Wow haha i never knew blood was soo engaging..i mean i just look at it and the sight of it makes me happy..ok i know that sounds really sick but whatever..its really interesting..the color, the smell and everything it just makes me go crazy..
Everytime i look at myself bleed it somehow makes me happy..haha yes im turning really sick but yeah my leg is bleeding non stop right now because of something i derno what but yeah its bleeding like crazy hahaha and yeah im actuallly happy it is..that stupid growth on my leg has been greatly reduced thanks to me squeezing all the blood out..
I cant walk right now and my legs bleeding and this means that i cannot go to work sadly but its all cool but i need money tho ahaha so yeah i must recover soon cause i wanna work and get money
So yeah my whole day was boring except for the part where blood dript from my back of my knee all the way down to my ankle aww man it was soo freaking cool ahhaha i loved it the redness of the blood and the thickness of it was just amazing ahha
im bleeding to death and everythings fine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The Veronicas have released their new video When It All Falls Apart from their debut album The Secret Life Of The Veronicas. Their single is set to be released on the 20th of march in Australia. As a loyal fan i will try to do my best to promote their music everywhere i go. To start off, im changing the song from Everything Im Not to When It All Falls Apart. So what you are hearing now is When It All Falls Apart..tell me what you think about it alright?
When the single hits stores, please do go out and buy it thanks! (:
Honestly, right now, i'd rather die than live..i really cannot take it anymore..my effin retarded spasticated loseratic super irrtating annoying f****** brother is driving me nuts..he's just sooo stupid!
You know its really funny when he says a whole lot of crap and everyone claps and cheers and encourages him to come out with more shit and when i just say something..everyone starts going oh no that was soo poor and bad you know and you should say sorry..i really really laugh my ass of because ya im just getting everything from my F****** family..it brings joy to my life doesnt it?i get so happy and excited to go home that i just feel elated and extremely happy to come home to my wonderful family that i have that only cares for one person in their lives..talk about me being selfish i wonder who is or should i say are selfish in the house and yeah but its all cool because everythings fine..tho im bleeding to death, starving and dying..but its alright because no one cares..and why does no one care?because they only care for one person..their beloved retarded spasticated wonderful PERFECT son..Aww isnt that sweet..he's just the BEST isnt he..so PERFECT in everyway..he's SMART, TALENTED, OBIIENT, POLITE, NICE, CARING, WELL-BEHAVED, FILIAL, GENEROUS, SELFLESS and EVERYTHING that a couple would dream of having as a child..aww aint that nice really. They even let him have plastic surgery..and how old is he one may ask..well only at the tender age of 12..wow isnt it..haha yeah times have changed now even guys care about how they look and yeah they even go for plastic surgery at the tender age of 12..hahahah amazing and yeah if you're rich and loaded and THINK that you only have one child at home you'd definitely spend all your money on him because you love him soo dearly..maybe i should write a series a book on this haha it would seem fun..yeah the title would probably be MY EVER SO DEAR RETARDED SPASTIC BROTHER cool eh?hahaha loving it already!
I feel so honoured to be in the family..its just great..i mean we BOND so well togehter..honestly the person i'd only feel for is my sister..i kinda dont really care about the rest anymore..so yeah Shout outs to my sister you rock! ahahha
So yeah i really love my life right now..its just great..everythings working out just right and im soo contended with what i have that its in abundance..i cant walk, i feel like crap..my life's f***** up..my family's F***** up as well..thankfully i still have all my friends thanks you guys you're the bestest..you're always there for me unlike some people but yeah..i thank you guys for being there (:
Im gonna dedicate this wonderful song to my mother )(&()*&*(%&*^$&%#&#
its called Mother Mother by The Veronicas ok just changed the girl parts into guy as well ahhaha..
Mother mother can you hear me
I'm just calling to say hello
How's the weather how's my father
Am I lonely heavens know
Mother mother are you listening
Just a phone call to ease your mind
Life is perfect never better
Distance making the heart grow blind
When you sent me off to see the world
Were you scared that I might get hurt
Would I try a little tobacco
Would I keep on hiking up my skirt
I'm hungry, I'm dirty, I'm losing my mind
Everything's fine
I'm freezing, I'm starving, I'm bleeding to death
Everything's fine
Yeah, I'm working, making money
I'm just starting to build a name
I can feel it around the corner
I could make it any day
Mother mother can you hear me
Yeah I'm sober sure I'm sane
Life is perfect never better
Still your daughter still the same
If I tell you what you want to hear
Will it help you to sleep well at night
Are you sure that I'm your perfect dear
Now just cuddle up and sleep tight
I'm hungry, I'm dirty, I'm losing my mind
And everything's fine
I'm freezing, I'm starving, I'm bleeding to death
Everything's fine
I miss you
I love you.
ok thats the full song but not that last 2 lines..i feel everything about this song except the last 2 lines i think it describes my life so well right now..
Its amazing how people can talk so much about you when they don't know anything at all about you. Not a single thing about you at all and yet they still have to open their mouths and talk..Is it just human nature or is it just because they want to because they have nothing else better to do in life? Dudes get a life if the latter is the case because you need to WAKE UP from your slump and go do something..
Listen clear, talking about something or something obsessively with a passion of hate or anger or just for the fun of enjoyment is not good..its bad for you alright?so stop doing it..Why not you look at it this way..when you talk about someone behind their back and everything, somewhere somehow, someone else is talking about you at the same time..im sure you wouldn like that to happen wouldnt you, so don't do it aight? I know its not easy and im not angel but work on it, im sure you'll be able to do it (:
Great so i went out today and had heaps of fun hahaha tho i was late thankfully Charmaine wasnt like pissed or anything..which was good..We decided to got marina square because both of us arent really familiar with that place and we wanted to get lost togheter hahaha and find our ways out but wow its amazing i love that place..We had Carl's Junior for dinner..and OMFG it was soo effin amazing ahah the food was just great and yes the proportions are just amazingly huge and yeah i kinda had a difficult time finishing my food but i did finish it so its all good..and yeah i also finished Charmaines cause she couldnt finish. This time i don't blame her because its huge and yeah its understandable. It was a great meal..i enjoyed every part of it..and here comes the best..they were playing songs on the radio so yeah they played all kinds of songs and i heard Ocean Avenue by Yellowcard and i was soo happy cause i love that song and i love Yellowcard so yeah i was all pumped up..and as i was finishing Charmaines food i heard the starting of a song and i started screaming and shouting already i was almost going nuts literally..you know why?????i heard the starting of 4ever!!!!!!!!!like OMFG i heard 4ever on the radio like OMG i heard 4ever ok i should calm down now but yeah im still all nuts over it because i heard 4ever and yes i love 4ever..so yeah it was all good and guess what song they played next? Lights and Sounds by Yellowcard i was really happy too eventho its weird they played a song by the same singer/group in the same hour they don't usually do that but yeah its all cool..but poor Charmaine was freezing so we had to leave hahaha so yeah sadly we left while the song was still on..
Anywhos we decided to take a walk down the bay next to the Esplanade..it was soo cool i mean i've never seen that place before and it was awesome the view was amazing and i snapped some pics but unfortunately i cant upload them cause i don't have a cable for my phone but i'll do it asap..but it was nice! We had a good time talking and stuff and enjoyed the nice view till the stupid flies came and bordered us irritating stupid annoying flies..so we went in..
Rumor has it is sooo funny hahaha its really a must watch ok! you have to go if you havent shame on you because its just HILARIOUS!!!!!!!and Jennifer Aniston loooks sooo effin hot in the movie! She really does and wow is her hair perfect or what? Its flawless and whatever hairstyle that she has she still looks hot and her hair is still nice (:
We were hungry so we decided to go for Secret Recepie! And i finally tried the Chocolate and Banana cake thing and Charmaine had this Tiramisu ahhaha cool eh? You know its sooo funny..the difference between the price of Hot Chocolate and Ice Chocolate with Whip cream is 60 cents and i asked the waitress why this was so and what was the difference she said one has ice and the other doesnt plus the whip cream..so i said if i want to take out the whip cream will it still be the same price she said yes so technically im paying 60 cents for ice haha she started laughing ahhahaa i mean its soo true lmao but yeah it was all coool..
We had so much fun today hahaa i loved today and it was all great! A day i wouldnt forget..and i love marina square its gonna be my new fav shopping centre!
Come with me tonight we could make the night last 4ever!
You know what bugs me?
People playing effin band music in my f****** house like what the hell is that man peeps rocking out to band music like hello people get a life you can never rock out with band music thats just way off dudes like f****** get a life aight?Maybe i should help you try buying Britneys ...Baby One More Time not that its bad or anything but its like 9079079868768567764 times better than f****** band music..like hello at least Britney has talent cause you can hear her sing..Band music is just so f****** annoying like what is it anyways?is it even music because to me music is something that has lyrics and words to it not some effin musicless lyricless crap piece of shit..ok whatever i play lyricless shit too but thats different i dont go listening to it and rocking out to it..thats just soo f****** sick im telling you F******* sick and F****** retarded..its super spastic and just so F******* irritating and annoying...sigh its just soo f***** up..
Ok my exams are all over but you know whats the funny part?im not even happy that its over..in fact i've been in a really bad mood the whole effin day and i have no f****** idea why..i mean i should be happy that exams are all over but now im just sooo f****** pissed and i dont know why..why the hell am i acting this way man like dude my exams are over which means i can party and go crazy but no im just soo pissed and angry..and im phyiscally drained..i have no idea why im soo tired maybe taking 2 papers in a day took a really big toll on me..but yeah soo pissed..F*** Shit ok..argh!
I hate my freaking life its soo freaking irritating..i almost called that person today..i wasnt even thinking at all because Priyas out drinking and stephs gone and i've got no one to talk to..i seriously was gonna call that person and meet that person up just to talk to that person..yes it sounds soo f****** stupid but yeah i was on the verge of doing it because i was soo stressed up..maybe its just me when i get stressed up because im too tense and when deadlines come i kinda freak out alot..
Why is life soo unfair?i still love so much and yet i get no feeling in return..i cant let go..not just yet but i dont know why im still holding on to something that isnt even there at all..i try but to no avail..its sad..
Maybe there's beauty in goodbye...
Here's this weeks list
On The Verge
25. Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You
24. Kaci Brown - Unbelievable
23. Ashlee Simpson - Boyfriend
22. Yellowcard - City Of Devils
21. Yellowcard - Lights And Sounds
Top 20.
20. Lindsay Lohan - If Its Alright (PW:#-/DEBUT/P:20[1])
19. The All-American Rejects - Move Along (PW:#-/DEBUT/P:19[1])
18. Kate Dearaugo - Faded (PW:#18/=/P:18[1])
17. Hilary Duff - Beat Of My Heart (PW:#12/-5/P:11[1])
16. Lifehouse - You And Me (PW:#9/-7/P:9[1])
15. Hilary Duff - Someone's Watching Over Me (PW:#11/-4/P:2[6])
14. The Veronicas - Leave Me Alone (PW:#10/-4/P:8[2])
13. Britney Spears - Someday (I Will Understand) (PW:#17/+3/P:10[1])
12. The Veronicas - Mouth Shut (PW:13/+1/P:12[1])
11. Hilary Duff - Wake Up (PW:#19/+6/P:5[1])
10. Britney Spears - And Then We Kiss (PW:#15/+5/P:10[1])
9. Ryan Cabrera - From The Start (PW:#13/+4/P:9[1])
8. Ryan Cabrera - Shine On (PW:#6/-2/P:4[1])
7. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart (PW:#8/+1/P:7[4])
6. Ryan Cabrera - Photo (PW:7/+1/P:6[1])
5. The Veronicas - Nobody Wins (PW:#5/=/P:5[2])
4. Ryan Cabrera - Fall Baby Fall (PW:#5/=/P:4[10])
3. Hilary Duff - Fly (PW:#3/=/P:1[11])
2. The Veronicas - 4ever (PW:#2/=/P:1[1])
1. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not (PW:#1/=/P:1[2])
Ok its also rahs birthday today but i didnt get a chance to send her her card so yeah oh and my cousin gave birth to her son today so its coool!
HAPPY BRITHDAY RAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU ROCK AND RYAN LOVES YOU!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok i know i havent been updating but it was because i was busy studying haha which is a good thing..yeah so basically i had my papers and life is really boring...because of exams i basically had like no life but whatever
So yeah i had my stupid MBS paper on tuesday which i happily walked out before the end of the paper cause i couldnt bother sitting there waiting for time to pass when i know that there's nothing coming out of my head already and squeezing it ever more would just give me a headache..so yeah
Anywhos i had like my tort law paper which was soo cool haha ok so this is what happened..This teacher guy announced that ok for those taking the Law of Tort paper you are allowed to bring your books in but make sure that they are paper based and it was soo funny to see the reactions of the people who werent taking that paper cause they were like goodness they can bring their books in thats like soo unfair ahha i was kinda like hahah loser seee i've got my books next to me but no i didnt do that cause thats just mean..but yeah..boy was the paper challenging..everyone was struggling for time and thinking like crazy trying to wreck our brains for answers and there goes that stupid mircophone guy he kept talking and talking on the stupid mircophone and it was broadcast to the whole entire freaking hall oh btw it was half empty and i dont know why they even bothered to put us in the hall? OK fine im not complaining about that but that stupid teacher just kept on talking and it didnt even concern us and he was like invigilators its now 10 no one can enter the exam hall hello you tell that to the invigilators not us we dont wanna hear it for goodness sake and he was just blabbling about crap and there i was trying my very best to concentrate when he was takling so much i was seriously gonna shout at him dude SHUT THE F*** UP for goodness sake we're trying to concentrate you idiot and i just lost my train of thought because of you argh! Like hello we're doing TORT law and it means CIVIL law and we can probably sue you alright you have more then 120 students there so yeah whatever ok yeah im being too bitchy now but whatever haha
So yes i decided to change my pic and now its the veronicas whooo hooo! Love them ok im gonna change my song too so yeah see ya guys soon!
Come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever!
I was fighting with this guy called Mike haha over Jess today it was soo funny...he was like Jess is hot..and i went yes Jess is hot and she's mine..aahahha and he went no Jess is mine..and im gonna take a picture with her kissing her on the cheek and i'll send it to you..I went wtf?????????omg its soo unfair that he gets to meet up with her and i dont..thats just sooo irritating..but yeah anyways i argued back and said no Jess is mine and all mine and you're never gonna get her from me..sadly i lost the battle becaues i had to go and his ending speech was Jess is my baby hahaha and i was like going berserk..
Yes i love Jess haah and i missed her yest on the chatroom sadly its soo unfair i wish that i could meet her and talk to her..but yeah its all good..sigh my whole week was super boring..i hate this week..goodness its soo freaking boring
Oh i just figured that there's a difference between the US version and the Aus version..Somehow i like the Aus version more and yet i love the US version at the same time but i really derno because both are just awesome..in the US one you can hear the voices better and there's less music but the Aus one has more bass..so i really derno ahhaa i love both but 4ever rocks! I love the extended version of 4ever too!with extended vocals!
Come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever
Let me show you all the things that we could do..
Im kinda dreading this day and yet embracing this day mainly for two simple reasons. 1. yes its the end of the week and which means schools gonna be out soon whoo hooo! ahhaha 2. My exams are coming god i mean time passes by soo quickly and before you know it, next weeks my exam..isnt that great just wonderful! Sigh well yestrday and today was great i guess..oh as you guys can see i've put up quite a number of songs on my blog..yes ah thats to spread the love of the veronicas
I want everyone to listen to them haha to get them famous and yeah in a way im helping to advertise but dont worry these songs are all legal trust me and they are copyrighted..the latest addition to the list of songs is 4ever and yes im soo happy i put this one up because its the extended version and i love the extended version so much its soo much better than the normal one with all the extra vocals and everything and it sounds better too..but yeah enjoy all the songs yeah and spread the love!
Ok nothing really happened so yeah its boring because i've been studying all day and im just so sick and tired of it..sigh i hate it..end of story!
Come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever~
"It wasn't what we did it was who we did it with..and it was great", this was what Priya said when we were fighting..haha its soooo funny lol..it sounds soo wrong dosent it..who we did it with and plus she had to add that it was great hahahahhaa lmao! Ok so yeah i was reading about the past, looking at what my life went thru..the happy times, and the not so happy ones, the break ups, the make ups..and i look back at it all now and just smile at everything that happened..life is really unpredictable and you really never know whats gonna happen next..you think its all going smoothly when the ship is sailing at full speed, but you dont see that small tip of the ice berg thats just ahead of you..when you crash, tragedy happens..lives are lost..i guess thats just life the way it is..sometimes its going all so well that you dont see it coming at all..the heartbreaks..i guess thats what happened between me and Priya and me and someone else..its really sad and im looking back at what happened where did i go wrong? Sigh it was perfect ok..everything was soo good for 2 whole weeks straight and then there it went it just went straight down the drain...sigh
OK so yeah i basically spent the whole day studying..which is soo interesting and fun isnt it! Yeah whatever i hate studying..anywhos my ipod was kinda dead today so i turned on the com to listen to music and i was bored with my list so i decided to go to itunes radio to listen to songs..and whoa i had no idea today was my day hahahaa i loved all the songs that i listened too with the exception of a bit Simple Plan and Usher but it was all cool! Loved it..you know it seems to be that its nicer to listen to the radio because of the sound even if i have the original the radio still sounds soo much better i derno why?i love listening to the radio its soo cool hahaha..so yeah i listened to songs like
Lifehouse - You And Me (Love this heaps)
Ryan Cabrera - True
Ciara - Oh and Lose Control
Destinys Child - Lose My Breath
Jojo - Baby Its you
Rihanna - If Its Lovin That You Want
Avril Lavigne - Dont Tell Me
PCD - StickWitYou
Mariah Carey - Dont Forget About Us
oh and i listened to Hung Up ahha the full song it was alright now i have more respect for her cause she sings live..Yeap radio listening today was graet
As some of you may have realized i put up a song on my blog its called Everything Im Not by the Veronicas...listen to it it rocks! And oh Charmaine told me she heard it on the radio i cant believe she did thats soooooo cool!The Veronicas rock! Oh oh i was singing along to 4ever today like a crazy maniac ahahha as usual and im high now so whatever!
Here's my list of fav singers its been a long time since i had one
1. The Veronicas/Ryan Cabrera
2. Hilary Duff
3. Yellowcard
4. Tammin Sursok
5. The All-American Rejects
6. Delta Goodrem
7. Kelly Clarkson
8. Anthony Callea
9. Britney Spears
10. Ciara
11. Maroon 5
12. Destinys Child
13. The Click Five
14. Avril Lavigne
15. The Pussycat Dolls
10.
First of all,
Happy Valentines Day to Alll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope you had heaps of fun today doing whatever you did..This is to all the singles out there, dont be in despair just because you're single and all alone but embrace it because singlehood is the best thing that can ever happen in your life! You can obsess with whoever you want to..flirt obsessively with whoever you want..have sex with any random person on the street that you wanna do it with, be a Casanova(ok just kidding i just wanted to add that in to say what i did today)..
Yes i went out today to watch Casanova with Charmaine and my other group members from my socio project, who were with us only in spirit..yes it was soo fun..i didnt expect Casanova to be that good..haha i thought it would be all mushy and lovey dovey but it turned out to be hilarious! Hahahah it was sooo funny..and yeah the movie was good..i highy recommend it to everyone..ok so after the movie we went to eat lunch at Swensens..it was soo cool haha the food was just great and super nice.and yummy i had this cheesy beef burger thing..and she had urm some salmon baked rice thing..so yeah when my foood came i was like whoa this is such a smal serving..little did i know that i was sooo stuffed when i finished eating..it could have been beacuse i had 3 subway cookies during the movie but yeah this proves that looks can be deciving cause yeah i was stuffed man but it was really good (: and the company was great too! SO yeah we actually contemplated to watch Walk the line after our lucnh,oh charmaine was given this baloon thing which im guessing is supposed to be a flower..so yeah as i was saying we actually contemplated to watch that show so we walked to Cine and i visited my work place said hi to the people there..the timings werent that good tho cause i had to rush off at 6..but then i didnt go in the end..so yeah we ended up walking all around orchard road..
It was tiring man and i was shagged haha so i needed to sit down and we decided to go to starbucks to get like drinks and stuff..oh while walking there, heaps of people approached us asking us to buy roses..and i was curious to see how much it cost, so i asked one of them and they said oh its $10 but its for a good cause..im like yeah whatever its a total rip off anyways..i'd rather you give me something else and i pay you the money plus you didnt even explain to me what and who i was giving to so yeah sadly for you i cant do anything cause i need to know where my money goes to. I dont want it to get pocketed by anyone because what i give has to go to that organization and that organization would give that money to the people in need of it..its not that $10 can make a difference but its the way they practice it thats impt, doing the right thing..anywhos the next person approached us and said do you wanna buy a rose its just $10 only..hahaa JUST $10 you must be kiddding me..he even used the word JUST ahah thats JUST wonderful because im not gonna pay so much money its just crap..
SO yeah we ordered our drinks and we found it really cold haha so we decided to take a stroll..i had difficulty finishing my drink cause it was so rich but i managed to finish it faster then she did altho she had a smalller cup then i did..So yes we walked to HMV and i bought Jarhead the book cool eh?there was brokeback mountain too but i didnt wanna spoil anything cause i wanted to see the movie first so yeah i didnt get it..so i was like hey Charmaine do you wanna read the book since you didnt get to catch the movie and she was like you're tempting me again ahahha..see i did the same thing last time and coaxed her not to go for class..hahaha im such a bad friend..and now im stopping her from studying cause she needs to read the book..but i mean look im nice enough to lend her cause she cant watch the movie cause its M18 but yeah..haha what a great friend she has (:
Overall my day was great haha (: i had so much fun and yes its really nice..i loved it!
Come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever!
we have yet again a new number 1!
25. Mariah Carey - We Belong Together
24. Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You
23. Kaci Brown - Unbelievable
22. The All-American Rejects - Move Along
21. Lindsay Lohan - If it's Alright
Top 20
20. Ashlee Simpson - Boyfriend (PW:#-/DEBUT/P:20[1])
19. Ashlee Simpson - L.O.V.E (PW:#16/-3/P:16[1])
18. Kate Dearaugo - Faded (PW:#20/+2/P:18[1])
17. Hilary Duff - Wake Up (PW:#19/+2/P:5[1])
16. Britney Spears - Someday (I Will Understand) (PW:#17/+1/P:10[1])
15. Britney Spears - And Then We Kiss (PW:#18/+3/P:15[1])
14. The Veronicas - Mouth Shut (PW:13/-1/P:13[1])
13. Ryan Cabrera - From The Start (PW:#14/+1/P:11[3])
12. Hilary Duff - Beat Of My Heart (PW:#12/=/P:11[1])
11. Hilary Duff - Someone's Watching Over Me (PW:#4/-7/P:2[6])
10. The Veronicas - Leave Me Alone (PW:#10/=/P:8[2])
9. Lifehouse - You And Me (PW:#11/+2/P:9[1])
8. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart (PW:#9/+1/P:7[3])
7. Ryan Cabrera - Photo (PW:8/+1/P:7[1])
6. Ryan Cabrera - Shine On (PW:#6/=/P:4[1])
5. The Veronicas - Nobody Wins (PW:#7/+2/P:5[1])
4. Ryan Cabrera - Fall Baby Fall (PW:#5/+1/P:4[9])
3. Hilary Duff - Fly (PW:#3/=/P:1[11])
2. The Veronicas - 4ever (PW:#1/-1/P:1[1])
1. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not (PW:#2/+1/P: 1[1])
It seems to me that everytime i look up, i see your face. I hear your voice, its haunting me..When you told me that you love me, were those just words?
Were they really just words? I really want to know if they just were?Did you even mean a single thing that you said to me?Or was i just some toy that you tried to play along with?I thought that we had something, apparently we dont have anything at all..Right now i still cannot figure out how i actually started to like you..we're worlds apart and our perceptions in life are just totally miles apart..I have no idea why i fell for you..but im happy i did..it gave me an experience that i would never forget..maybe it was me?or it could be you..i tried watching the movie that we watched together and i couldnt finisht it..I dont think i can ever finish it..waves of emotions just swept thru me and i couldnt take it..it just made me sad thinking about what happened that day, how happy we were but no i dont wanna remember it because its too painful..after remembering the happy times, i remember our last decent conversation that we had and it just makes me really sad..so yeah i doubt i'll ever finish that movie..tho its really good..i really derno but this song has everything that i wanna say to you! but change the girl part to guy..
The Veronicas - Everything Im Not
Oh no dont go changing,
Thats what you told me from the start
Thought you were something different,
Thats when it all just fell apart
Like your so perfect
And i cant measure up
Well im not perfect,
Just all messed up
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now i see
I dont wanna pretend so this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want,
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything,
Everything i'm not
Its not like i need somebody
Telling me where i should go at night
Dont worry you'll find somebody
Someone you tell how to live their lives
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
You're all by yourself,
Just all messed up
Now wait a minute,
Because of you!
I never knew all the things that i had
Hey dont you get it?
Im not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life...
School's out baby hahah but yes i still have to study for exams..crap hahaa but who cares im having so much fun now i dont give a damn about the exams anymore..ok thats a lie im lying to you straight in the face because i really do..i wanna do well so im gonna be a good boy and study really hard!
I really pity my MBS teacher in TP because i think he's really demorialized by us students who always are so uninterested in the subject..We had to do a survey on MBS today and i just went straight up to him and asked him, "Will the outcome of our survey affect your job?cause if it does then i'll lie just to save your job for you because i dont want you to get fired because of my honest opinion" thankfully he said it didnt affect so i was like ok good i would be blatanly honest with every comment that i made...so they asked questions like do you think that you've learnt many things in this module..i put strongly disagree..did you enjoy tihs subject..strongly disagree.Name two things you liked about this subject. Nothing and More nothing. Name two things you do not like about this subject. Everything and more everything! And what do you think we should change to better equip students with skills in access?(cant rmb what it was but it was something to do with improving the subject) i said how should i know and why should i care because im not taking this next time so it doenst matter to me..like MBS is a total waste of time i dont even know why the hell im taking it its CRAP!
I went to watch Jarhead with my aussie friend today who was kind enough to pay for my ticket (: it was such a good movie..with of course the best actor ever Jake Gyllenhaal my fav actor! And yes the story line is really good and it shows how men train so hard and they yern for so much and when they dont get it they break down. Just a simple pulling of the trigger, they take joy in doing and if they are not able to do it they get frustrated. The funny thing is that they also take joy in killing people but they dont kill any tho but want so desperately to kill people..Its a good movie and im definitely going to get the DVD for it..its amazing
today was great..i took a leap of faith and it paid off well cant wait to see what will happen next
Till next time
Come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever
Let me show you all the things that we could do
YEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSS i finally got an A in school after a long wait..haha it was sooo good today we had our socio presentation..we had so much fun and our group rocked so much! WE kicked ass today ahahha props to all you guys for doing soo well im soo proud of you! hahaha it was good everyone was good no one sucked! And the best part was that we had fun doing it..we thought we were stressed out but we werent at all which was soo goood cause all of us were soo scared at first but yeah it was all good!
I was acutally afraid of the Q&A part but it all turned out good surprisingly but yeah all our hard work paid off really well and im soo happy that we did good..haha tho the game was a little bit crappy cause the people werent sporting enough but yeah haha we targeted them already..
I think im the most hated person in my socio class haha i asked a really stupid qn today which they couldnt give an answer to but yeah it was all cool hahaha i said sorry after that but i just had to ask that stupid question because my mouth was itchy..
BUT YES I GOT AN A!!!!!!!!!!!! whooo hoooo ahhaah soooo happpy!
Oh and i had lunch with Priya and we studied together it was all cool im glad we're getting along..slowly again tho its on the rocks
I GOT AN A hahaha yay! Thanks you guys you guys are the bestest ever..there isnt one dull moment with ya'll..Jonathan, Charmaine, Sally and Yvonne you guys rock! Carrying on Kicking ass!
Oh no dont go changing,
thats what you told me from the start
Yes its one of the funnest days that i've had in a long time due to the fact that schools soo stressed up and my familys going crazy, well its basically just one person but yeah anywhos here's the fun fact of the day before i carry on
Fun Fact!
Did you know that by forwarning someone,
You're warning someone before hand?
Did you also know that when you warn someone,
You're telling them to watch out before something happens?
It seems the same to me..
So does forwarning mean warning someone before you warn that person?
Interesting...
So yeah today was great..well it didnt start off that well..i went to school for like 1 hour and 5 mins..yes 1 hour of lecture and 5 mins of tutorial..got chased out of class because one of our members didnt turn up..argh to think i waste my time coming to school.
We had to meet up to do our socio project haha i derno why but im always soo excited when im doing socio project! My group members are just hilariously funny and fun to hang around they are just great! Whoo hoo ahahha..and yes urm we went to Jon's house and we were greeted with warm open paws?hahahhaha yes we were greeted by his ultra super cute Jack Russel named Sarah haha..i loooooooooooooooooovee Jack Russels haha they are my fav and one day im going to get one i derno how but im going too..and yes Sarah is just soo adorable..she's such a nice dog and a really obidient one as well i should add. So we kept digressing cause of Sarah haha but it was all worth it..she licked my phone hahahah weird but yeah..i kept meowing at her and all my friends thought that i sounded like a real cat..however the dog wasnt decieved tho..she's really smart and everything i meowed she came to me, stared at me for a while and started pouncing on me, wanting me to play with her..
She's the bestest! Before we went to his house, we were talking about computer games and all of a sudden worms popped up and we already arranged that we were going to play it during our break haha..ok the first round was pure evilness! haha Me, Yvonne, Charmaine and Jonathan were against a group of people that werent even there..basically some people that we hate well not say hate but just dislike haha and it was really spastic cause we were playing against people that were just skipping their turn hahah..first round was all suicide and people from my team killing one another and yet we still won..why because there's no one else playing on the other team..it basically signifies the dislike of those few people that we want them down haha..so yeah second roung we were more used to it but we still won and when we won the national anthem of Singapore played hahaha funny but yeah..
So we were bored shitless already and decided that we should play against each other..and yes i was the first to get killed thanks to someone who shot something and made a big hole in the ground and i just died like that and i still had one more left but i stupidly shot myself..typically of me ahha but yeah it was fun..really really fun day! had dinner in his house and wow the calamari wasnt bad it was good i liked it..tho it was mostly porkful stuff it was all good haha altho it was simple it was great! SO yeah hahaha im happy and im done doing my socio..i hope it turns out good cause we've been working so hard on it and i dont want it to go down the drain just like that and i really need the marks
Well im not perfet,
Just all messed up
Something happened this week its shocking wait till you find out what happens
Fall Offs
Mariah Carey - We Belong Together @No.17
Hilary Duff - Come Clean @No.18
On The Verge
25. Ashlee Simpson - Boyfriend
24. Kaci Brown - Unbelievable
23. Hilary Duff - Come Clean
22. The All-American Rejects - Straightjacket Feeling
21. Mariah Carey - We Belong Together
Top 20
20. Kate Dearaugo - Faded (PW:#-/DEBUT/P:20[1])
19. Hilary Duff - Wake Up (PW:#15/-4/P:5[1])
18. Britney Spears - And Then We Kiss (PW:#-/DEBUT/P:18[1])
17. Britney Spears - Someday (I Will Understand) (PW:#19/+2/P:10[1])
16. Ashlee Simpson - L.O.V.E (PW:#20/+4/P:16[1])
15. Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You (PW:#16/+1/P:10[5])
14. Ryan Cabrera - From The Start (PW:#13/-1/P:11[3])
13. The Veronicas - Mouth Shut (PW:14/+1/P:13[1])
12. Hilary Duff - Beat Of My Heart (PW:#13/-1/P:11[1])
11. Lifehouse - You And Me (PW:#12/+1/P:11[1])
10. The Veronicas - Leave Me Alone (PW:#9/-1/P:8[2])
9. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart (PW:#10/+1/P:7[3])
8. Ryan Cabrera - Photo (PW:8/=/P:8[3])
7. The Veronicas - Nobody Wins (PW:#7/=/P:7[6])
6. Ryan Cabrera - Shine On (PW:#6/=/P:4[1])
5. Ryan Cabrera - Fall Baby Fall (PW:#5/=/P:4[8])
4. Hilary Duff - Someone's Watching Over Me (PW:#4/=/P:2[6])
3. Hilary Duff - Fly (PW:#1/-2/P:1[11])
2. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not (PW:#3/+1/P: 2[1])
1. The Veronicas - 4ever (PW:#2/+1/P:1[1])
OMG we have a new number 1 and 2..fly has been officially kicked out from the top spot..After 1 year 5 months and 22 days of being number 1 week after week on the countdown, it has finally been dethroned..well i guess it was only time that tells but yes it is still the number 1 song overall..but just dropping in the weekly countdowns..Now its up to the Veronicas to battle out for the top spot..everything im not has been doing very well as it slowly rises, and other songs like nobody wins seems to be on the rise too..we'll wait till next week to see what happens.
ok from now on i'll try to post some fun facts everyday its supposed to be funny but dont blame me if it isnt..i try really hard..i must add that i send this to people to cheer them up to make their day..all i wanna do is to put a smile onto their faces and yours as well and if it doenst work and if you find it lame im sorry because i really try very hard and if it isnt good enough for you i will say that im sorry..
Fun Fact of the day!
They say that sometimes when you look at photos,
You remeber about the past
And waves of emotions start to flood you...
What happens when you meet that person in the photo?
You die, because a tsunami strikes you and you have no means of escape..
Lesson learnt, dont take pictures with people..
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My life is sooo freaking f'ed up! One more time someone talks to me about my stupid brother or asks me how he's doing in that stupid damn school which he's soo proud of because he thinks that he's soo f****** good..im going to kill that person and i dont care who the hell that person is..my hand is just going to move and hit that persons face..he thinks he's soo good and above the rest,well im sorry no YOU ARE NOT GOOD at all please loook at the better people dont even go to your school? And i can definitely prove that point because its just soo true..and they are definitely not losers like you..
Life is soo unfair for me..whatever i say or whatever i do, it just somehow doesnt seem to please my parents. But on the other hand, whatever that my brother does, just seems to attract soo much attention, joy and gladness to them. Even if he puked all over them, they'd clap their hands and say well done. Good job boy you've done a great job! I bet even if he robbed a bank, they'd be like wow this time you really did it! You're the best, now we just have to keep our mouth shuts about it and keep the money and dont report it to anyone alright? I mean its just soo unfair..they love everything about him, everything that he does..I try not to be selfish and think that maybe its cause he's the youngest in the family and since he's not very bright and a little bit retarded(ok maybe not a little bit but ALOT) i should like give in to him but most of the time, my parents being soo extremely nice to him even tho he's done soooooo many bad things just overwrites the treating him nicely part..
Ok some of you may still think that im really selfish but here's just something to maybe could convice you..So sometimes when he comes and disturbs me and irritates me, i tell him to just shut up and get lost and stop disturbing me..so my mom goes berserk and scolds me saying "Ryan, how many times have i told you not to be rude to your brother and not to say the word shut up? you're not allowed to say those 2 words you hear me?" So im like yeah whatever just leave me alone..so sometimes when we're in a car and i have a decent conversation with my parents, which i must say happens really rarely nowadays cause its a pain in the ass to talk to them, my brother tries to cut into the convo but i still continue talking cause im not done yet so he gest really frustrated and asks me to shut up..and most of the time, its soo clear and loud that everyone can hear it and my parents hear it too.. BUt guesss what???they doo not say anything about it and they dont scold him at all..let me repeat THEY DO NOT SAY ANYTHING TO HIM AND THEY DONT SCOLD HIM AT ALL..how unfair can that be??????okok so sometimes when he talks to me, i give him a really sarcastic tone and my mom just starts screaming at me like nobodys buisness..but when he shouts at the top of his voice at me when we're fighthing, my parents dont do aynthing at all..ok let me repeat that again THEY DONT DO ANY FREAKING THING AT ALL AND THEN JUST LET HIM CONTINUE SHOUTIHNG AT ME..ok here's the good part, when he's shouting at me like crazy, and i try to defend myself but dont get the opportunity to,he contiunes to shout at me, but when i do get the chance to..i start screaming at him using really sarcastic words and just instantaneously, my mom and dad starts screaming at me. LIKE WHAT THE HELL?HE WAS SHOUTING LIKE CRAZY ALREADY AND THERE I WAS TAKING IN ALL THE SHIT THAT WAS COMING OUT OF HIS MOUTH AND THEY DONT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT AT ALL, but when i open my mouth, i get shot at like crazy...what has this world come into?????????????????/i mean im totally innocent and when i say something i get scolded for something which someone else did..talk about respect you have for older people..he doesnt have shit respect for any bloody person in this entire bloody planet and my parents smile bloodly at it! ARGH
Ok here's more..its funny but they are always on his side..EVEN if he's wrong hello im the one who's not in the wrong..and the best part is that they scold me for it! Listen to this THEY SCOLD ME FOR BEING RIGHT!!!!!!!!!! ok thats just great im telling you..now i dont know if i should do the right thing or the wrong thing, be right or wrong cause either way i get scolded so why should i be nice anymore?Being nice doesnt pay, i get shouted at by that stupid retarded boy and after that i get a wonderful big bashing from my parents..sigh i really derno what to do in my life right now..its just soo irritating and i cannot stand the sight of him..he keeps calling me pimple face but he doestn realize that his face is worse than me..he thinks he's some super hot f****** idiot..well im sorry dude look in the mirror for once..you're soo F****** ugly like get a life ok..i serioulsy hate him and i dont want to ever see him again! I really wanna not live in the same house as him i cant take it anymore its just driving me nuts! its soo peaceful when he's gone, but when he comes back all hell breaks lose and even angels get scolded..what more mortals?????????i really derno what to do...i try to be nice but i get scolded, be good but i still get scolded..to do the right thing and i get slapped in the face..
its really a f****** shit ass day thanks to someone who came into this world..i've never had one moment of peace when he was around!
Whee today was a fun day hahahahha but it started off on a bad note tho. I had socio test today which was totally crapped up cause i couldnt answer like half the questions oh man hahaha but heck its all over..so yeah i had to do socio project (: whoo hooo i love doing socio project its soo fun ahha my group members rock ok? Totally haha they are the bestest ever!
Ok so we were supposed to meet our teacher to discuss, well maybe argue or hold a debate with her about Gender cause she said that we were missing out on alot on that topic. Apparently when we were discussing, we couldnt find anything about Gender at all which was really strange seeing as to how Gender was ont of the proposed topics that were were supposed to write our essay on..funny but yeah and so we waited and waited for her but she still didnt turn up. So i decided to call her and she said that she waited for us but couldnt find us and by that time it was already too late and she has to go for an invigilation at some place else..so we were like crap lar we waited for sooo long and she couldnt make it..
We were hungry so we decided to go eat lunch at 11..weird time to eat lunch hahaa...Ok we started the adventure and we did our work ahah discussed and stuff about our projects..
At about 2, we were hungry again, ok mainly it was me that complained that i was hungry(doenst this happen all the time?) hahahahhahaha ookok so i was like hey guys since its raining lets order McDonalds haha so everyone was like ok ok fine fine since you're hungry and we're a little hungey too..So i ordered, double cheeseburger without the pickles, sprite with less ice and i wanted BBQ sauce, chilli sauce, tomato sauce and sweet chilli sauce and in the end they gave me every sauce that they had..haha i think they hate me now for being such a total idiot ahhahaha...so yeah we talked about our spending habits and we found out that most of our money goes to food ahaha glorious food..but i mean i get hungry like all the time so naturally i would have to fork out money to eat..tho im trying very hard to save, but sometimes when my stomach beckons, i just cannot resist the temptation and i just have to eat
Our food came and we had a nice conversation and stuff about many different things..so everyone had drinks except Charmaine and Sally..so i was like so do you guys want anything to drink..and i saw the look on Charmaine's face and i was like ok i know the answer is yes..hahaa and she said i was just waiting for you to ask me hahaha so yeah i got drinks for them..so after we ate, Charmaine asked me if she could wash the cups or if i was going to wash them..i was like urm yeah you can wash them and she was like all what the hell and everything ahha..she claims that she doenst do housework and that her hands are all nice and smooth ahhaha and she has to come to my house and do it.
After we ate, i gave them a tour around my house. The last time, Yvonne, Jonathan, Sally and Charmaine came, Charmaine said that my toilet smelt like the hotel toilets and i was really honoured haha..so i brought her too all the toilets in my house to smell all of them one by one. I brought them to my moms room and let the investigator do her job, unfortunately my moms toilet didnt smell like a hotel toilet..so i brought them to my brothers toilet and now Charmaine was already really embarrassed already ahha..i guess she must now know that she's termed as the toilet smeller..haha okok i shall be nice(: she's raelly nice tho! So then she said that my brothers toilet doesnt smell like a hotel one either. Last but not least, i brought everyone to my sisters toilet and she said that it doesnt smell like a hotel toilet either hahahaha so yay props goes to my toilet for smelling great
WE had so much fun today (: hahahahah it was an eventfull day and i got to meet the person that i wanted to meet (:
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ok enough of that i heard 4ever on the radio OMFG ahhaha i was soo happy yesterday that i was screaming and shouting like a mad person..im going insane im telling you i was literally jumping around screaming 4ever and singing along to it and shouting at my sisters face and everything..and i mean its 4ever hello like its 4EVER ONLY THE BESTEST SONG IN THE ENTIRE WORLD THAT IS SuNG BY THE HOTTEST PEOPLE IN THE ENTIRE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMfg i was just freaking out until my mom had to spoil everything..she was like you dont have to go all crazy like that..spoiler you know..im like whatever just leave me alone and let me do what i wanna do man..i just heard my fav song on the radio so just chill out and let me run wild and free for once lettme ask you how many times do i get to hear 4ever?huhhuhhuhuhh?see thats my point ok wait on the radio ahah i've haerd it like 1240something times on my com/ipod but on the radio..never zilch zero!!!!!!!!!!so yeah seeee lettme be myself please!..hahahaaha COME ON BABY WE AINT GONNA LIVE 4EVER, LET ME SHOW YOU ALL THE THINGS THAT WE COULD DO, YOU KNOW YOU WANNA BE TOGETHER, AND I WANNA SPEND THE NIGHT WITH YOU, YEAH YEAH, WITH YOU, SO COME WITH ME TONIGHT WE COULD MAKE THE NIGHT LAST 4EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
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i just found out that Jess has a boyfriend that she's been dating for one a half years..im just heartbroken right now..i feel so sad and dejected..why why is she doing this to me huh? why did she tell me only now huh huh huh????????its not fair...sigh that means i cant get together with Jess anymore ahhahaa oh wells..I STILL LOVE JESS ITHINK SHE'S THE HOTTEST PERSON IN THE WORLD SO YEAH JUST F**** HER STUPID BF AND LET THEM BE TOGETHER CAUSE I'LL STILL LOVE HER AND SUPPORT HER NO MATTER WHAT! GOOD ON YA MATE!
Tort law is just killing me..ok this is what happened, my teacher told us to follow our lcom books to do our outlines and so yes i payed extra attention when my lcom teacher last sem was teaching me.so yeah i applied all the concepts that i've learnt..and i was soo proud of myself cause i took note of minor details and everything..so i happily went up to hand in my work to the teeacher..and what do you know i got scolded like crap for all the formats..i was like wtffffffffff???????????????????????i mean i already followed everything what more do you want?me to go on my knees and kiss your feet?like hello i've tried so hard..and you know whats the funny thing as well? Whatever that i thought was correct is wrong..so basically my whole understanding of this subject is wrong..me and my group memebers try our very best to give her what she wants but nooooo we just get shot at back like nobodies business..its really sad you know cause its not like we didnt put in any effort to do our work but we really relaly tired..its really sad
Immediately after class, headaches after headaches set in. My head was really in pain and i needed medicine so succum the pain so i had to go and get panadol..im just soo frustrated cause i personally did the outline myself and even the revampment of it as well..sigh its just soo pain staking and stressful and the outcome is crap..im really disinterested in the subject and my motivation is all gone..cause after numerous attempts, i still dont get it..i really derno what she wants and im gonna die if after every lesson i get sick
Im just really sad now..everything in life seems to go wrong again for the second time..i thought it would only happen once in a life time..well to my dismay i was wrong. The things that i wanna do i cant, the things i dont wanna do i must. What can i not do? Im trying my best to move on but somehow my efforts are still in vain. I picture you in my mind sometimes and us being together..it was a nice picture and first, but not its just ugly and disgusting but after that it becomes nice again..i dont know why i dont see your flaws at all when im with you but when im not thoughts of you doing all those things flood my mind and i realize that you arent perfect at all but why do i only see it when im not with you? Its strange but i guess thats just life
I dont know whats going on between us..you seem to be really cold towards me nowadays..i dont know whats going thru your mind..you just dont open up anymore..i was sure that you changed for the better, but right now i beg to diffeer because i still unsure..you have to open your mouth if you want this to work out but if you dont its fine with me.i've lived without you for one painful month, im sure i would be able to handle forever once we change class..because at the rate we're going its just pointless being friends...
I was losing myself to somebody else but now i see
I dont wanan pretend so this is the end of you and me
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