1. Hilary Duff - Fly (PW:#1/=/P:1[7])
2. The Veronicas - 4ever (PW:#2/=/P:2[3])
3. Hilary Duff - Someone's Watching Over Me (PW:#2/-1/P:2[6])
4. Ryan Cabrera - Fall Baby Fall (PW:#4/=/ P:4[7])
5. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not (PW:#5/=/P: [4])
6. Ryan Cabrera - Shine On (PW:#6/=/P:4[1])
7. The Veronicas - Nobody Wins (PW:#11/+4/P:7[1])
8. Hilary Duff - Wake Up (PW:#8/=/P:5[1])
9. The Veronicas - Leave Me Alone (PW:#9/=/P:9[2])
10. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart (PW:#7/-3/P:7[3])
11. Hilary Duff - Come Clean (PW:#10/-1 P:10[1])
12. Ryan Cabrera - From The Start (PW:#12/=/P:12[2])
13. Hilary Duff - Beat Of My Heart (PW:#15/2/P:13[1])
14. Ryan Cabrera - True (PW:#16/+2/P:14[1])
15. Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You (PW:#13/-2/P:10[5])
16. Kaci Brown - Unbelievable (PW:#17/+1/P:9[4])
17. Mariah Carey - We Belong Together (PW:18/+1/P:17[1])
18. Yellowcard - Only One (PW:-/Debut/P:18[1])
19. The Veronicas - How Long (PW:-/Debut/P:19[1])
20. Ryan Cabrera - Photo (PW:-/Debut/P:20[1])
Fall Offs
Tammin Sursok - Whatever Will Be @No.14
Kelly Clarkson - Since You Been Gone @No.19
The Veronicas - Speechless @No.20
On The Verge
21. Tammin Sursok - Whatever Will Be
22. The Veronicas - Speechless
23. The Veronicas - Mouth Shut
24. The Veronicas - Heavily Broken
25. Lindsay Lohan - Over
Wow time passes by soo quickly..it was just a few days ago that i had my last paper and now im celebrating christmas eve!
Today was alright actually..had christmas dinner with my family and my cousin ditched me hahaha cause i ditched him yesterday...no im kidding...he brought his girlfriend along to our usual family dinner so yes he had to spend time with her but i still had fun..played scrabble..which i totally sucked at tho i came in 2nd even tho im like the stupidest person there cause i was the youngest and yes the rest are seriously smart and when i say smart i mean really really smart..so yeah it was ok went home opened some presents and i had a call from my friend asking me to meet him up
SO i met him up and we went to the beach, we hung out and heard retarded people counting down christmas at 11:55pm which was soo werid cause its not even 12 yet and they were like 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 and im like wtf????its not even 12 yet..
They played crappy techno music and that stupid chicken little song..
when it was 12, i tried calling my friends and everything but some didnt answer cause they were too drunk to and some didnt even on their phone..well the best conversation i had was with vicki..surprising aint it..so this is how it goes..hey merry christmas!!!!!!!!! him:yeah whatever! me:what the hell hello its like christmas! him: yeah yaeh ok fine merry christmas..haha he was being soo mean as usual..
well it was fun at least i know that i spent christmas eve with someone that i really care for and its cool...so yeah it rocked!
cant wait for christmas!
Today me and Guitar Kid gave revengeful girl a new name haha manipulative girl! Its weird but yeah we still gave her that name anyhow..
Me and Guitar Kid and Manipulative girl were supposed to go out together but no manipulative didnt wanna come she was being mean to us and everything but who cares haha so we went out and yes i was being bullied the whole way..
So it started with me having to go to school to do my projects...kinda sucky but yeah..everyone was late as usual which isnt a big surprise and yes i went to school half and hour earlier to make sure that i was on time so no one can have to reason to mark me down for being late..but i can hahaha
anyhows it was time to leave so i left and guess what as usual Guitar kid was going to be late so i purposely missed the train so that i would be late too..little did i know that missing the train was a good thing to do cause i bumped into my cousin on the train..He didnt see me on the train so i called him and said "Hey we're on the same train and in the same carriage" and he looked around and he finally found me haha it was funny..we talked and stuff and we found out that we were heading to the same place and he was kinda early too so we hung out together..
We went to flash n splash and i showed him the bag that i wanted to get and he said that it was nice but i didnt know if i should get it or not. Ok lettme tell you what happened when we walked into the shop. We walked in and all of a sudden the alarm rang, i was like shit what the hell did i do wrong did i steal something or was it him..then he took out this shirt and went to the counter and said urm excuse me my brother bought this shirt from aus and they didnt remove the thing so can you remove it for me?and they said no soo mean! well so we walked out..it was soo embarrassing cause its like we stole something or something but we didnt steal anything at all so we went around shops looking for places that could actually remove those things for us but unfortunately we couldnt.. So we walked around looking for earings for his girlfriend and we found out that diamonds are really really ex ahha tho i already know it but i didnt really care cause i dont need to buy one but when i really look at it and find out how much it costs, i feel the pinch..my pooor cousin ahaha...
So yeah guitar kid called..and i had to ditch my cousin, i felt soo bad cause you know its not really nice to ditch people so yeah me and Guitar kid hung out the whole day bought presents. He we being exceptionally mean to me today! i dont wanna say what happen cause i hate him for what he said lol..usually when i ask him whether i should eat ice cream or like food like aunti annes or gelare or other kinda shops he would say no but i asked if i should eat gelare and he said yes haha he was being soo nice lol yes cause he was being soo mean to me..
We had dinner at my friends place and we met candice!!!!yay i was soo happy to see her tho i was pissed at her..BUT she was really mean to me..she was all being bitchy and everything but we finally settled down and i had a good time with her cause it was soo fun. She brought her boyfriend down and i got to meet him..he's cool and i think he's perfect for her! im happy that she's with him at least i know that she's safe..we didnt really get to spend much time together cause we were in a whole group. But when she was about to leave i stopped her and scolded her for not telling me what her real surname was cause she told me it was nai cause she thinks i cant pronounce Ngai so finally we settled the score. I noticed a painting hanging on the wall so i told her to come over cause it was a picture of the sydney harbour bridge and the opera house..and we were acting stupid and she said ooo look there are small people like walking in the park and i was like oh yes i can see them they look soo cute haha..then i pointed to the water saying you know if you look closely, maybe you can find dolphins swimming in the ocean, and she was like ooo right im sure i can actually find them and then we saw small boats along the harbour as well ..we looked up and we saw clouds and some parts were like greyish, and i said, maybe its gonna rain casue the clouds are all getting dark..we started lauhging like crazy cause the whole time we werent laughing at all but finally we started laughing ahha.. i really enjoyed myself today..tho the morning didnt start of that well or as good as i expected it to be it was cool..
yes schools out baby! haha finally no school for like only a week but who cares! NO SCHOOL tho i still have to go back to do projects..but nah its alright..So econs paper was aight haha it was answerable unlike mbs omg mbs sucks soo freaking badly~!!
SO me and James went out together casue i wanted to get christmas presents and stuff and on the way we met Farhana and so we hung out with her for a while and it was fun cause i got to know her a little more and what she liked..which was cool and we talked and everything..But she had to go so it was just me and james..we were hungry..haha i best anyone who reads my blog goes"he says that he's hungry all the time" hahaha whatever so yeah we went to get some food..and it was the same stall that we ate before. So we sat down and i told him do you realize that we went out on the first day of this sem and we ate here as well and todays the last day of half of the same so yeah its soo weird but yeah
He wanted to get me this exorcist thing for my present but i was like no please i dont want that casue its just too scary and i wouldne be able to take it...and he was looking around for every horror film to get for me...soo mean right?i just told him if you wanna get anything for me get the oc dvd season 1 i soo want that or lost either one will do but nooo he didnt wanna get it..fine haha so yeah tahts basically what happened and im bored to my wits end i really derno what to do casue i cant study now or anything cause it'll just be weird and retarded cause i just finished my mid sems so yeah whaveter
till next time
come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever! let me show you all the things that we could do! you know you wanna be together, and i wanna spend the night with you. So come with me tonight we could make this night last 4ever
Today was really sad and yet fun at the same time cause revengeful girl didnt come along with us but yeah it was soo fun..haha
Ok so it started off by me calling guitar kid last minute, to ask him to come along with me since i was around the neighbourhood(techincally) so yeah i went to his house hahah its soo funny as i said earlier how i tricked him into listening to the veronicas...
So he finally came out of the shower after i derno how long man like 4ever hahaha yay! i used that word whoots! ok so yeah then we went to swee lee where i almost died of boredem like hello i dont even freaking like music so why did you freaking bring me there?haha ok no im just kiddding i had fun looked thru some music scores and i even heard this stupid idoitic guy trying to show off his "wonderful" guitar skills there..hmm i wonder who it was..that person had such a big head and he thinks he's soo good but no he's not good at all hahhahahaha
We got tired and hungry so we decided to go to TCC at city link which on the way we soo happen to walk past Flash n Splash where listen to this ok? GUITAR KID ACTUALLY INSTIGATED ME TO GO INTO THE SHOP..haha he really did and we were just looking around and stuff and he came to me and said ok my friends just bought this wallet for my birthday and i wanan ask them if they sell it here and how much it was..so i was like shit i soo do not know you so i walked away talking to myself saying omg what the hell is he doing?llike hello this is a quiksilver and ripcurl shop not a billabong shop. He actually went up ok and asked that guy..i was super embarassed..later he came to me and told me that they didnt sell it and i said of course! This is a quiksilver and ripcurl shop and they dont sell billabong..that is probably the most stupidest i've ever seen him and he gave an excues saying that he didnt know that the shop didnt sell billabong haha yeah right but yeah i kinda believe you seeing that you dont normally go to this kinda place..
So as we were about to leave i was just browsing thru some shorts and pants and all of a sudden Guitar kid goes hey look at this its quite nice and im like hmm not bad so i look at the price and i go omg shit no freaking way its like half price haha im soo gonna try it and i snatched it from him and went to the changing room..it fits me haha so i bought it and i didnt care what he felt cause it soo has my name written all over it cause its half price tho he saw it first..he was pissed tho cause he didnt get it but nvm haha aww poor guitar kid..but heck its quiksilver and you dont wear it so yeah whatever...
Anywhos we were getting really hungry so we headed down and we sat down and drank coffee..he had this latte thing and i had frape oreo thing i forgot what it was and we had breaded chicken..since i had an econs test the next day, i tried to study but i ended up people watching haha it was funny basically i had a really fun day yest ahah thanks to guitar kid its really fun going out with him cause we're just soo crappy most of the time and we're never mad at one another no matter what we say to each other haha which is good..
well to end of i would like to thank this special person who made me blog ahha i was too lazy to blog but she made me do it so thanks yeah! you know who you are!
Im gonna learn how to keep my mouth shut and not listen to what people say and also not to comment on what they say cause its just soo childish and i derno its weird too bitching behind someones back, what more in front of that persons back..its soo irritating when you're talking to someone and people cut into your conversation but its all good cause im gonna forgive whoever that did that because maybe you didnt know that i was talking to that person or you just purposely wanted to cut into the convo. Either way im gonna forgive you because thats the right thing to do (: i feel good not bitter inside. hush my darling Dont you cry Crying angel forget them lies
Not spiteful anymore hahaha im gonna be nice from now on nice nice nice all the way..cant wait to see what happens during the meeting this friday. Its gonna be very interesting hahaha..i derno whats gonna happen but im gonna try my best to be the nicest person ever on earth even tho its really hard..and even if it means having to put on a front or faking a smile at least i know im trying my best to be nice and happy already and its not my fault.
Im at guitar kids house now waiting for him to finish showering..gosh he's taking an awfully long time to do so..derno what he's doing in the shower man hahahaha ok fine yes im supposed to be studying econs today but i just cant be bothered to i derno why ..its like im soo reluctant to open my freaking book to study.. i might have regrets if i dont do well but i mean i just cant contine like this anymore im jus dying cause im soo sick of studying ok but maybe after this post im gonna like try to read one chapter or somerthing yeah..
this song soo describes me right now funny tho haha its Our lips are sealed by Hilary Duff feat Haylie Duff
Can you hear them,
They talk about us
Telling lies, Well thats no surprise
Can you see them?
See right thru them
They have no shields
NO secrets to reveal
It doenst matter what they say
In the jealous games people play
Our lips are sealed
There's a weapon
Which we must use
In our defence
Silence
Pretty Rumours
So far from truth
im gonna keep my mouth shut! 4ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love 4ever tho guitar kid says it sucks but who freaking care what he thinks haha i tricked him into hearing 3 songs by THE VERONICAS its soo funny i told him hey theres this new group called sevefold i derno how i came up with that name but yeah and i say hey i want you to check them out and tell me what genre they are and tell me so he did and he listened to 3 songs ok 3 haahha what a loser!
ok bye we're going out now haha!
OMG yay! 4ever reached 1000 just under 54 days haha thats like soo fast..yay im loving 4ever more and more each day! its like one of the best songs ever that you just have to keep listening and listening. If i dont listen to it for one day, its like an urge inside of me to have to listen to it, an itch that you cant stop scratching, i just have to listen to it everyday i just need to without it, im just totally lost.. i wouldnt know what i would be today without 4ever..when im down i just listen to it because its such a fun song to sing along to. Come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever! Let me show you all the things that we could do! the lyrics are soo catchy and the tune just mesmerizes you and you get lost completely in the song..you feel that you're floating on air when you listen to it..Every sentence in that song has meaing that is soo powerful that it just blows you away. Its chord progressions are also really captivating as it is just so amazing that even mere words cannot describe it.
I know some may think that im crazy but i dont care because im gonna listen to this song over and over again until i come to a point in time when im just so sick of the song that i never wanna hear it ever again. But i doubt that that will actually happen because i just love the song too much to ever part with it. What amazes me is that in just 54 days i reached 1000, fly took me about a year to reach 3000 so i guess on the 27th of october 2006, when you see my next posting, you might see a number as close to probably 10 000 or something im not sure what will happen but im sure that 4ever will soon take over fly in play counts but my fav song of all time would still be fly because it has more meaning to it and it has been there when im down and out..
im gonnaa listen to 4ever foever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ilove4ever~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Legend
LW - Last Week
PP - Peak position
1. Fly - Hilary Duff (PW: #1 /=/ P: 1[6])
2. Someone's Watching Over Me - Hilary Duff (PW: #2 /=/ P: 2[6])
2. 4ever - The Veronicas (PW: #2 /=/ P: 2[3])
4. Fall Baby Fall - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #4 /=/ P: 4[6])
5. Everything Im Not - The Veronicas (PW: #5 /=/ P: 5[4])
6. Shine On - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #6 /=/ P: 4[1])
7. When It All Falls Apart - The Veronicas (PW: #7 /=/ P: 7[2])
8. Wake Up - Hilary Duff (PW: #8/=/ P: 5[1])
9. Leave Me Alone - The Veronicas (PW: #9 /=/ P: 9[2])
10. Come Clean - Hilary Duff (PW: #13 /+3/ P: 10[1])
11. Nobody Wins - The Veronicas (PW: #16 /+5/ P: 11[1])
12. From The Start - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #14 /+2/ P: 12[1])
13. Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson (PW: #10 /-3/ P: 10[5])
14. Whatever Will Be - Tammin Sursok (PW: #12 /-2/ P: 11[1])
15. Beat Of My Heart - Hilary Duff (PW: #17 /+2/ P: 15[1])
16. True - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #15 /-1/ P: 15[1])
17. Unbelivable - Kaci Brown (PW: #11 /-6/ P: 9[4])
18. We Belong Together - Mariah Carey (PW: - /RETURN/ P: 18[1])
19. Since You Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson (PW: - /DEBUT/ P: 19[1])
20. Speechless - The Veronicas (PW: #18 /=/ P: 11[1])
Fall offs
Heavily Broken - The Veronicas @ No.19
Over - Lindsay Lohan @ No.20
Almost there but not there yet
21. Heavily Broken - The Veronicas
22. Over - Lindsay Lohan
23. Toxic - Britney Spears
24. Boyfriend - Ashlee Simpson
25. And Then We Kiss - Britney Spears
Love the title..yes we shall be one, Spiteful boy, Revengeful girl and guitar kid hahaha..had heaps of fun today with them on our mini adventures..as usual we were joking around and messing around with one another about everything that we could think of. The way we talked, the accents that we used, even our skin colour which is soo weird but yeah haha..its just soo funny..and it doesnt really matter if Guitar kid is a different race from us because we just dont care! it doesnt matter to us because even with us being different races we're still gonna be great friends no matter what happens but unfortunately, when i try to be nice to Guitar kid, he takes advantage of me and he's soo mean to me even tho im super nice to him..how unfair is that?plus he's only what a side kick not the main super hero haha..so yeah scram dude! Cause you're just like the side person kinda like the extra...ha! got you there haha but yeah no you're part of the threesome so yeah you'll have to stick to it no matter what! And please come along with us ok? Revengeful girl really needs to go to fish and co..its like so loser..haha casue she hasnt been to fish and co. but shhh you didnt hear it from me..it was someone else who told you that. So we really need to drag her down.i Know its gonna be a fun day and after that we get more foood at this christmas party thing and i cant wait for that to come haha i hope its like halal or something..haha you have to always take care of the minority race like me who dont eat pork so yeah please be nice and dont cook pork (: ok thats crappy but yeah i hate studying i hate my school its ruining my life..everyone is having their holidays now and dreaming of christmas, the food, the presents, the shopping to do and yes more food. But all i can think of is when my test is and how long its gonna take, how much i have to study, how many pens should i bring in, what colour pens should i use? and all that crap..argh! i hate my life but not the friends that i have...i love them too much to lose them! you're all the best especially Revengeul girl and Guitar kid haha you'll always be there for me and i wanna thank you for that (:
More escapades to come....
Yes yes haha thanks to Candice for giving me this wonderful name yay! Clubber girl haha thats what i call her and she calls me Spiteful boy. Its cool tho..yeah so today started off raelly badly but thank goodness its all over and yeah its over haha so im gonna let it go cause its soo yesterday! But whatever anywhos i had a great time last night with my friend haha..whee he bought me a nice christmas present and he gave me my Veronicas cd for my birthday awww..how nice is that totally rocks! HAHA anyone who gives me a Veronicas cd, shall be like the bestest person in the world and the most caring person (: even if i already have one and you give me one again i would still love it..but thanks again to that special person who gave me the CD (: yay haha ok im happy
Today we had this peer appraisal thing which was soo cool cause we got to like comment on each of our group members performance and everything and find room for improvements and stuff..it was soo funny haha i actually had fun doing that cause i mean my group is soo united we dont hate each other at all and when we have problems we just talk it out among ourselves and settle it there and then and you know we'll be fine with it yeah so thats the good thing about my group members they rock!
So yeah im really happy right now i derno why but yeah its all cool and i feel like singing this song haha its by the veronicas its called Leave Me Alone
I'm getting tired of you pushing me 'round
Dragging me down
Making a sound because you wanna
I guess that's why I like messing with you
Putting you through
A lesson or two, because I'm gonna
Before I go my own way
I just gotta say
Leave me alone
Get out of my face
I'm tired and low
And feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
Cause i know I'm better off on my own,
Oh, Leave me alone
This isnt gonna work
Dont call me on the phone
Im all out of words
I'll face the unkown
Thinking about all the ways that i've grown
Oh, Leave me alone
There was the time
I thought you were the one
Having some fun
Getting it done
What an illusion
Cause you were trying to take control of me
That couldn't be,
I need to be free of this confusion
Don't give me a guilt trip,
Because I'm so over it
Leave me alone
Get out of my face
I'm tired and low
Feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
You still know I'm better off on my own,
Oh, Leave me alone
This isnt gonna work
Dont call me on the phone
Im all out of words
I'll face the unkown
Thinking about all the ways that i've grown
Oh, Leave me alone
Don't turn around and don't look back
I see right through all your selfless acts
Just leave me alone (:
Legend
Pw - Past Week
PP - Peak Position
1. Fly - Hilary Duff (PW: #1 /=/ P: 1[5])
2. Someone's Watching Over Me - Hilary Duff (PW: #2 /=/ P: 2[5])
2. 4ever - The Veronicas (PW: #2 /=/ P: 2[2])
4. Fall Baby Fall - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #4 /=/ P: 4[5])
5. Everything Im Not - The Veronicas (PW: #5 /=/ P: 5[3])
6. Shine On - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #5 /=/ P: 4[1])
7. When It All Falls Apart - The Veronicas (PW: #7 /=/ P: 7[2])
8. Wake Up - Hilary Duff (PW: #8 /=/ P: 5[1])
9. Leave Me Alone - The Veronicas (PW: #11/+2/ P: 11[1])
10. Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson (PW: #10 /=/ P: 10[5])
11. Unbelievable - Kaci Brown (PW: #9 /-2/ P: 9[4])
12. Whatever Will Be - Tammin Sursok (PW: #12 /=/ P: 11[1])
13. Come Clean - Hilary Duff (PW: #14 /+1/ P: 13[2])
14. From The Start - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #15 /+1/ P: 14[1])
15. True - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #16 /+1/ P: 15[1])
16. Nobody Wins - The Veronicas (PW: #19 /+3/ P: 16[1])
17. Beat Of My Heart - Hilary Duff (PW: #17 /+3/ P: 17[1])
18. Speechless - The Veronicas (PW: #13 /-5/ P: 11[1])
19. Heavily Broken - The Veronicas (PW: #17 /-2/ P: 14[1])
20. Over - Lindsay Lohan (PW: #18 /-2/ P: 15[1])
No fall offs
Almost there but not there yet
21. Boyfriend - Ashlee Simpson
22. Its You - Ryan Cabrera
23. We Belong Together - Mariah Carey
24. Toxic - Britney Spears
25. Since You Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson
Hahahahahah all i can say is that today was such a fun day! I had so much fun! I really enjoyed myself today and yes its been a long time since this happened (:
I actually forgot all my problems that i had when i was with Candice and Vicki. They are like one of the bestest people on earth and yes both of them mean soo much to me..awwwww hahaha anywhos yes ok so Vicki was an ass lar he left me and Candice alone and went to eat first with Uncle Jerry and the new people..i was like urgh ok fine but nvm haha so Candices dad gave me and her a lift to orchard..so along the way we were like contemplating where to go and eat and finally we decided that we would go to Marche..its this eating place..quite ex but still cool..So me and Candice walked around and looked for food and yeah we finally settled down and everything..Candice was soo nice haha she bought me Drinks and Potato Wedges..that is soo cool ok the drink was root beer and it was from aus haha totally rocks man! yeah anywhos we talked and laughed like crazy and both of us were quite ditsy and clumsy..haha we made a fool out of ourselves as usual..and yeah thank goodness no one saw..phew..kae so then we finished eating and Vicki finally calls and asked where we were..so he was gonna head right down..So then we headed to HMV..and yes we went around looking at all the stuff, dvds and all the other cds..and guess what we didnt see The Secret Life of The Veronicas cause it was all sold out like yay haha everyones buying that cd..its totally awesome haha..anyhow i bought some presents for my friends for christmas there which is totally cool and yeah i cant wait to give it to them (:
So we finally met Vicki and we walked to taka and on the way..some guy approached Vicki and asked Vicki some questions..haha it was soo stupid and long so me and Candice went to sit down..and Vicki was talking to the guy and as usual him being the ALL sarcastic self was so mean to him..ok to cut the story short we went to kino and yes i bought a mag with a Veronicas poster like yay ahaha whoots damn happy! and yes i bought a lost mag how cool is that?totally awesome huh!We were tired so we went to the coffee club and ordered drinks and that irritating Vicki was such an idiot ok! Irritating..hahaa cause the lady gave us this special menu togheter with the normal one saying Irish Sling(alcoholic) and he was like Ryan if you want that i can help you order because you cant order cause you're not 18 yet..Just cause he thinks that he just turned 18 a few days ago he thinks that he's soooo great and he can drink and order alcoholic stuff..i was like whatever ok! And then he was like sooo blur haha he couldnt even read the menu ahaha.so me and Candice were laughing at him ahhaha so we imitated him saying..Oh excuse me waiter..could you point to me the pictures of the alcoholic stuff so i know where is it so i can order hahaah soo damn funny..what a loser! Anywhos we went to art friend and we goofed around like crazy playing with all the stupid styrofoam things haha and the wooden letters..and Vicki was being idiotic again..cause he said im not a true fan of the Veronicas cause Jess likes pink and i dont..so im not a true fan soo irritating..Candice was the same ahah she was all disturbing me about it too..haha..but yeah
Time passed by soo quickly and before we knew it Candice had to go and i had to go too cause it was late and i had a dinner at night..but yeah tho it was all playful and everything i really enjoyed the company of both of them and yes they bring joy into my life and they are one of the best people around..and i know that we're gonna be great friends..thanks guys you're the best~!
Urgh pissed but who cares...i cant take it its just too much..what an ass the person is just totally like whatever man..if you can do it so can i! I dont need you when it all falls apart! You think only you can play this game..haha but you're soo wrong..haha obviously you dont know me well at all..
This is the true song lover and the veronicas lover..not the fake one that is i derno but whatever i love the veronicas! And i dont need to go lyrcis.com to go search for the lyrics..i can actually type it out myself! BITCH!
4ever - The Veronicas
Here we are so whatcha gonna do
Do i gotta spell it out for you?
I can see that you've got other plans
But tonight, but i dont really care
Size me up you know i beat the best
Tick, Tock no time to rest
Let them say what they gonna say
But tonight, i just dont really care
Come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever
Let me show you all the things that we could do
You know you wanna be together
And i wanna spend the night with you
Yeah yeah, with you
Come with me tonight we could make this night last 4ever
I've seen it all i've got nothing to prove.
Come on baby just make your move
Follow me lets leave it all behind
Tonight, like we just dont care
Let me take you on the ride of your life
Thats what i said alright
They can say what they wanna say
Cause tonight, i just dont really care
Come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever
Let me show you all the things that we could do
You know you wanna be together
And i wanna spend the night with you
Yeah yeah, With you
So come with me tonight we could make this night last 4ever
Lets pretend you're mine
We could just pretend, we could just pretend yeah yeah
You've got what i like
You've got what i like i've got what you like oh come on
Just one taste and you want more
So tell me whatcha waiting for?
First all of i would like to start off by apologizing. Im really sorry for what i've done and said. I didnt know that it would have turned out this way at all. Im just soo heavily broken right now that i dont know what to do at all. I mean all i wanted to do was to catch your attention for you to pay attention to what i felt for once and not always about you but unfortunately you took it in the wrong way and our friendship went from bad to worse, and now we cant even see each other eye to eye or even talk to each other in a normal tone of voice. Its not that i didnt have the balls to try to talk to you about what i felt and i had to get a third person to do it for me. If you actually knew me, you'd know that i would have gone up right straight to your face and told you already but unfortunately, i tried talking to you about it but everytime i tried you just avoided the topic and i did tell you once before but you just got mad at me and i didnt wanna ruin our friendship so i thought that that was the only way that we could work things out. But evidently what i assumed wasnt even true and all and what i hope would work backfired and now we arent even talking at all. What happened to all the times that we had with one another, the laughter the tears and the joy? Is it all gone down the drain and only memories that you can think about and look back and it can never be cherished ever again? Or do you wanna look back and remeber my name and say " oh what a bastard that guy was.." i tried really hard but apparently whatever that i did wasnt good enough for you and it turned out bad. IM really really sorry for what happen and right now i feel like shit..a total jerk who's sooo stupid and childish. I never meant to hurt you the way i did..but i know that there's no way that you're gonna forgive me for what i've done and even if you are reading this you may never wanna be friends with me or talk to me ever again but i still really love you as a friend tho we keep a distance from one another..Do you even know how it breaks my heart everytime i look at you in class..i remember all the times that we had together and im thinking why did i do this to myself why did i bring this upon myself. I never ever thought of the day that this would ever happen to us not at all..maybe to some of my friends but not you..because i saw something special in you that no one else saw..and i still do. You were one of my closest friends that i ever had and i miss you soo much but i dont know how and what to do right now. Calling you would be a stupid thing to do because you would never wanna answer my calls and talking to you in school wouldnt help either cause you'd just walk away. And im gonna take the first step right now..im gonna beg for your forgiveness even if it means going on my knees i'd do it..Im really sorry about what happened on the phone the other day..i was just being retarded and im really really sorry i shouldn have reacted that way and yes it was my fault..i really dont know what i can say right now because you woulnd listen to whatever i say and you wouldnt even care right now but i am truely sorry i really am i dont know what i was thinking and i really hope that we can be friends again and be back to the way we were before..Now i look back at what i've done and it was really stupid and childish of me to have reacted that way but all i wanted was to catch just a little bit of your attention..i actually did that but i went overboard and it went too far i dont want this to carry on i really want you back in my life and i miss you soo much..
IM REALLY SORRY PRIYA..PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR WHAT I'VE DONE.
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P - Peak
1. Fly - Hilary Duff (PW: #1 /=/ P: 1[4])
2. Someone's Watching Over Me - Hilary Duff (PW: #2 /=/ P: 1[4])
2. 4ever - The Veronicas (PW: #3 /+1/ P: 2[1])
4. Fall Baby Fall - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #4/=/ P: 4[4])
5. Everything Im Not - The Veronicas (PW: #5 /=/ P: 5[2])
6. Shine On - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #5 /=/ P: 4[1])
7. When It All Falls Apart - The Veronicas (PW: #7 /=/ P: 7[2])
8. Wake Up - Hilary Duff (PW: #8 /=/ P: 5[1])
9. Unbelievable - Kaci Brown (PW: #9 /=/ P: 9[4])
10. Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson (PW: #1o /=/ P: 10[4])
11. Leave Me Alone - The Veronicas (PW: #13 /+2/ P: 11[1])
12. Whatever Will Be - Tammin Sursok (PW: #15 /+3/ P: 11[1])
13. Speechless - The Veronicas (PW: #11 /-2/ P: 11[1])
14 Come Clean - Hilary Duff (PW: #16 /+2/ P: 13[1])
15. From The Start - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #17 /+2/ P: 15[2])
16. True - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #18 /+2/ P: 16[1])
17. Heavily Broken - The Veronicas (PW: #14 /-3/ P: 14[1])
18. Over - Lindsay Lohan (PW: - /RETURN/ P: 15[1])
19. Nobody Wins - The Veronicas (PW: - /DEBUT/ P: 19[1])
20. Beat Of My Heart - The Veronicas (PW: - /DEBUT/ P: 20[1])
Fall offs
Someday (I Will Understand) - Britney Spears @ No. 12
Confessions Of A Broken Heart - Lindsay Lohan @ No. 19
Black Hole - Lindsay Lohan @ No. 20
Almost there but not yet there
21. Someday (I Will Understand) - Britney Spears
22. Its You - Ryan Cabrera
23. Boyfriend - Ashlee Simpson
24. And Then We Kiss - Britney Spears
25. Black Hole - Lindsay Lohan
The title says it all so here it is i took a disorder test and the results came back..
ok the website is URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mvURL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html
Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High
This is what the words mean
Paranoid(Very High): Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant. They usually shift blame to other people and tend to carry long grudges.
Symptoms: Unwillingness to forgive perceived insults
Excessive sensitivity to setbacks
Distrustfulness and excessive self-reliance
Projection of blame onto others
Consumed by anticipation of betrayal
Combative and tenacious adherence to personal rights
Relentlessly suspicious
Schizoid(Moderate): People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. Unlike avoidants, schizoids genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived by others as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."
Syptoms: Weak interpersonal skills
Difficulty expressing anger, even when provoked
"Loner" mentality; avoidance of social situations
Appear to others as remote, aloof, and unengaged
Low sexual desire
Unresponsive to praise or criticism
Schizotypal(High): Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.
Symptoms: Odd or eccentric mannerisms or appearance
Superstitious or preoccupied with paranormal phenomena
Difficult to follow speech patterns
Feelings of anxiety in social situations
Suspiciousness and paranoia
Odd beliefs or magical thinking
Appears shy, aloof, or withdrawn to others
Antisocial(High): A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. Antisocials tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.
Symptoms: Disregard for the feelings of others
Impulsive and irresponsible decision-making
Lack of remorse for harm done to others
Lying, stealing, other criminal behaviors
Disregard for the safety of self and others
Borderline(Very high): Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing injury to their own body. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. Borderlines think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.
Symptoms: Self-injury or attempted suicide
Strong feelings of anger, anxiety, or depression that last for several hours
Impulsive behavior
Drug or alcohol abuse
Feelings of low self-worth
Unstable relationships with friends, family, and boyfriends/girlfriends
Histrionic(Moderate): People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. Histrionics also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.
Symptoms: Needs to be the center of attention
Dresses or acts provocatively
Rapidly-shifting and shallow emotions
Exaggerates friendships
Overly-dramatic, occassionally theatrical speech
easily influenced; highly suggestible
Narcissistic(High): Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. Narcissists tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.
Symptoms: Requires excessive praise and admiration
Takes advantage of others
Grandiose sense of self-importance
Lack of empathy
Lying, to self and others
Obsessed with fantasies of fame, power, or beauty
Avoidant(High): Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. Avoidants are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidants yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.
Symptoms: Social inhibition; retreating from others in anticipation of rejection
Preoccupation with being rejected or criticized in social situations
Fear of embarrassment results in avoidance of new activities
Poor self-image; feelings of social ineptitude
Desire for improved social relations
Appear to others as self-involved and unfriendly
Creation of elaborate fantasy lives
Dependent(High): Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. Dependents often remain in abusive relationships. Over-sensitivity to disapproval is common. Dependents often feel helpless and depressed.
Symptoms: Difficulty making decisions
Feelings of helplessness when alone
Suicidal thoughts upon rejection
Submissiveness
Deeply hurt by mild criticism or disapproval
Unable to meet ordinary demands of life
Obsessive-Compulsive(High): Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder is similar to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder. People with this disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.
Symptoms: Need for perfection and excessive discipline Preoccupation with orderliness Inflexibility Lack of generosity Hyper-focus on details and rules Excessive devotion to work
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