I really needed this little getaway, it didnt matter where i went or who i went with..i just needed to get away from the country, get away from people who just pretend to be there for you when they are actually never there for you at all. Or people who you just need to getaway from you know, not that i hate them or anything, but sometimes you just need your space to breathe..
So yes me and my mom were all stoked to get on the plane that was going to arrive in Manila, Philippines..i have never been there before and from what i hear its kinda like Malaysia and all the neighbouring countries..so i really didnt set the standard that high..but anyways we were off to meet my dad in Philippines cause he was coming from Malaysia..One more reason why me and my mom were elated and happy was because we were going to travel on business class which was ahahha something interesting because we've never done it togheter before but we've done it separately..but still cool...i was soo happy to get on the plane..my mom told me that the last time she went to Manila, she sat on a 747..and i was like shit ahahha no freaking way maybe i could get on one too..lol ps i love 747s they are my fav(: anywhos when i went to board the plane and saw the plane i was like shit thats a jubilee damn haha..its smaller than 747s..and yeah i was kinda expecting that already because SIA is phasing out 747s because they've got new planes that can have the same number of passengers and its smaller..so yeah i guess they'd probably replace it and yes to my dismay i was right and i got that plane..): but it was all good still..yeah i watched yours mine and ours on the plane..let me tell you that i was HILARIOUS hahaha super funny..i loved it soo much! The flight was aight..a bit of bumps here and there but it wasnt one of the best fights i had..
So day 1 began when we landed..we had to wait for my dad because his flight was all late and the customs was super slow..and i was irritated as usualy because i dont like waiting..it pisses me off..anywhos i couldnt complain..so yeah he finally came yay lol...we checked into the hotel and boy when i saw the hotel i was like WOW my jaw just dropped..it was nothing like i expected it to be at all...when we drove around manila to get to our hotel..i really saw how the the condition of the country and i was sadden because im so much more fortunate than they are and they have so little and yet they are soo contented with whatever they have and im just some spoiled child wanting me more lol..anyhows back to the hotel, i guess the buildings around the area and the whole area was different because it was a business district and stuff but yeah Shangri-La was amazing ahah i love that place..when i stepped into the hotel i smelt something i've never smelt before and i was pleasantly surprised..i loved the smell of the hotel..and i finally stepped into aircon lol..yes it was soo hot outside and im supposed to be singaporean..im supposed to be able to take the heat and stuff like that but no shit man it was bad bad bad..haha so yeah we finally settled down and i was sooo tired man..i told my mom that i had jet lag so i needed to sleep before we went out again..haha the funny thing is that we are on the same time as Singapore so there shouldnt be any jet lag at all but yeah i needed to sleep so i had to come out with whatever stupid reason, i woke up at 6 something..thats a bad time to wake up at and im not good when i wake up at that time..so yeah after we woke up we decided to walk around before we had dinner..and look at the shops and stuff..i was amazed at what i saw..i didnt expect to see the shops that i saw..they had shops that singapore didnt have and should have..shops like Dunkin Donuts and Gloria Jean's Coffee hahaa i love that one..anywhos they had the usual shops that singapore had like Levis, Nike, even Zara and Topshop ahhaha cool stuff eh..i was soo excited and i couldnt wait to go shopping hahah..yeah so we went out with my dad for dinner ahha which is a good thing cause we could go to super expensive yummy restaurants hahaha..and we went with my dads co worker person i think im not really sure who he is but he's a nice dude from China..right on man ahha...anywhos we went to this place it serves authentic filipino food or what you call local food..and wow as it amazing..i loved almost every dish there except for the kang kong..somehow it was weird tho i love it with balachan hahaha my fav..yum shit im hungry ok whatever..so yeah anywhos wow i loved the clams and mussels and stuff and i never eat them at all but wow now im addicted everywhere i go i must eat them ahha..so yes while we were eating there were people singing and stuff and they came over to our table to sing songs for us and boy were they good..i mean yeah The Philippines have true talent..they are just amazing..they can sing in like 4 parts and everything and wow i was amazed and yet embarassed because i've been learning music for ages and im no where near them at all..ok i derno if thats true i might be as good but i dont think so lol haha anywhos they were amazing and i loved them..
We went back to the hotel after that to get drinks and stuff..i got a singapore sling..i wanted to try that cause i havent tried it before and stuff and when i drank it i was alright at first but as time passed, i had an allergic reaction to it..i was like wtf?????????and omg it was soo bad my head was hurting and stuff..it was bad..and after that my mom made a conclusion that im allergic to rum and all that non wine stuff..i was like shit damn tahts just soo bad..so yeah i had to go back to the hotel to rest..argh it was bad im telling you bad bad bad... so yeah day 2 came that will be said later..too lazy to type all at once...i loved day 1 (: except the drinking part..
ok i started work and yeah its been great but what motivates me is actually the music they play..but not in the shop tho ahah outside of the shopp...so i was behind emptying dishes and guess what song i heard across the other shop?
i heard 4everrrrrrrrrrrri was like shit omg haaha and it soo happened to be me and lisas fav section of 4ever it was ssooo cool ahah we always sing that together lol..and go nuts over that part..but yeah anyways i went hyper that day hahahaha...Whoots s yeah i was working again today and i gave out flyers and i heard on the way down hahaha yay whoots ok thats all..nothing much to update ahhaha oh i went out with keshia that day it was fun hahaha (: catching up cool stuff!
Today was the best day of my life or should i say just this morning about half an hour ago, the best thing just happened and me and lisa were freaking out like crazy..you cannot imagine how excited we were...we were at a lost for words..ok so the best thing happened..i was on the chats and then all of a sudden lisa goes omg the veronicas just commented me on myspace i was like no shit..and i was about to comment the veronicas when jess comes online..i was like OMG its that username its her its definitely 1000% her..and we talked omg we talked i actually talked to Jessica Louise Origliasso..OMG i talked to JESSICA LOUISE ORILGIASSO...I ACTUALLY TALKED TO HER...I WAS FREAKING OUT SOO BADLY THAT AFTER SHE LEFT ALL MY SENTENCES were all mixed up and i was typing so fast and me and lisa went crazy..we were spamming each other on msn and singing along to 4ever and we just went insane acting like small little children but it was my first time talking to jess and i was soo excitied i've never spoken to jess before and i cant believe i did but i did omg i dont care if you dont believe me but i did so whatever! I dont think i can sleep tonight!
Oh and after Jess left i went to comment them on myspace and guess what i got a comment back and i was insane i just went mad and i told lisa and we were literally screaming...omg im still in shock..i really am omg i love jess..I LOVE JESSS I REALLY REALLY REALLY DO SHE'S THE BESTEST EVER!!!!!!!!!!!
Today is the day. Its that day. Its that very special day where special things happen. Things that should be remembered for life. Things that people should do. Places where people should go to to get the things. Moments of joy that people share when they get the things that they wanna get. Mainly its a day of celebration for Veronicas fans today. Its the release of the girls latest single When It All Falls Apart. So dudes you know what to do go to stores and get it right now! You will not be disappointed hahaha this song has touched lives even before its released and in conjunction with the release the song on my blog shall be changed..4ever no longer stands 4ever, When It All Falls Apart shall be the new 4ever..Remember this day people..write it down in your social calendars and make sure that you remember for this is the day to cherish. It only comes once in a life time..
Today was an extremely moody day for me haha.ok so i woke up feeling extremely pissed because i was just angry and probably woke up on the wrong side of the bed..i saw the time it was 10:02 i was like shit i have piano at 10:30 and im soo freaking late..so i rushed my shower and everything and left the house asap..and i was shoutng at my mom..poor her..anywhos i walked to the bus stop and when the bus came i realized i didnt bring my wallet..i was like shit and it was alreayd 10:20 something and i was super pissed i wanted to kill someone ahha so i went back..told my teacher i had a bad headache which was soo fake..haha
I had lunch and the post man came..i was expecting cindys letter anytime now and it finally arrvied..and when i open it i was sooo happy ahha and it really made my day and my whole day changed thanks to cindy (: you rock!
here it is:
Ooo it was a reunion today basically ahah which was a good thing..it was just the 4 of us like before and always, the 4 that were always seen in school together, the 4 that were unseparable, the 4 that could do almost everything together, the 4 that speak in different languages when we talk to one another, the 4 that eats recess together, the 4 that waits for one another, the 4 that will never forget one another..It was Chings,Wei Ming and Hui Ting. I've know chings for what seems to be like 4ever..really i've know her since the first day of school when i was primary 1 ahah..it was soo funny that we've been in the same school but never in the same class for soo long and only until we're about to end our same schoolness did we get into the same class..yeah and from then on we just got closer and closer..Wei Ming was someone that was always there around Chings all the time and thats how i got to know him..i guess its because they were so close when they were in sec 1 and 2 and the same for Hui Ting as well so yeah i kinda joined that group when i was in sec 3..
I still remember the times we had together when we were hanging out and stuff and when i was sitting next to chings during chinese lessons and my teacher will always scold me and her for talking to much and she kept cursing me saying that if i dont stop talking in class and only speaking english in class i will fail my chinese what bla bla bla..so i was like whatever dude ahaha..she was like you know i hate you..in chinese and i said out loud in front of the whole class..well im sorry to say that the feeling is mutual..everyone around me laughed but i guess she didnt understand what i was saying so she kept scolding me ahhaha...and yeah chings wasnt spared..and she had to separate us and stuff..and i used to rmb when she punished me and made me stand up in front of the whole class to read some random chinese passage which i obviously couldnt do, chings would be like ok thaat word is this and that and it would sound as tho i know all the words but i dont at all so its fluent haha..but yeah guess what i got for my chinese? a B4 you stupid biatch and i didnt even go for your freaking chinese lessons..
Anywhos the outing was great..we went to eat at this quite ex place and hui ting was soo nice and she paid for my lunch as my present which was good..we had great food and the servings were huge i must add..after lunch we hung out at starbucks..and i made a discovery today after so long that coffee and cinnamon was a good mix..wow it was amazing with coffee i loved it ahahahha im addicted already..i had heaps of it today and i kept going back for more and more and more..cinnamon addict hahaha..after that huiting had to go so me chings and weiming went walking around and we went to all the food places caused they wanted to look at where the good foods were at..oh and we went to this food fair place at suntec and there was food everywhere haha it was like food heaven..and there was this shop that sold brownie cheesecake..and i was like shit i must try that..so i managed to get a sample thanks to weiming ahhaha and chings tried it too and i persuaded her to go and get it and she paid 90 cents and i paid 1 dollar and we shared it haha yum!!!!!!!!!! it was soo good that i even licked my fingers till every piece was finished..it is to die for people TO DIE for hahah its a perfect mix!
Then we went shopping haha and i went to my fav stall RIPCURl lmao and i bought 2 shirts thanks to chings and weiming who picked them out for me ahaha i love both of them! and the shirts..here they are! oh they are really really cheap
Its my first day of celebration ahha..everyones taking me out for my birthday..isnt that nice? i know i love all my friends..they rock! I went out with Charmaine today..oh she was soo nice she gave me my 2nd present..and i was really shocked but pleasantly surprised..i actually planned a surprise lunch for her but due to unforseen circumstances we couldnt go for it..but fret not cause i will take her to where we were supposed to go in due time..
we got tickets to watch V for Vendatta..and the counter lady was like do take note that its NC-16 so i was like wth?????what do we look like? 5 to you?hello i qualify for M18 ok ahah so yeah we gave her the weird look..so we had about an hour to kill and we were kinda feeling hungry..so i was like lets go get ice cream hahaha i was craving for it..well basically i was for the whole week lol i ate ice cream which sucked on monday big time ok it was the worse ice cream that i ate ever..it was crapped up argh but i was desperate so yeah ahhaha..well the next day i went to awfully chocolate and wow boy was it good man its like sooooooooooo good..yes go buy people highly recomended! hahahah so yeah we went to get gelato and she got baileys and i got coffee crunch..hers was nice and it wasnt all alcoholic and mine was crunchy..i tricked her at first when i first tried her gelato i was like oh shit my head started bopping..she was like what?hahaha then i was like just kidding lol she sighed a sigh of relief ahhahaha..
Now about the show..its really worth your money..its 2 hours..oh and we went to the 9th floor of cine to watch it..and we were in awe of how cool it was and we were like this place actually existed ahhaha sooo stupid and it was really cool tho..and yeah the show was fantastic..and it had a sad ending ahh something i love!
After the movie, we went to eat at cafe cartel, a place ive never been to before..the food was great and i loved it..something that i would try again..and as usual i was hungry again so we went to plaza sing and i ate gelare ahha and forced hre to eat it..
The whole day was a fun day basically hahaha it was good oh and at night we played guessing games, i made her guess which one was jess and which ones was lisa and boy was she smart man she could guess everything correctly and i was amazed now she can spot the difference haha amazing! one smart girl!
I didnt do anything special today but i learnt something..something that i think its really important in the walk that im taking and i derno something just dawned on me today and i think my whole perception in life is going to change which is good i guess..its great being 18 and yeah it kinda feels different ahha the responsibilities and stuff and yeah so heres that i did:
First song i listened to: 4ever - The Veronicas
First video i watched: 4ever - The Veronicas
First album i listened to: The Secret Life of The Veronicas (and still listening now)
First picture i saw: Jessica Louise Origliasso
and there are many more firsts ahha and so the list goes on..hahaha but yeah its all good.im learning to treasure all the friends that i have..RAH i love you soooo much you totally rock my world and without you i dont know where i would be right now..i miss you so much and i cant wait to see you soon! i had a dream, a dream that she came back on my birthday hahaha awww soo sweet hahah yeah and you were all crying when you saw me and so was i cause wehavent seen each other in ages i guses..
i couldn sleep last night i was tossing and turning thinking about someone..i derno if i should or not..only time will tell i guess but i hope it works out right (:
SO yes i decided to change ths song because when it all falls apart isnt due to release till 20th of march which is still a long way..so yeah its Speechless now its because its how i feel about some one..
Come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever
Wow its amazing haha i had fun today and the food was great..i ate soo much tho..i feel like a pig, i ate a normal new york fish and chips and ate a half of seafood platter for 2..hahah my parents couldnt finish it so i had to finish more than half of it for them wow that is alot haha.
My dad was soo nice tho..he told them that it was my birthday and they made me stand up and they sang a birthday song really really loudly for everyone to hear and everyone knew my name haha it was funny but it was fun...and they gave me a nice little present ahahha..a nice fish i had fun today haha it was great (:
happy birthday to myself lmao (:
i hate my f****** life right now..its soo f'ed up..really seriously im really having the day from hell and EVERAYYTHING is f'ed up..i hate my effin brother he's so f***** retarded..he is annoying and i hate him to the extreme core...he is such an ass a jerk an ass wipe..he should just go and wipe everyones f****** ass for a living im sure he'll be good at doing that..why the f*** must they talk about his f****** schoool in front of my face? YOU Know i soo f****** cannot stand anything that you talk to me about concerning that f****** idiot..why the hell are you even telling me his stupid raquet needs restringing..i was eating my f****** dinner you f****** assholes...like just f*** off the next time you want to even mention his f******* name infront of me its sickening..
I was peacfully eating my f****** dinnner and you just had to ruin it didnt you?huh you f****** idiot..why not you just got there and f****** stay there for the rest of your f****** life?its soo much f******better..you know everywhere you go..everyone hates you..you know why?you're a f****** asshole who doesnt know how to keep your f****** mouth shut and you talk to loud and you're just f****** retarded..you hear me f****** retarded and you dont know how to behave..i have no f****** idea how the f*** im related to you..
I just got my f***** results back..and im f****** depresssed..god to think i actually worked hard? like i should just go f*** myself in the head or something..i deproved in like every subject what the hell is this man????????i dont know i dont even think this is right for me anymore nothing is..iderno what is..
My birthday is just around the corner but honestly i dont really care about it anymore because it just doesnt matter anymore..i wish i wasnt even born at all..why was i even brought into this world..theres soo much pain and suffering in it..happiness is always just on the surface..underneath imdying in pain, crying out everydayn for something..yerning for something that isnt there..most of my friends arent even friends..they are f****** bitches that only care about themselves and its not just one person its every f****** person around me and its just soo depressing..i give in soo much and what do i get out of it? F******* nothing at all..they only call when something happened to them..you expect me to be happy for you?why should i you probably dont even care if i existed or not..so why should i even f****** pick up your call? everyone around me is just sooo f***ed up..god im just dying and it doesnt pay to be nice not at all not f****** one time at all..
EVERYTHING IS F'ED UP STRAIGHT FROM THE HEART....
CAUSE I CANT TURN TO YOU WHEN IT ALL FALLS APART...
HAHAH ok im going nuts now..nothing will be able to contain the happiness and joy that is flowing out of me! Im just sooo soo happy...wow soo many things are happening around me that i really dont know what to do..haha my birthdays next week which is good but i honestly dont care about that hahahaha i mean it really doent matter to me now because of what i've heard? im going away and im going on SIA haha my most beloved airlines i love SIA to the extreme core, maybe one day i might just work there..i derno its been my dream since i was a kid to fly..i love flying its the most amazing thing anyone can ever do. I thank God for creating the Wright brothers without them there wouldnt be airplanes today..haha props go to you guys haha you guys kick ass hahahahahah i love you heaps tho you're dead but who freaking cares?
Anywhos my mom says that i can go visit Sarah at the end of the year..i went omg no freaking way i was soooo happy! I Miss Rah soo much i havent seen her in ages and yeah i raelly really miss her and its soo great talking to her and stuff aha she's the bestest and im just soo excited to go see her (:RAH I LOVE YOU hahahaha...wow its amazing im soo happy and hyped up already im ready to conquer the world! Whoo hooo!
AND i love jesss haha!
Oh i met this girl on the Veronicas boards that has almost the same birthday as me and we're born almost at the same time..she's soo nice and we like almost the same things serious..like music food and shows and even to color and the smallest details..she's amazing and we really have soo much in common..she's the best ahhaha and her birthday is coming soon! happy birthday! (:
You know how on different days you feel like listening to different kinds of songs? Slow, fast, happy, emo, sad and dance and so on so forth..well i guess everyone has their own days..well today my days we S Club hahaha i have nooo idea why i felt like listening to them but yeah i was listening to them heaps it was funny tho cause i dont listen to them anymore..but yeah now i rmb how i used to love them soo much especially Rachel hahaha she's hot and yeah i thought she was one of the best but of course i know im living in self denial because Jo is outright handsdown the best singer in S Club everyone knows that..so yeah i felt soo happy listening to S Club and it was satisfying lol..i love S CLub hahahaha okok super Popy but whatever they rock!
haha ok thats all i've got to say nothings been happening in my boring life..its soo effin boring and oh i was sick so yeah stupid..but yeah meh!
On The Verge
25. PCD feat Will.i.am - Beep
24. Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away
23. Aly&Aj - Rush
22. Rihanna - S.O.S
21. The Veronicas - Mother Mother
Top 20
20. The Veronicas - Revolution (PW:#-/DEBUT/P:20[1])
19. Yellowcard - City of Devils (PW:#-/DEBUT/P:19[1])
18. Hilary Duff - Beat Of My Heart (PW:#18/=/P:11[1])
17. Yellowcard - Lights And Sounds (PW:#20/+3/P:17[1])
16. Britney Spears - Someday (I Will Understand) (PW:#14/-2/P:10[1])
15. Hilary Duff - Someone's Watching Over Me (PW:#15/=/P:2[6])
14. Lifehouse - You And Me (PW:#17/+3/P:9[1])
13. The All-American Rejects - Move Along (PW:#16/+3/P:13[1])
12. Britney Spears - And Then We Kiss (PW:#12/=/P:10[1])
11. Ryan Cabrera - From The Start (PW:#11/=/P:9[1])
10. Ryan Cabrera - Shine On (PW:#8/-2/P:4[1])
9. The Veronicas - Mouth Shut (PW:10/+1/P:9[1])
8. The Veronicas - Leave Me Alone (PW:#9/+1/P:8[3])
7. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart (PW:#7/=/P:7[6])
6. Ryan Cabrera - Photo (PW:6/=/P:6[3])
5. The Veronicas - Nobody Wins (PW:#5/=/P:5[4])
4. Ryan Cabrera - Fall Baby Fall (PW:#4/=/P:4[12])
3. Hilary Duff - Fly (PW:#3/=/P:1[11])
1. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not (PW:#1/=/P:1[3])
1. The Veronicas - 4ever (PW:#1/+1/P:1[3])
After so long i realized that i havent really posted pics of my dear beloved wife..other than the one at the top..not much has been shown hahaha..yes yes jess is hot..i love her and i love Lisa too but she's already taken tho Jess is also taken, i would like to believe that she isnt..hahahhah..
So here they are
This is Jess in Everything Im Not
jess again in When It All Falls Apart
jess again in When It All Falls Apart
Lisa in When It All Falls Apart
Jess on the guitar in EIN
First Jess and Lisa pic posted..both in WIAFA
Jess and Lisa in EIN
Jess and Lisa in EIN and Lisa sticking out the finger lmao
Ok as you all know this will be The Veronicas 3rd single and its gonna be released really soon..and i cant wait..20th of march guys go get it aight haha i know i am..thanks to sarah haha she's the best! Sarah you rock! So yeah as further promotion for The Veronicas the song has already been uploaded and what you are hearing now is When It All Falls Apart by The Veronicas..to aid you in your little sing along..here are the lyrics to the song..enjoy and start singing yall!
When It All Falls Apart
I'm having the day from hell
It was all going so well
Before you came
And told me you needed space
With a kiss on the side of my face...
Not again
And not to mention
The tears I shed
When I should have kicked your
Ass instead
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream...
Cause Baby
Everything is f'ed up
Straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do
When it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up
Where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you
When it all falls apart
Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are
Anymore
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do...
When it rains it pours
And not to mention I drank to much
I'm feelin' hungover
And out of touch
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream...
Can't it be easier?
Can't I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will I be mending?
Another one ending once again...
Enjoy (;
Everytime i try to fly
I fall without my wings, i feel so small
I guess i need you baby
Everytime i see you in my dreams
I see your face, its haunting me
I guess i need you baby
Its soo true sometimes i cannot sleep at night because i see you in my dreams. I see your face, something that i dont wanna see..not that its ugly or anything, but it brings back really bad memories and sometimes i cannot sleep at night at all..Its hard really hard for me to move on..Sometimes i feel that we shouldnt have even known each other at all..because it was a mistake, a very very big mistake that both you and i made..and now after so much has happened, how can you just walk away and pretend that you've never met me before, never heard my voice before and never had any feelings for me at all..I know deep down inside you still do when you see me..you're not the cold person that you are right now and i know that..i know that...
I really have no clue as to how you can just forget about me like that..i tried doing that but i know i cant not right now..its soo hard..what was there before isnt anymore and i know but and i dont wanna hold on to something that isnt but cant we still at least be friends..i rmb i told you that once this is over that you have to promise that you'd still be friends with me..you made that promise but you broke it..sadly now i what kinda person you are because you dont stay true to your word at all..i wanted us to be different and indeed we were, we were so indifferent that we were the same..as everything else..crapped up and f****** up..
Im sure you must be very happy now with what you've accomplished..you've managed to bring my world down and are you happy now?im sure you are but yeah..i tried to change for you, to be a completely different person for you..i even gave up Hilary Duff for you..everyone went wow because i mean hilary duff was like everything to me until you came along..but no you didnt take it well and you thought i was weird and that you could do better than hilary duff..really really sad..
This songs for you and us..that i should have just ended it from the start and not even continue with it at all..its called Mouth Shut by The Veronicas
I kept my mouth shut from the start
I guess I left you in the dark
You thought you knew me but you don't
You say you love me but you won't
When you find out who I am
I kept my mouth shut for too long
All this time you got me wrong
Now we're in this way to far
And I'm about to break your heart
Tear everything we had apart
Cause I'm feelin' lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding onto you
I've tried so hard
To be the one
Now I don't like who I've become
Won't keep my mouth shut anymore
I've had my share of closing doors
And now I know I'm not afraid
I know exactly what you'll say
But I'm sorry it's too late
I kept it all inside of me for all this time
Thought that I could make it work if I just tried
But I'm sorry to admit that I have lived a lie
I kept my mouth shut for too long
Now I know that it was wrong
I wish I told you from the start
That this was never meant to last
We should have never gone this far
Won't keep my mouth shut anymore
Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody Wins
Seriously there's nothing to do in my house at all..im dying here because i cant go out at all due to my immobility..sigh i know what it feels like being "disabled" and i really feel for those people who really are because i understand its really hard to do anything at all..i cant walk much because when i walk to much i start to bleed like crazy..and you cant do much because when you try to do something your feet start to kill you..in my case my stupid leg hurts like crazy but yeah..i guess i did bring it upon myself in some way or another..
The good thing is that today was a good day because i grew smarter haha i put on a bandage so i wouldnt know if my leg was bleeding or not but yeah the blood dripping decreased drastically which is good because it means that im losing less blood hahaha..basically was bleeding non stop since 8pm yesterday till like today the whole afternoon till i put on a bandage haha it all stopped imagine how much blood i lost?ok its not that much ahha its just a bit cause its a small wound but yeah i was squeezing out all the blood and the ooze disgusting thing that yellow thing hahaha.
So back to the point of not being able to do anything at all..Its just so boring this is my daily routine..I wake up at about 10 something to 11 something, i brush my teeth clean my wound apply medication wet my hair to make it look nicer haha and un nice cause when i wake up my hair is in a complete mess..turn on the computer and go online. Talk to my usual friends and do my countdown on that website, listen to 4ever and all the other songs that i usually listen to like Everything Im Not, City Of Devils and so on ok i dont wanna mention them too many..so yeah wait for the veronicas to come on the chats which they never do..and then eat lunch at 1 something to 2, watch the Oprah Winfrey show..love that show oprah rocks! and then come back up to use the com again..and use it till like 3 something or what and then go to sleep..wake up at 5 or 6 depending on which day if its wed-friday at 5 cause must watch American Idol..so yeah go down for dinner watch some telly..also it depends on which day sometimes there's nothing on..but on tuesday its from 8 all the way till 11..but yeah on normal days i practice piano from 8to 8:30 ok i try to practice piano and yeah then go back up wait for my sister to finish using the com while i stay in my room singing like a mad person or reading my mags or going crazy over the veronicas or whatever and then come back out and listen more to the veronicas and use the com..when its about 12, i watch some dvds and yeah use the com till like 3?go to sleep and the whole cycle repeats itself yet again
Isnt it boring?i do the same thing over and over again oh and i skip breakfast sadly but thats all covered as i eat at about 2 or 3 in the morning tooo but yeah i wanna get out of the house.i wanna work i have a job but i cant go to work just yet because of what happened sadly..
A city of devils we live....
Whooo hooo its finally March i love the month of march ahhahahaha okok fine there's a punt but yeah anywhos march rocks and its a new begining new month so yeah be happy everyone!
oh new color here too ahah no more orange!
Here's this weeks list, there's a tie this week
On The Verge
25. Lindsay Lohan - If Its Alright
24. Ashlee Simpson - Boyfriend
23. The Veronicas - Mother Mother
22. The Veronicas - Revolution
21. Yellowcard - City Of Devils
Top 20.
20. Yellowcard - Lights And Sounds (PW:#-/DEBUT/P:20[1])
19. Kate Dearaugo - Faded (PW:#18/-1/P:18[1])
18. Hilary Duff - Beat Of My Heart (PW:#17/-1/P:11[1])
17. Lifehouse - You And Me (PW:#16/-1/P:9[1])
16. The All-American Rejects - Move Along (PW:#19/+3/P:19[1])
15. Hilary Duff - Someone's Watching Over Me (PW:#15/=/P:2[6])
14. Britney Spears - Someday (I Will Understand) (PW:#13/-1/P:10[1])
13. Hilary Duff - Wake Up (PW:#11/-2/P:5[1])
12. Britney Spears - And Then We Kiss (PW:#10/-2/P:10[1])
11. Ryan Cabrera - From The Start (PW:#9/-2/P:9[1])
10. The Veronicas - Mouth Shut (PW:12/+2/P:10[1])
9. The Veronicas - Leave Me Alone (PW:#14/+5/P:8[2])
8. Ryan Cabrera - Shine On (PW:#8/=/P:4[1])
7. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart (PW:#7/=/P:7[5])
6. Ryan Cabrera - Photo (PW:6/=/P:6[2])
5. The Veronicas - Nobody Wins (PW:#5/=/P:5[3])
4. Ryan Cabrera - Fall Baby Fall (PW:#4/=/P:4[11])
3. Hilary Duff - Fly (PW:#3/=/P:1[11])
1. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not (PW:#1/=/P:1[2])
1. The Veronicas - 4ever (PW:#1/+1/P:1[2])
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