
23. The All-American Rejects - Straightjacket Feeling
24. The Veronicas - How Long
25. Mariah Carey - Dont Forget About Us
Interesting title aint it? Well lettme tell you about what i think about it!
IT TOTALLY SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!I SOOOOO FREAKING HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its ruining my entire life..its been raining non-stop for the past few days and its getting on my nerves! it irritates me i cant take it! one more time it rains i just feel like killing myself..it brings saddness into my life. I feel so dejected everytime it rains..like i have no life at all because you cant go anywhere at all..its just sooo irritating because you have nothing to do but to go home and sleep..which isnt a bad thing but its just weird cosidering that my sleeping times are really erratic and the rain isnt helping but i must comment that the rain is a good catalyst to help you sleep a better sleep ahahah...
Ok thats all that i want to say hahaa..and oh i love my group members! im soo proud of them! you guys rock!!!!!!!see i knew that we could do it..you just have to believe in yourself! (:
The Veronicas and Me (:
Ryan!
Ok i was supposed to go run with this Dr William guy but sad to say that i couldnt go run with him to support him in his "ordeal" that he was going thru...well yes i blame it entirely on my bed..its all its fault..it was calling out to me as i left the bed and it refused to let me go..it held on tight to me and made me feel so confortable, with the warmth of the blanket and the softness of the pillow and the low frequency call of the bed, who can resist the pleasure of sleeping and staying in bed and not getting up..Well my bed never used to be like that to me, but i have no idea why its treating me this way. Sometimes i question myself and ask myself if im abusive, whether i abuse my bed..but i dont..i take uttermost care for my bed and i love it as much as my dear ipod..these two things are the pride of my life..I love my bed no matter what..and dont you go and say bad things about my bed behind my back..i know my bed has done many bad bad things like not letting me go, but it has served me well all these years and i cannot bare to part with it (:
ok so i went out with my project members today..it was really fun but we went to this really really weird place..i dont even know where it is..ok its soo weird..and i never go there and stuff..but the company was great..we went around shopping looking for i derno what crap stuff..but it was funny cause we walked around like stupid fools and honestly i felt like a tourist cause i dont even know where the hell i was..and it was just really weird i felt like i was in thailand or something cause the shops looked so familiar like on some street in thailand or malaysia..cause of the environment, the constant banging loud techonish music that i cannot stand and everyone bargaining for the best price..its not like Singapore at all or how people would imagine Singapore to be..to me its like some rural area or something ahah i've never step foot into that place before and it kinda freaks me out..
BUT i had heaps of fun and an excellent dinner which sums everything up and basically thanks to the food i kinda forgot about what happened already cause i couldnt care less food matters more to me than anything else..haha love food! So yes one of my friends insisted we go to this place to eat..cause her friend said that the food there is really nice..but it was overpriced and i kinda got ripped off..but WHATEVER ahhaahahahah...yes yes today was fun..i enjoyed it (:
Oooo ahha yes i got derailed today..i was a bad bad bad boy..haha i coaxed my friend to not go for tutorial today tsk tsk bad bad hahaha..and yes so i went with her to watch Derailed..its funny tho cause i'ver never skipped any tutorials before but whatever..haha..shhhh its a secret
Anywhos i thought the movie was great! totally awesome and i loved it! it was really nice and usually i can predict what happens in the endings of movies but i couldnt do it for this one..it was really twisted...was really shocked tho but still i love it! haha and did i say that Jennifer Aniston looked sooo freaking hot! HOT ok really really really hot..sigh its soo sad she's with that guy and not Brad..they were like the perfect couple..basically she cheated on some guy in the movie and thats all im gonna say cause i dont wanna spoil it ahah..but yes go watch the movie its just excellent..note that its NC 16 which means you people who are younger cant watch ahahaha i laugh at you lol ok no im just kidding if you want i can help you buy the dvd hahahaahhahahaha...ok anywhos its a must watch show..thats for sure..and guess what they didnt check our ids today haha first time man..everytime i go and watch and NC 16 show, without fail, the ticket guy would check my id or the sales guy derno what you call him but yes amazing..maybe its cause of my wake up shirt
ok im wiped and im really really tired so this shall be a short post
i had fun today! thanks for skipping tutorial with me haha it was fun and i had a good time.im convincing aint i?hahahahahahaha
Wow a whole new year of music this rocks!
1. Hilary Duff - Fly (PW:#1/=/P:1[8])
2. The Veronicas - 4ever (PW:#2/=/P:2[4])
3. Hilary Duff - Someone's Watching Over Me (PW:#2/=/P:2[6])
4. Ryan Cabrera - Fall Baby Fall (PW:#4/=/P:4[8])
5. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not (PW:#5/=/P: [5])
6. Ryan Cabrera - Shine On (PW:#6/=/P:4[1])
7. The Veronicas - Nobody Wins (PW:#11/=/P:7[2])
8. The Veronicas - Leave Me Alone (PW:#9/+1/P:8[1])
9. Hilary Duff - Wake Up (PW:#8/-1/P:5[1])
10. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart (PW:#7/=/P:7[3])
11. Ryan Cabrera - From The Start (PW:#12/+1/P:11[1])
12. Hilary Duff - Beat Of My Heart (PW:#13/+1/P:12[1])
13. Ryan Cabrera - Photo (PW:20/+7/P:13[1])
14. Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You (PW:#15/+1/P:10[5])
15. Mariah Carey - We Belong Together (PW:17/+2/P:15[1])
16. Yellowcard - Only One (PW:18/+2/P:16[1])
17. The Veronicas - How Long (PW:19/+2/P:17[1])
18. Hilary Duff - Come Clean (PW:#10/-7/P:10[1])
19. Ryan Cabrera - True (PW:#14/-5/P:14[1])
20. The Veronicas - Mouth Shut (PW:-/Debut/P:20[1])
Fall Offs
Kaci Brown - Unbelievable @No.16
On The Verge
21. Lifehouse - You And Me
22. Kaci Brown - Unbelievable
23. Delta Goodrem - Lost Without You
24. Mariah Carey - Dont Forget About Us
25. Delta Goodrem - A Little Too Late
Wow is all that i've got to say about this year..Well there were many ups and downs and song changes here and there but nevertheless there were songs that topped many charts for many weeks and they are still running for the top spots, 4ever one of the biggest contender to kick fly out of its top spot. As usual i would only be counting singles because as some of you readers may know there are some cds that i just love so much that the whole cd is within the top 20(eg the secret life of the veronicas and many others) Its been an exciting year with many big changes and im glad that these changes were made and songs that arent supposed to be there anymore arent..so read on to see who got the top spot! just to let you know i love all the songs on the charts. With Ryan out of the way, now its the 3 girls that are battling it out until the end..im sure some of you may be wondering where the veronicas are because you havent seen any of their song on the charts yet but fret not cause here they come!!!!!! ok haha the next song is exciting!!!!!!!!!! yes and here's the moment we've all been waiting for.Can 4ever beat the all time number 1 song that has been number 1 since it debuted? and now the number 1 song!
50. Rumours - Lindsay Lohan
- This song is such an awesome song, the beat just makes you wanna get up and dance and sing along to it. I must admit that i actually hated this song at first because i hated Lindsay Lohan, tho this wasnt the song that opened me up to Linsday. This is the first out of 3 lindsay songs on the charts
49. And I - Ciara
- One of the best ballads this year i would say tho she doesnt really show off her vocal skills, but nonetheless i still liked it but sometimes i hate this song cause it brings back sad memories. Also the first out of 3 Ciara songs
48. Dont Let Me Be The Last To Know - Britney Spears
- I just adore the video for this simply because Britney looks soo hot in here and yes this is a really old song but still its good one of her best! One out of many britney songs to come
47. My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne
- The only Avril song on the charts. To sum it all up im soo over Avril Lavigne..right now but this is one of her best songs!
46. She Will Be Loved - Maroon 5
- Ahh one of my all time fav songs..never fails to make my day
45. And Then We Kiss - Britney Spears
- Her newest song out of her latest cd..i love it hahaha its just sooo technoish/danceish and yes i love those kinda music haha like breathe on me but sadly it isnt on..great great song it makes me happy too!
44. You And Me - Lifehouse
- Currently i really really love this song but its soo sad that i got it in the last quater and it didnt affect me as much as other songs that i got at the begining of the year becuase it had intense competition with other songs like 4ever haha..but yes its really really nice (:
43. Leave(Get Out) - Jojo
- Im not sure if this is one of my all time fav songs but stragely its on the charts i have no idea why but its her best song! Sadly its the one and only one by her here...
42. Our Lips Are Sealed - Hilary Duff feat Haylie Duff
- Everytime i hear this song, it never fails to bring laughter and joy into my life. Its such a happy song but if you actually listen to the lyrics its quite bitchy ya so i derno hahah but its still good.."doesnt matter what they say, in the jealous games people play...our lips are sealed" i dont even know how many of her songs areon the charts
41. Dont Forget About Us - Mariah Carey
- The Divas back! Hahaha she's just soo good..be sure to keep a look out for her best song We Belong Together, contending for the top spot as well!
40. Confessions of a Broken Heart - Lindsay Lohan
- The anticipation for her new album and new song made me like it tho i hated it at first but now its growing on me..there have been many songs like that this year, hating it at first then liking it. Lyrics are quite dumb as well
39. Pon De Replay - Rhianna
- Same as above, i hated this song at first but then thanks to my friend who made me download the song, i like it now!
38. She's No You - Jesse McCartney
- Honestly i have no idea why i downloaded this song at all..no reason cause i hated him..notice its past tense..but yes i really derno why man like seriously so yeah thats all i have to say but i love the song!
37. Beat of My Heart - Hilary Duff
- Ok this is the reason why i started hating Hilary Duff, im telling you when i first heard this song i was like shit Hilary wrote this?like omg hello this is probably the crappiest thing ever written in the entire world and i got soo pissed cause it sucked soo badly and i stopped listening to it and everything but yes when the video came out i was like shit no freaking way the video is soo damn nice lar! cannot take it man haha so i was really happy that it was a nice video and everything..and i started listening to the song..and soon it caught on to me and im loving it more and more each day and its just soo addictive sometimes that you just have to listen to it..maybe there's some secret chant thing like in the background of the song haha that makes you wanna listen to it more and more!. its been played about 92 times already thats quite alot for a hated song.."beat of my heart, beat of my heart, beat of my heat, it tears us apart"
36. Boyfriend - Ashlee Simpson
- i like the song but i hate the video..end of story if you want to know more about this song do feel free to ask my sister she loves it!
35. We Believe - Good Charlotte
- This song made me like good charlotte and made me accept joel as Hilarys boyfriend..great song! sad tho
34. Dont Lie - BEP
- Its soo much better than my humps honestly i derno why it did worse..awesome song!
33. Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson
- I hated this song to the extreme core cause i felt that it was too overplayed and the video sucked..but the funniest thing is that when i was soo damn sad i listened to it and it made me happy..do i need to further elaborate????? "Here I am, once again, im torn into pieces, cant deny it cant pretend, just thought you were the one"
32. StickWitYou - PCD
- LOve this song heaps best ballad from them
31. Sunday Morning - Maroon 5
- This song made me love them even more..such a good chill out song to listen on sundays tho sadly i cant do that but oh well..
30. Everytime - Britney Spears
- This is such an awesome and i just love it to pieces plus the video is just amazing. dont get me in the wrong way its just soo captivating and her hair omg she looks soo damn freaking hot in this video i just loev it soo much "Everytime i try to fly i fall without my wings i feel so small"
29. Lost My Breath - Destiny's Child
- This has got to be their best song ever..the tune is soo catchy and its soo upbeat and yes like rumours it really makes you wanna get out of your seat and start to dance.
28. 1,2 Step - Ciara feat Missy Elliot
- Hhahah this song made me love Ciara..she's soo awesome in this song she's like a great dancer tho not as good as beyonce but yeah beyonce is different haha she's whoa the best ever man.."let me see you 1,2 step. I love it when you 1,2 step"
27. Im A Slave 4 You - Britney Spears
- Yes this is the ultimate sex song ever hahaa..but guess what?i love sex songs especially this one! Firstly the video is sooooooooo hot and she loooks sooo damn hot and pretty...One of my most favouritest Britney songs that is really fun to sing along and dance along to "im a Slave 4 you"
26. Toxic - Britney Spears
- Well what can i say, this song can compete for being the ultimate sex song of this century..but this song is just amazing its soo catchy and really fun to sing along to and i just simply love it..i remember when i first heard it i just fell in love with it and ever since that day i've been loving this song more and more each day..i dont even wanna go into the video because there's just too much to say about it..sadly it isnt as high as it was last year..this was a 2004 song and it was much higher at that time..i think it was competiting for the top spot as well but yeah look on the bright side, its still here..at number 26 doing really well..taking the second highest britney song in the charts!"You're toxic, im slipping under"
25. Come Clean - Hilary Duff
- "let the rain fall down and wake my dreams. Let it wash away, my sanity. Cause i wanna feel the thunder i wanna scream. Let the rain fall down, im coming clean" it is such a feel good song to sing along to and have so much fun with, just letting go of yourself and singing along to the chorus that is super catchy and it never fails to get you excited and jumpy. I remember last year, this song was always fighting with toxic for the number 1 spot on the weekly top 10 songsand now it did beat toxic but well both fell really badly..used to be in the top 10 but oh well..still love this song its a really fun song!
24. Dont Cha - PCD
- The last PCD song on the countdown but nevertheless its the best song and it did make the half way mark..haha at first i used to hate this song cause i thought it was really stupid and all my friends said that it was too overplayed and that wasnt right for me because i havent heard of the song before so it wasnt right to judge, but after i downloaded it, i began to love it more and more each day..so yeah i guess thast about it haha "dont cha wish your boyfriend was hot like me?" a good sex song too!
23. Photo - Ryan Cabrera
- Wow is all i can say about this as well is that i just simply love it and its the most recent song that i love hence the position tho it is the worst Ryan song on the charts but still really high for the lowest. I actually loved it when i bought the album and it wouldn have made the cut if Ryan didnt release it as a single. So yeah im glad that he did and when he released the video, i loved it even more cause Lisa was in it(she's from the veronicas,half of it) so yeah and she looks so hot..But the lyrics to this song are sooo meaningful. "When you told me that you love me, were those just words? you cant tell you dont need me when i know that hurts" awwww yes but still one of his best songs ever and video as well!
22. Only One - Yellowcard
- "here i go, scream my lungs out to try to get to you, you are my only one" i just love this song to the extreme core..its like my all time fav song and it soo describes my life..i liked this band cause of this song..its just their best ever! and of course i love their album heaps too! just soo good that even mere words cannot describe, but sadly it isnt one of the top songs cause there are soo many songs that did better than this but fret not cause this is my one of my all time fav songs so i'll always love it..and there will be more to come next year from this song for sure!
21. La La - Ashlee Simpson
- "You make me wanna La La, in the kitchen on the floor. I'll be your french maid,drink the milk up i want more" hahahhaha she claims that this isnt a sex song? you must be kiding man..lol this song has sex written all over it even the video as well..all it says is sex sex and more sex, but surprisingly this song isnt one of the contenders for being the ultimate sex song, in fact its far from it..dont ask me why i just dont see ashlee as a sex symbol compared to say Britney or more Britney..but overall a good song to also go crazy too and do remeber to scream your lungs out when you're singing this song
20. True - Ryan Cabrera
- I have to start this song by saying that i absolutely love this song to the extreme core! its like one of the best songs in the entire universe that show cases such skill in playing the guitar and it can be only accomplished by only one person in this entire universe. This person is none either than Mr.Ryan Cabrera himself! Yes you heard me he's the bestest guitar player in the world and yes he's better than you Guitar kid in case you're reading this! IN YOUR FACE hahahahah! anywhos yes yes this song is just amazing..it has soo much meaning to it..its like you're soo afraid to cross the line but eventually you do and so many things happened and could happen when you do and this song just shows and expresses how the guy feels. "i've waited all my life to cross this line, to the only thing thats true"
19. Pointless Relationship - Tammin Sursok
- I remember the first time when i heard this song, i thought that she was Hilary but i couldnt confirm until i went to aus and saw this video on mtv..she's a really talented actress who acted in home and away, a show that i got soo hoooked on when i was there but she wasnt acting at that time cause she was busy with her album and she left the show.but yes this song is really upbeat and as you can see the title just describes everything, so what more can i say?good break up song for sure! One of her 2 songs that are on the charts and i love this song alot!
18. Here I Am - Marion Raven
- I used to be really really crazy over this song its just sooo nice! " Atomic winter in my soul, from the absence of the sun" is my fav line from the song..its an amazing song but right now i've got nothing to say about it..
17. Oh - Ciara feat Ludacris
- The one and only Ciara song on the list..when so much is going on about how Ciaras a guy and everything i still dont really care about what they say cause i dont beleive a single word..Ciara's a really talented GIRL and yes she's a great dancer and this is one of my fav songs from here..good beat good vibe! "Oh"
16. Whatever Will Be - Tammin Sursok
- Ah the second song on the charts from tammin..this song is by far one of the best ballads by her and its really good..it might be the best ballad ever in my opinion but i really derno..too early to tell cause its not the end of my life yet hahaha..well this song is a really carefree song and you dont really have to care about anything and its just like me aint it?hahahaha fav line from this song is "is the weight of your mind, a heavly black bird caged in side?" its just soo meaningul..
15. Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson
- One of the best song on the charts..wow hahah this song is just soooooo nice..one of the best songs this year seriously..Kelly has been Boom Boom Boom..she's been dominating the countdowns all over the world, hit after hit starting from Since You Been Gone.This is a wonderful ballad, comparable to whatever will be and it could even be better. Its just so heart warming and it kinda describes my life in some ways but i wont go into that..basically tihs song has been impacting my life and still will be in the coming years, i can see this song to be one of my all time favs as well making it 2 kelly songs with A Moment Like This as well.
14. Unbelievable - Kaci Brown
- When i first heard her on trl on first look, i immediately fell in love with her..its like love at first sight haha..its a great song really and i think everyone should go listen to it..but its really sad cause this song didnt even do well at all. It didnt even reach the charts and i dont even think it was released here and im probably the only who actually knows who she is..sad but i guess in life some of the very good singers arent really noticed at all..
13. Dirty Little Secret - The All-American Rejects
- "I'll keep you my dirty Little secret" indeed i will..this was a song that i shared with my friend..funny song but one may think that by looking at the title its a sex song but ah you're wrong..its not one bit about sex a all..funny you should say but yes its not hahaa love this song to the core..it made me love them! And i must add that they are good live!
12. Since You Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson
- This is the best Kelly Clarkson song on the charts whoo hoo!..can anyone tell me in the face that they hate this song?noooooooo hahaha why because this song is not hatetable..!its great! Wonderful break up song..you'll feel a sense of uplift after you break up and listen to this song.."Since You been gone, i can breathe for the first time" it shows that you dont need that person in your life and you can do without that person! and you're gonna do soo much without that person in your life because you dont even need that person at all! Kellys voice gets stretched here but its still all good! Proves that she's a good singer!
11. A Little Too Late - Delta Goodrem
- "Im a little too young to understand" do you think im too young to understand anything?hahaha maybe perhaps..but i love the chorus especially the "do do do.." par its just soo happyish and i seldom listen to happy songs...mostly depressing ones and this is a different kinda genre as well and its happyish hahaha thats what i love about it..another feel good songs for all you sad people out there who need a life go listen to this song and im sure it'll make you happy..trust me on this! (:
10. Lost Without You - Delta Goodrem
- "All i know is that im lost without you, im not gonna lie. How am i gonna be strong without you, i need you by my side. If we ever say we never be togehter and we ended with a goodbye, i dont know what i'd do" I have loved this song for the longest amount of time. It has been with me since i was 15..and i still love it alot..although its a really sad song, i still love it because its just soo meaningful and i used to love her alot..this is her best song on my list. and im sure it will be around for a very long period of time because i dont know what i would do without this song..the best delta song on the charts..congrats to Delta!
9. Over - Lindsay Lohan
- AAAAAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..my fav Lindsay Song! And yes everyone knows that i hate/loathe/dislike Lindsay to the extreme core..but omg i just love over soo much..it made me a fan of her music..and after that i began to open up thanks to this song! Until today when i listen to this song, i never get sick of it at all..im really surprised cause im supposed to hate Lindsay see which means that im not supposed to listen to this song. But i remember when i was in aus, i was randomizing all the videos on yahoo.com and then it played Lindsay..at first i didnt know that it was her cause it was a new song..then after listening for a while i realized it was her..i was about to change the song and it reached the chorus..and thats when i fell in love with it.." dont tell me that its over...." sad too but yeah whatever! hahaha its soo yesterday now what i felt but yes thanks to this song!
8. Someone's Watching Over Me - Hilary Duff
- "I wont give up, no i wont break down. Sooner than it seems life turns around. And i will be strong, even if it all goes wrong. When im standing in the dark i'll still believe, that someone's watching over me" This is such an inspiring song..i know that in life there are many challenges that i go thru everyday. Somtimes the trouble in life may be too difficult for me to go through or face be it school work or my friends. This song inspires me to never give no matter what happens and to always stand my ground and so no i wont break down and i wont give up and i will raise my voice and stay strong. Its like when everything falls apart, i know i can rely on this song to cheer me up and it never fails to do so. There's just this thing about this song..although its a Hilary song, i know many of my friends think that its really nice cause it speaks about them as well and they can relate to it..it gives me joy to see so many of my friends liking this song and because of it, they are able to get thru their obsticles in life. This song has been with me since the album Hilary Duff came out. I was expecting this song to still stay at the number 2 spot but unfortunately it didnt..which is really sad but oh well..i know that it would always be there "it doesnt matter what people say, it doesnt matter how long it takes. Believe in yourself and you'll fly high. It only matters how true you are, be true to yourself and follow your heart!"
7. Someday(I Will Understand) - Britney Spears
- "All that im praying is that someday i will understand" hhaha it amuses me because im still waiting for that someday..because i still dont understand! lol but yeah i was amazed at what Britney came up with..i did not expect this at all coming from her who by the way released one of the all time most greatest sex songs ever...haha but yes even tho its mellow and slow and soothing and all lyrically nice and sweet, its still a great song..It got many critics giving really bad comments on how oh britney should just stick to what she came up with and what crap stuff but who cares what they say because i think this song is awesome! And if you dont like it then thats your problem haha..its a really nice song by Britney and if you havent heard it yet..shame on you but you'll be surprised its a good sleeping song lol..yes yes i have a sleeping playlist and the song above is in it too..back to the song..oh yes the video is also really shocking as well..cause you usually see britney you know doing her thing and everything but in this song she's all toned down and its all in black and white which is totally cool ahhaha i love it alot..kinda retro haha
6. We Belong Together - Mariah Carey
- Im not gonna post any lyrics for this song because i dont have much to say about this song but that its Mariahs best song ever and her voice in here is just amazing..sooo good ha!..it topped most of the charts in every part of the world and i dont think there's anything else to say about this song..because as i said before mere words just cannot describe it..the funny thing that this was the last song written on the album and if it had been released without this song, i dont know what the album would be like cause this song just sums up the whole album..and if you havent heard this song before, you should just pack up and go fly to the moon where you dont hear anything at all cause thats what you're doing now..not hearing anything cause its everywhere and i really mean everywhere!
5. Shine On - Ryan Cabrera
- "Shine on, you were made to. Even if we can or cant be friends, i'll be with you until the very end" This song has kept me strong all these while..sounds crappy but yeah..i've been listening to it to draw all the strength from it..life in the last quater of the year wasnt easy for me and thank goodness this song came in time haha..its just nice and its been there for me..really..and i derno what i would do without this song. Ryan Cabrera has been such an inspiration to me and i really wanna learn how to play the guitar like him, if i could learn it from him that would be even better..lol yes but i know that that would never happen. Yes this is the best Ryan song on the charts..not bad for being my second most favouritest singer and being number 5! 3 cheeers to Ryan Cabrera as he exists the countdown and now its the top 4...
4. Wake Up - Hilary Duff
- OOOooooOOOOOooooo a Hilary song hahaa..i was kinda disappointed when Hilary released this song..because it wasnt what i wanted..after coming up with an awesome second album Hilary Duff, she came up with this..i was like oh man Hilarys gone ahha this is the end and she's gonna be hated by the whole entire world because it sucks like crap..but to my surprise it was accepted with warm open arms..her album shot to the number 1 spot in its first week and it was great! And this song lasted 50 days on trl and it actually retired which is a big shocker..but im happy cause although this song doesnt have much meaning to it beacuse its just one of those feel good songs that make you go crazy and high but this is what i got from the song, "there's people talking, they talk about me. They know my name they think they know everything. But they dont know anything about me.............people all around you everywhere that you go, people all around you they dont really know you. Everybodys watching like its some kinda show, everybodys watching, they dont really know you now, and forever!" this is soo true because everywhere that you go people will just talk but you dont have to care about what they say ahahaha just wake up and dance like crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!whooo hoooo
3. Everything Im Not - The Veronicas
- Yay finally a Veronicas song..well there are only 2 on the countdown..im sure yall know what the next one is..haha i shall keep my mouth shut about it. Yes back to the song..wow this song is just amazing...Well some may ask why its soo high haha actually i have no idea..i just really love this song alot..i derno how many times i've said that about any song but yes this song is really really good! Such a wonderful break up song..its to tell that person dude its not ok..you know what we have is not working out right now and im angry and pissed at you for what you've done to me so just get lost and leave me alone..cause im everything you're not so there's no way that this is gonna work out between us because we're soo yesterday..yes i feel happy when i listen to this song actually haha cause its just soo wonderful. The Veornicas(Lisa and Jess) would describe this song as a little bit more angry compared to 4ever..This song also showcases the wonderful vocal skillls of the twins and they really can sing in this song..a good follow up to their first single 4ever. "I Was losing myself to somebody else, but now i see. I dont wanna pretend so this is the end of you and me.Cause the girl, that you want, she was tearing us apart, cause she's everything im not" well its a girl song but whatever haha you can change the girl part to a guy or your girlfriend could be a lesbian ahhahahahha ok just joking but you never know see..lol..
2. 4ever - The Veronicas
- NOOOOOOOOOoooooooooo unfortunately this song did not beat fly hahah..yes im sorry but i dont think that there's any song that can ever beat fly at all...As everyone knows that the highlight of this year is probably this song..for me in the music industry. This song IS THE BEST SONG EVER! 4EVER!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha and it is really really really addictive..ok to prove it here is how i actually started liking the song. my friend from a hilary board has been telling me about this new group called the veronicas, honestly, i thought that it was some old group or something and i didnt really listen to her haha bad bad me..so one fine day i turn on the telly and trl was on..so i watched it and Vanessa(a trl host) said dont go away cause when we come back we'll have a first look of the new video from The Veronicas, 4ever so i was like oh ok so thats The Veronicas, the group that my friend was talking to me about(btw she's from aus like them!) anywhos so it came and i was like hmm its not bad after all still listenable you know..and i turned on the com and i was actually contemplating on whether or not i should download the song..and finally i said since they are from aus and i support aus music i should donwload it..when i listen to it for the first time i was like ok lettme listen to it again..and before you know it i was listening to it over and over and over again and now the second most played song on my itunes of course you know who the first is..1110 times haha amazin aint it? So yeap basically i just love this song cause its a really dark feel good song and YES it is a sex song as well in case all of you do not know hahaa but its sad tho..cause its a sex song ahahahah...it shows off how good The Veronicas are as singers and the video is soo lesbiany that all my friends think they are lesbians and i have to reassure them that they arent haha. these are the lines i like from the song, "let them say what they wanna say, cause tonight i just dont really care. Come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever. Let me show you all the things that we could do. You know you wanna be together and i wanna spend the night with you. Come with me tonight we could make the night last 4ever." its soo addictive that even vicki loves it hahahaha see that proves my point cause he hates the veronicas alot..and i know deep down inside he loves 4ever! 4ever will be apart of my life from now onwards, i just know that i will love 4ever forever!
1. Fly - Hilary Duff
- Yesssssssssssssssssss the number 1 song of the whole entire year for 2 years in a row is none other than Ms Hilary Duff herself with fly..its been 2 amazing years that this song has been with me for all the days of my life. I must say that this song has made the most impact in my life and i really wouldnt know what to do without this song. It has thought me soo much and it really inspired me to do so many things which i would have never thought that i would do. I didnt even think that a song could affect me soo greatly in life. Its really a mystery to me because i myself dont know. Maybe its because of the extent that i listen to this song to, or it could be because i go really deep into this song and find the real inner meaning behind it. This song has been there in my trials and tribulations, my jubilant and joyous moments and when im soo down that i just dont feel like talking to anyone at all..tho im a person that once i start talking to someone i become happy instantly..weird but yes.."Any moment everything can change" I soo believe in this line..because its soo true..really at anytime, any place anything can change and everything will change for the good or the bad, but its really up to you to change the outcome of it. If you want to resent to fate and let bad things happen and not do anything about it then im sorry its your loss..but this song has thought me to change everything for the good, to reach for my dreams, to follow them and to chase them, even when everything seems hollow, to continue to hear the call and to feel it in my soul, and to trust the longing to take control of it! "Fly, open up the part of you that wants to hide away. You can shine, forget about the reasons why you cant in life. And start to try, cause its your time, time to fly" It taught me to open up and not to keep everything inside of me because it just needs to come out..forget about all the reasons why you cant in life. I know that some people are always there to bring you down and to discourage you but even if the problem is too big to handle, you should just forget about all these reasons why you cant but think of the reasons why you can because it is your time to shine! You know that you can do it if you just believe in yourself and try..because you can fly! "And when you're down and feel alone, just wanna run away. Trust yourself and dont give up. You know you better than anyone else" There are times in life that i feel really down because the problem is just too hard to handle. But everytime i listen to this line from the song, it just brings me to my knees and it strengthens me to be someone that i never thought that i would be..its just soo inspirational that i can just go on and on about it..Musically the arrangement for this song is really good..kinda abit more edgy for a Hilary song but still its cool..Hilary terms this song as being really dark and intense but its a feel good song for sure..tho a really dark one..and the video for this song is just flawless..there's nothing about this song that i hate and i know im gonna love it till i die!
thats all folks..this took really long to do btw....
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