If you don't want to get married,
Don't freaking say yes when someone asks you to marry them
And then turn lesbian the next minute!
Sunday started off amazingly! (: Justine won her 7th Grand Slam trashing her opponent. There was no match at all because she was just too good. I mean after beating the 2 williams sisters, who would think that she wouldnt have more determination to win than her opponent! plus she came in with a head to head against her opponent of 14 games to a mere 2 games. The most recent one they had, had Justine losing to her. That was an exception because Justine had to play a quater finals and a semi finals on the same day due to weather delays and her opponent was fresh out of the oven having rested for a couple of days so i dont think its fair! BUT Justine proved that she's still the best and that she reigns supreme over her opponent with her 14-2 wins (: now 15-2. Go Justine! So the week started off positive! Lets just hope it remains this way!
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Oh i wanna give a special shout out to Miss Nghai for doing a SUPERB job with my hair!! YOU TOTALLY KICK ARSE!!!! I really do hope you get to open your own hairdressing studio or something some day cause you're really fantastic!! (: And yes we should meet for lunch soon alright or dinner haha (: thanks again you're the best man!!!
I woke up really excited today at 3:30 am. My one and only Justine was playing and i was rooting for her to win and it was an intense match, a really exciting one. I've never seen Justine so amazing before, fighting for every point and she was just stunning! I tried to go back to sleep, but it was tough cause i just felt so excited and happy (:
9am meant that i had to go to school for SIP pre launch. I found out what i was going to do at L&L and let me say my heart just stopped. It was a big blow for me and maybe i didnt show it on my face, but i was hurting deep inside. I was really upset about it, i wanted to do either family law or civil liti but i didnt get both. What upsets me more is that i was so excited about working with Shahira and all and everything and that vision that i envisioned in my head was just wiped away and slammed onto the ground and it hurt so much cause like someone else got it instead and yeah it just pisses me off. All i ask is that we get put on the same floor at least you know? Imagine during lunch, since Shahira wont be eating for a month and all i will be so lonely cause im all by myself. I mean who am i to complain when some firms only have one intern, and im sorry for being so selfish and all but im just upset ): you know you expected so much, and the talks that some of the people gave werent very encouraging either. i really am at a loss now. Im very disappointed..
and i heard the news about what i have to do in church and im also quite upset about it. sigh..
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went to watch No reservations with Charmaine today. It was damn nice ok!!! we loved that movie (: it was just great! Oh and we ate at this new restaurant place. The food was awesome man and also quite reasonably affordable. It was good catching up and stuff just talking and telling each other whats been happening in our lives over the last few months! we should do it more often!
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i really want Justine to win tomorrow. I really need this because if she does it will make me a much happier person than i am now. I really wanna start off this week with a positive attitude and i think its very important for me to do that, once i start well even if it goes bad i know i will still be positive! As she always say, take each match as it comes to you and not look ahead but do your best and give 100% in every match that you play, it doesnt matter what happens but as long as you tried your best and be aggressive in your points and put in effort, the best person will win. im going to conquer every day as it goes by and attack everyday with the best shot that i got! i hope this works! i know it will!
I really dont like two faced people. People that tell you something in the face and completely change immediately when faced with a situation. Its just absolutely disgusting! Isnt it fun that you coy around with your little small group of friends and giggle, and laugh amongst everything around you. That you're so oblivious to your surroundings, you dont give two hoots about anything around you and you just thrive on your company of your little friends. Fun i say! FUN! Riveting even! Super exciting!!! OMG lets go for a small little gossip sessions over Starbucks coffee and talk about everything under the sun like what Paris Hilton wore last week to whatever event she went to!!! Whatever, you think Paris Hilton really cares?
Im just sick of people being really disgusting and just urghh it sends shivers up my spine! I guess in life you just have to learn how to let people go, try as hard as you may sometimes its better to let go then to hold on to something.
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If you're so easily affected by what people say around you, then im sorry you suck! And dont get all angry at your friend because they disagree with certain things you do or say! Thats just really immature and just well really low. I am very disappointed with the way everything is going, it disgusts me and i thought it was going to be different, but clearly i was wrong yet again. Time after time i've tried, given you chances but they just fly by as though it was never there at all!!
lifes not the same when you're gone, yeah it isnt, tho im all alone, im not really bothered by it cause honestly i dont care anymore! Im just happy to be where i am today and im proud of where i've gone and its just satisfying!
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conversations like this make my heart drop. everytime you say something about yourself, it cuts me deep inside and i feel completely useless, selfish and just completely disabled. Theres no way i can help you, i want to so badly tho but i promise i'll be there more often. Thanks for today, you really made my day and without what we talked about i would have been afraid but now i know and im confident! thanks (: see you real soon!
All i wanna say is that im sorry that i completely messed things up! I told you to come and talk to me but where was i? i wasnt even there at all! What kind of f'ed up friend am i? Seriously?? What in the hell is wrong with me??? I mean like omg im such a bad friend!!!!
I totally just messed things up between us didnt i? Im sorry i wasnt there for you in your darkess times and im sorry that things havent been going so well between us. I really dont know what to say anymore because its like i dont know you anymore. Whats up with your life, how your dad is and how work is and how your progress on driving is anymore. I havent been there for you like what i have before, and i feel that i have disappointed you in some way, well actually in most!
i promise that i'll be there from here on end!
Im really sick and tired of where i am in my life right now. Yeah everythings going great, im feeling much happier than i was before. But somehow i just dont feel anything, it just doesnt feel right at all. The happiness i get is so superficial. Im tired of feeling this way. What happened to the days when i looked forward to everything? What happened to friends that will always be there for you?
I dont know what to do with you now. Yeah we've gone past the weird stage already but it seems to me that im trying hard to go back to what we had before but you're not helping at all. Im upset that i have to try so hard. It shouldnt be at all. We were never like that before and im confused. I dont know who you are anymore, what you're thinking. I cant read you the same way i did before and its hard being your friend if you dont say anything at all. Maybe im not supposed to be part of your life at all and maybe you're better off with her? I derno anymore. You dont tell me anything like you used to before. You never come and talk to me anymore. It upsets me that you've given me the cold shoulder yet again. Its like im non-existant in your life or something. I know i disappointed you before and i wasnt of much help, but here i am trying, the least you could do was to appreciate the effort taken.
Friendships are so fragile, they can fall apart anytime so easily. One blink of an eye and you've lost one of your best friends ever. How do you hold on to them? Once i've figured out how i'd let you know, but right now im still in a complete mess trying to figure whats going on in whos life and what not and it isnt easy at all. Its emotionally draining and its tiring. Im tired of this and i dont want to carry on worrying about things like that. Yeah my friends are important, but if they dont give a peach about anything that i do or try to do then i dont see any reason trying at all..
sorry if im ranting, im just really upset thats all. i didnt wanna keep it all inside and theres no one online to talk to.
ok so yeah i didnt really complete it and end it with a big one, but i would just like to say that im really tired and exhausted, i didnt think a whole month of this was easy at all! Trust me it isnt!
Anyways the last 2 songs are 4ever and Everything I'm not by The Veronicas, 4ever being day 31 and EIN day 30. I know most have already heard so much about these 2 songs so im not going to drag on anymore about them because i believe that the songs should speak for themselves!
Its amazing and thats all i have to say! i enjoyed Australian Music Month, i hope you did too!
September!! Non Main-stream American Music Awareness month!!!!
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