I derno whats wrong with my life right now,
its going from bad to worse.
I cant just act like nothing ever happened
And forget about whatever that was said.
Its too painful and everytime i look back,
My heart aches with every beat that it makes.
Sometimes i question myself,
And ask did i bring all this pain onto myself,
Could i have avoided all this if i just kept my mouth shut?
Or is it that the problem lies with me and they way i think,
Or the way that i react to things.
I try my very best to change,
But what i do apparently isnt good enough for you.
In the end, i just end up living a lie,
Living a life that isnt the real me,
Something that i'd never imagine myself to be.
School is supposed to be a place where you make friends,
Not enemies that you'd hate for the rest of your life.
Its sad and tragic,
But i really dunno what to do anymore.
Someone please save me from this misery,
I dont wanna be living a lie anymore..
ok this song is going out to you you a**hole good for nothing piece of shit! Now i know that i cannot depend on you when it all falls apart cause you're a total loser and all you care about is yourself! so yeah just leave me alone cause i know you're never there for me..why should i be???I hate you! This Song is for you! by The Veronicas for you!
I'm having the day from hell,
It was all going so well, before you came
And you told me you needed space
With a kiss on the side of my face, not again
And not to mention, the tears i shed
When i should have kicked you ass and said
I need intervention, attention to stop temptation to scream
Everything is fed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are, anymore
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do
Could you look me in the eye and tell me that you're happy now?
whatever!
Legend
PW - Previous Week
P - Peak
Top 20
1. Fly - Hilary Duff (PW: #1 /=/ P: 1[3])
2. Someone's Watching Over Me - Hilary Duff (PW: #2 /=/ P: 2[2])
3. 4ever - The Veronicas (PW: #3 /=/ P: 3[3])
4. Fall Baby Fall - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #4 /=/ P: 4[3])
5. Everything Im Not - The Veronicas (PW: #6 /+1/ P: 5[1])
6. Shine On - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #5 /-1/ P: 4[1])
7. When It All Falls Apart - The Veronicas (PW: #8 /+1/ P: 7[1])
8. Wake Up - Hilary Duff (PW: #7 /-1/ P: 5[1])
9. Unbelievable - Kaci Brown (PW: #9 /=/ P: 9[3])
10. Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson (PW: #10 /=/ P: 10[3])
11. Speechless - The Veronicas (PW: #12 /+1/ P: 11[1])
12. Someday(I Will Understand) - Britney Spears (PW: #11 /-1/ P: 10[1])
13. Leave Me Alone - The Veronicas (PW: #17 /+4/ P: 13[1])
14. Heavily Broken - The Veronicas (PW: #14 /DEBUT/ P: 14[1])
15. Whatever Will Be - Tammin Sursok (PW: #13 /-2/ P: 11[1])
16. Come Clean - Hilary Duff (PW: #14 /-2/ P: 13[1])
17. From The Start - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #15 /-2/ P: 15[1])
18. True - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #18 /=/ P: 18[2])
19. Confessions of A Broken Heart - Lindsay Lohan( PW: - /DEBUT/ P: 19[1])
20. Black Hole - Lindsay Lohan (PW: - /DEBUT/ P: 20[1])
Fall offs:
Dont Cha - PCD @ No. 16
Over - Lindsay Lohan @ No.19
We Belong Together - Mariah Carey @ No.20
Almost there but not yet
21. Over - Lindsay Lohan
22. We Belong Together - Mariah Carey
23. Boyfriend - Ashlee Simpson
24. Backwards Again - Tammin Sursok
25. Beat Of My Heart - Hilary Duff
Haha ok here's my christmas list..*hint* Coughsomeoneouttherepleasefreakinggetitformeori'llhateyouCough
ok here they are haha its in random order but i'll put my top first
1. The OC season 1 dvd please please please hahaa i really want it - $70
2. Lost Dvd season 1 - $114
3. The Verionicas album, The Secret Life of The Veronicas - $20 should be there its not out yet tho..i've got this already yay so dont need anymore!
4. Alicia Keys, Unplugged - $18.90
5. Yellowcards album, Lights And Sounds is the title i think its not out yet..- should be $20
6. Ryan Cabreras Dvd - Some live performance thing out in nov...dunno how much yet
7. Kaci Brown, Instigator - $20 something not out yet too
8. Marion Raven, Here I Am - $18.90 i dont think i want this anymore..
9. Hilary Duff Calendar dunno how much you have to import lol...
10. DONT GET ME A HILARY CD ESPECIALLY IF ITS MOST WANTED I'LL JUST THROW IT AWAY CASUE I HATE THE ALBUM MOST WANTED ITS A TOTAL WASTE OF MY EFFIN MONEY CRAPPY SHIT!
11. The All-American Rejcets, Move Along - $19.90
12. CLothes more clothes haha just keep them coming in..preferably quiksilver, ripcurl, nike, adidas color black please thanks!
13. Idog haha i wanna see how its like seems pretty cool - $60 i think?or something like that
14. Elektra dvd - $30
15. Fantastic 4 dvd - Dunno how much yet its not out..
16. Mr & Mrs Smith dvd - Same as above
17. The Perfect Man starring Hilary that they never play in sg sadly sigh why doesnt her shows come into sg???? - Same as above but probably have to import it comes out in nov in the us...i got this already so nvm ahha!
18. A pair of levis????haha or nice jeans...
The list goes on i'll update soon....
Till that better start saving yall hahaha
ok just kidding cause if you dont buy them for me im still gonna get them myself lol..
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LIKE WHAT THE HELL I CANT BELIEVE IT FREAKING ENDED! THE ENDING WASNT AS GOOD AS I EXPECTED IT TO BE LIKE OMG IM SOO FREAKING PISSED RIGHT NOW AND GUESS WHEN THE NEXT SEASONS GONNA COME LIKE MARCH HELLO MARCH IS LIKE HOW MANY MONTHS FROM NOW???????????? 4 OK 4 FOUR LIKE FOUR OMG THATS SUPER LONG OK! ITS CRAPPY IM NOT GONNA WAIT THAT LONG OMG BUT I STILL HAVE TO LIKE WHAT THE HELL SHIT OK IM TELLING YOU SHIT THIS IS SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!
OK THATS ENOUGH FOR NOW I SHALL POST WHEN IM EMOTIONALLY STABLE
Legend:
PW - Previous Week
P - Peak
1. Fly - Hilary Duff (PW: #1 /=/ P: 1[1])
2. Someones Watching Over Me - Hilary Duff (PW: #2 /=/ P: 2[1])
3. 4ever - The Veronicas (PW: #3 /=/ P: 3[1])
4. Fall Baby Fall - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #4 /+2/ P: 4[1])
5. Shine On - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #4 /-1/ P: 4[1])
6. Everything Im Not - The Veronicas (PW: #6 /+2/ P: 6[1])
7. Wake Up - Hilary Duff (PW: #5 /-2/ P: 5[1])
8. When It All Falls Apart - The Veronicas (PW: #7 /-1/ P: 8[1])
9. Unbelievable - Kaci Brown (PW: #9 /=/ P: 9[2])
10. Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson (PW: #10 /+2/ P: 10[1])
11. Someday(I Will Understand) - Britney Spears (PW: #10 /-1/ P: 10[1])
12. Speechless - The Veronicas (PW: #19 /+7/ P: 12[1])
13. Whatever Will Be - Tammin Sursok (PW: #11 /-3/ P: 11[1])
14. Come Clean - Hilary Duff (PW: #13 /-1/ P: 13[1])
15. From The Start - Ryan Cabrera (PW: #17 /+2/ P: 15[1])
16. Dont Cha - PCD (PW: #16 /=/ P: 16[2])
17. Leave Me Alone - The Veronicas (PW: #20 /+3/ P: 17[1])
18. True - Ryan Cabrera (PW: -/RETURN/ P: 18[1])
19. Over - Lindsay Lohan (PW: #15 /-4/ P: 15[1])
20. We Belong Togehter - Mariah Carey (PW:- /RETURN/ P: 20[1])
Fall offs:
Supergirl - Hilary Duff @ NO.14
Dirty Little Secret - The All-American Rejects @ No.18
Almost there but not there yet
21. Ashlee Simpson - Boyfriend
22. Lindsay Lohan - Confessions Of A Broken Heart
23. Tammin Sursok - Backwards Again
24. The Veronicas - Heavily Broken
25. Lindsay Lohan - Black Hole
This totally sucks right now..my life, everyone around me thinks im really angsty right now haha..i seriously dunno why man..when someone says something that i either get offended by or if i just pissed at it..im really hot tempered now and i dunno its juts really weird cause i wasnt like that before i know im already hot tempered and all but i usually keep everything inside and not let it out at all so yeah..
i've been thinking and questioning myself, asking why my hasty reactions to nasty comments and why do i get so worked up so easily?there has to be a problem somewhere, maybe its the things that im doing or music that i listen to. This all started 2 weeks ago when i started school and all and just a week before, i started listening to The Veronicas...they kinda are angsty but in a cool way thats totally awesome and i was thinking maybe it could be that but i really dunno, some of my friends think that it is and some dont. But i think i know the reason why. When i started listening to The Veronicas i really loved them alot and i listened to them like every second and every minute its crazy, now 4ever is my 2nd most played song on itunes i know its just maddness right now 470 times already its insane but whatever. Back to my point so yeah and i used to listen to fly like evey day for at least 5 times but since then i've stopped listening to it. Well it wasnt like an immediate thing or anything but it was more of a gradual process where i slowly stopped listening to fly. First it was 4 times then 3 then 2 and then none..i dont think i actually realized that i stopped doing that and yes my angstyness got crazier and crazier and i couldnt control my temper at all and i shouted at my best friend which was soo bad and wrong and yeah but thank goodness we're alright now...and just a few days ago i saw this picture of Hilary Duff(posted at the bottom) and it brought tears to my eyes. The reason being that first of all it was from my fav video of all time, Fly and i really love the song and video and that is also one of my fav pictures of her and i just love it soo much. It brings back many memories that i've had and all the times that fly helped me through those difficult times in my life and when flyy was there to cheer me up when im down, make me go crazy when i was happy..ok now i sound like some sick ass person with issues but whatever haha..the point that im trying to state is that i just miss fly alot and i feel that i've neglected it that sounds retarded too but whatever..im feeling so much better right now that i've started to listen to fly again and im gonna go watch the video now so see ya guys soon!
ok so im just gonna do this like every week since there's nothing for me to post on my blog lol so here it is my top 20 for last week (:
ok im gonna start from scratch ahha so yeah this will be the first week tho fly has been number 1 for like more than a year
1. Fly - Hilary Duff
2. Someone's Watching Over Me - Hilary Duff
3. 4ever - The Veronicas
4. Shine On - Ryan Cabrera
5. Wake Up - Hilary Duff
6. Fall Baby Fall - Ryan Cabrera
7. When It All Falls Apart - The Veronicas
8. Everything Im Not - The Veronicas
9. Unbelievable - Kaci Brown
10. Someday (I Will Understand) - Britney Spears
11. Whatever Will Be - Tammin Sursok
12. Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson
13. Come Clean - Hilary Duff
14. Supergirl - Hilary Duff
15. Over - Lindsay Lohan
16. Dont Cha - PCD
17. From The Start - Ryan Cabrera
18. Dirty Little Secret - The All-American Rejects
19. Speechless - The Veronicas
20. Leave Me Alone - The Veronicas
Almost there but not there yet:
Boyfriend - Ashlee Simpson
ok here's my top 15 singers list whoots
1. The Veronicas/Ryan Cabrera
2. Hilary Duff
3. Yelllowcard
4. Tammin Sursok
5. Kelly Clarkson
6. Britney Spears
7. The All-American Rejects
8. Ciara
9. Marion Raven
10. Avril Lavigne
11. Destiny's Child
12. Beyonce Knowles
13. Maroon 5
14. Alicia Keys
15. Switchfoot
Yay im in love with The Veronicas so much so that im ditching Hilary..Yes you heard me! Hilary is no more number 1 sadly, her reign as my number 1 fav singer lasted for 1 year 2 months and 24 days. She was joined by Ryan Cabrera and they reigned together for about 2 months and now she got kicked out by The Veronicas. It all started on the 27th of october when i downloaded the song 4ever and officially fell in love with that song and ever since that day, i've listened to 4ever like constantly for like every minute of my life and yes i really really love 4ever! And ever since that faithful day, i've stopped liking Hilary more and more each day and now on this very day, i've decided to kick her out of her top spot cause she doesnt deserve it anymore!
Well i was waiting for her to come out with something that i like and i waited and waited and yet she did nothing about it so yeah The Veronicas did what she could not do so yeah..The Hilary now isnt the same Hilary that i fell in love with.The one who sang fly and released one of the greatest Rock/pop albums on this earth is gone and she's back to her old metarmorphosis self and that wasnt the Hilary that i loved. Well honestly i did like her at that time but she was number 2 so since she's gone back to her old days, logically speaking shouldnt her position drop as well?well yeah..anywhos Her songs are too i dunno weird for me now and she just released her latest single Beat of My Heart, the videos alright but the song just sucks soo baldy and i dont like it. Sometimes i force myself to listen to it cause its a Hilary song. I go ok its a Hilary song i cant not listen to it cause i love Hilary well thats all gonna change right now..its really sad but its the only way out cause i cant force myself to do something that i dont like, i'll just be living in denial and i dont want that to carry on..it all started when she released her latest cd Most Wanted, i treid to continue to like her the same way that i did but apparently it didnt work and i had to do something about it..until she releases something like her album Hilary Duff, she's gonna remain as number 2 and slowly drop off..To date 4ever has been played for like 309 times already and im still not sick of it! Yeeah and now Hilarys number 2 but dont get me wrong, im still in love with her but not as much anymore and im still a fan just that she's number 2..its stillgood to be number 2~!
Ok now im gonna tell you why i like them!
Have you heard them talk? They are just the niceest people alive! And plus they have that wonderful aussie accent which soo rocks and its just flawless! They are totally awesome! They are the sweetest too and they are soo effing pretty and hot! Ok i need to talk more about their aussie accents its just sooo cool! i was watching their many interviews and they were soo funny. You know its soo cool that they are twins, they make fun of each other and have so much fun during all the interviews that they have and yes the way they talk is just awesome! (: i love their aussie accents its just perfect! I must add that they are awesome singers! They can sing soo well live..soo much better than Hilary..and yes they play their guitars sometimes during performances but they are just fabolous live i was totally mesmerized by their performance! oh oh i wanna say something too! The Song All about Us by T.A.T.U was written by The Veronicas. You heard me yes they wrote that song for them but it was more rockish and T.A.T.U changed it and made me more electronic but still its soo cool that they wrote a song for them i was soo shocked when i heard it but its soo cool! Argh i love them soo much (: YAy for the Veronicas!
I love Lisa and Jess (:
ok thats enough ahah im going nuts already! (:
oh i want their album soo badly now..im getting really desperate..
What can i say? I know for sure that im totally in love with them right now! Well i've been listening to this song 4ever like more than 60 times in one day doenst count as being totallycrazyobsessivefreaky over them then i dont know what does...oh well yes i've only got their song for not more than a week and already i've played it like 123 times..and its already the 23th most played song on my ipod its really fast..No song has ever done this before..tho there are 4 songs that are also on the rise together with this one at a rapid pace and have also reached positions that no other songs have achieved..they are Someday(I Will Understand) by Britney, Unbelievable by Kaci Brown, Fall Baby Fall by Ryan Cabrera and Becuase Of You by Kelly Clarkson and the next 2 songs that did the same, but they did this way before these songs are Shine On by Ryan Cabrera and Wake Up by Hilary Duff. But yeah enough im supposed to talk about The Veronicas...ok this was posted long ago but just to update the play count is now 226 and its my 8th most played song! im planning to hit the 1000 mark!
Yes They are from aus, cool eh? I have this thing for aus singers i just love them!Anywhos..they are twins and they are really pretty and they sing wonderful breath taking absolutely ifyoudontlikethemyoucangokissthefloor songs and yes they might just take over Hilarys place ahah my love for Hilary is dying everyday at a rapid pace...i have no idea why..i think her cd Most Wanted is a complete total waste of money everyone out there dont get it haha..im mad cause i cant get their cd here yet..sigh i'll have to wait for it to come out and i hope it comes out soon real soon cause i cant wait any longer!
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