So the day started off with me leaving the house and walking back after almost reaching the bus stop..when this usually happens i just seriously cannot be bothered to go to school cause im already more than half way there i usually just turn around and not go to school..but yeah i couldnt do that today tho i forgot to bring my stuff but yeah i walked back..and thank GOD i didnt miss the bus, i would have gone insane if that happened cause i would just not go to school already lol..
SO yes as you can tell my day started off quite badly already..and the rest of the day followed suit.
Right so i was walking out with my friends for lunch at kfc..and i saw someone that i did not expect to see at all..it was a major shock..it was kinda pleasant actually..well i didnt expect it to be but it was surprisingly..anywhos priya came to me that day telling me that she saw that same person and i was like oh ok..and i was acting cool and acting all like i dont care cause what happened was like over and theres nothing that anyone can do anymore and i thought that you know why should i bother its her and that person and she was like what you're like that bla bla bla and when i told her today i completely freaked out and went insane instead haha..she said what comes around goes around lol..karma damn hahahaha but yeah i still cannot believe what just happened..its just insane..its crazy..man hahaha super f***ed up..
I went for class and i got made fun of by my teacher..like wtf is her problem..i wrote a legal letter and stuff and she termed it as being lovey dovey cause it was too urm complete and too nice sounding too perfect..she wants something in plain english and for it to be precise..and she asked who got that note and obviously i had to raise my hand so yes haha she read my WHOLE freaking thing out like soo messed up man..thats just soo wrong..and yes everyone was laughing..but she commented that tho it was lovey dovey, it was in good perfect english ahaha and yes i was happy cause i dont really care as long as my english is good it doesnt really matter (:
However my day ended with a big bang...I SAW THE VERONICAS ON TV WITH THEIR MAKING OF THE VIDEO, WHEN IT ALL FALLS APART..OMG AHHAHAHA IM GOING NUTS NOW JESS LOOKED FREAKING HOT AND SHE'S SOO DAMN F***ING FUNNY AND LISA LOOKED HOT TOO BUT JESS OMG IM JUST GOING INSANE RIGHT NOW AHAH..ok i just watched it and im still feeling the after shock of the whole thing..im just soo pumped up now i wanna go for a veronicas concert like now (:
THE VERONICAS ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wow it has been a really really busy week for me..i've had homework after homework, projects after projects, meetings after meetings and classes that never seem to end..plus with the extra load of planning CCN day tho i didnt do much but i had to meet up with them and stuff..yeah so tahts about it i derno what else to say CCN was fun got to interact with my freshman (fresh*** that is for you vik hahahaha) okok hope he doesnt see it lol and im just kidding anyways..they seem like a nice bunch lol..and yes i was forced to dance..it was horrendous lol totally bad and crappy..
Ok yes and finally i let out everything today at my parents for being f***ing unfair..and my mum cired..i derno if i should be happy or sad..but im kinda going towards the happy side..i confronted her about the whole thing about bringing that retarded boy to my friends mums party where all my friends were there and stuff and ididnt get to go cause i wasnt invited lame excuse..she said that he was allowed to gate crash cause he was all lonely but wtf is that man what kinda lame excuse was that?you think i freaking care if he's lonely or not and that he gets bullied in school? please everyone gets bullied in school..its just that he doestn know how to handle it cause he's usually the one who gets bullied and now that the roles are switced he doesnt know how to react..didnt you think of that?no cause apparently you dont see that he bullys others..you think he's an angel?but no get this into your f***ing head..HE IS NOT A F***ING ANGEL..and neither am i..but f*** it doesnt matter
You think i really care if he cries everyday?no please i dont give a f*** about him at all so why should i care?So yeah she brought him there because she wanted his company and she wanted to see him..guess what i said to her? so are you telling me that he was there by your side the entire time you were there at the party?were you talking to him all the way thruout?guess what she said yes..and im like are you very sure that you were and that he wasnt playing with other people as well? and she went silent..please ok im sure you werent with him at every second that he was there who are you trying to kid man? then she said i dont get to see him from monday to friday and i get to see you bla bla bla and i was like ok why not you take a pic of him, frame it up and go look at it? that way you get to see him everyday isnt that great? and yes my wonderful dad who loves his other son soo very much had to step in to intervene cause my mum was already loosing the battle by a landslide..and i was like wtf??????so yes she continued and i said look you dont even see me everyday as well?whats the big deal man?and she started crying and stuff and i was like wtf what are you trying to do man..cause crying isnt going to work...
And she gave what shit excuse that im very selfish and bitter about everything.like f*** off ok i just want you to pay for my freaking cab fare cause you didnt send us back and again you didnt want us to go for a family dinner yet again and you brought HIM alongwith you as usual..why is it no surprise to me? huh and the best thing is that you didnt tell our maid to cook dinner for us..and it gets even better..you leave the house andyou drive out and you realize that you didnt ask the maid to coook for us..and here comes the best part..YOU DIDNT EVEN BOTHER TO CALL BACK TO ASK HER TO COOK FOR US..guess what she countered back with..you ate right?our maid cooked for you right? like wtf?????? thats just the lamest thing ever..and you know when hre stupid son has no food to eat she calls home even before he's home to get the maid to cook for him..isnt it jsut great?this is like pre anticipation man..even BEFORE he's home..before being the key word..wow is all i have to say because its just soo shocking that this is even happening..totally ridiculous..
its just pathetic..seriously..just f*** off alright if you dont wanna pay for the cab fare dont pay ok just f*** off! BIATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh and i just found out from my cousin that my f***ing parents lied to my family about where me and my sister went thast why we couldnt go for the family gathering..they are a bunch of f***ing liars i tell you..to think they teach us to do the right tihng..just f*** off alright f*** off!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok basically my week has been really really busy so yeah i dont have much to say..just work work work everyday..
i wanna post my top 20 songs of the week
On the verge
25. Ryan Cabrera - Photo
24. The Click Five - Time Machine *Notable song..its really really good
23. The Veronicas - Did Ya Think
22. The Veronicas - Leave Me Alone
21. Panic At The Disco - The Only Difference
Top 20. songs of the week (:
20. The All-American Rejects - Move Along
19. October Fall - Caught In The Rain
18. The Veronicas - Mouth Shut
17. Rihanna - S.O.S (Rescue Me)
16. The Veronicas - Mother Mother
15. The Veronicas - A Teardrop Hitting The Ground
14. The Click Five - Catch Your Wave
13. Nick Lachey - Whats Left Of Me
12. Ryan Cabrera - Fall Baby Fall
11. Ryan Cabrera - From The Start
10. Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away
9. Aly & Aj - Rush
8. Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You
7. Delta Goodrem - Together We Are One
6. Lifehouse - You And Me
5. Kaci Brown - Unbelievable
4. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not
3. The Veronicas - Nobody Wins *This weeks craze
2. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart *This weeks craze
1. The Veronicas - 4ever
Do you ever feel that sometimes people dont really mean what they say and they use big words that they dont understand? They say things that they dont mean at all and they say it just to please you and they use words which are soo big and they dont really know what i really means..well im facing this right now and lettme tell you that it isnt really nice at all..
So yes someone said i love you to me..ahh those 3 wonderful words are something that i can never forget especially who it came from..seriously do you even mean what you said? I highly doubt that right now..because after that 2 weeks later you broke my heart into a million pieces and right now at this very moment, im still trying very hard to pick up the pieces that are shattered all over the ground..its soo hard for me to move on..people these 3 words arent something that you can trust..do not fall for it..
My parents used the words DISCIPLINE on me yesterday..i went wow did you even know what the word meant?like seriously dont use big words like that on me cause you dont even know what the word means..cause if you did, your son wouldnt be the way he is right now..and you think you wanna discipline me? please do something about him before you do something about me..because im way ywa more behaved than he is..just look at him..he causes trouble everywhere he goes..
And yes the last category of people are those who promise you to do something, but they never keep to their word at all..i'll forgive them if they honestly forgot for the very first time..but everytime i see them i have to keep reminding them of the same thing over and over again which is just ridiculous..so yeah its sickening
GOSSIP:
Ooooo im using that monkeys phone now and i've uncovered some juicy details lol..
1. He has really really bad english..he uses words like don instead of don't realli instead of really, dat instead of that, hu instead of who, onli instead of only, de instead of the, den instead of then..ok and the list just goes on and on and on..and yes his grammar is unbelievale..wow its soo bad that its wow just so bad lol
2. He likes this girl called noriko LOL hahaha and his friend said something about so you wanna be gay than rather like a girl..i think the reason for this is because that nokiro girl rejected him HAHHA loser lol..but yes such an ass..
3. Hes crazy he tried to killl himself ahaha and he randomly txts people asking them what they are doing now..and its not only to one person but to many at one time..which is just weird again..
4. And he uses the f word..OOooo big shocker there ahahahha..
5. HE SUCKS lol hahahah
WHOOOOT
Do you ever get soo sick of what is happening around you that you just cannot stand it you just feel like walking out of it and never coming back and forgetting about everything that ever happened? well thats wht im feeling right now..
My parents are such asses..biatches..i have no idea why they even gave birth to me and my sister? like dudes why did you even bother? Huh??????why even bother?seriously all you care about is one person why even bother giving birth to us..we are 684867684563435435531313 more well behaved then he was when we were his age, 35432132135465468768465312 times more smarter than he is when we were his age..like we were just sooo much better than he was...and guess what lame shit excuse they give for him acting this way towards me? hes looking up to me and he wants me to accept him and he wants my attention..DUDE you f***ing got my attention but you're a f***ing retard and an assehole..like just f*** off alright???? i have my own life and i dont care shit about you so why not you go find somone else to get attention from and to gain acceptance from..like wtf? i only see you one f***ing time per week and i have to get this shit from you?????and every week without fail you never cease to cause trouble in the house..i derno what it is but its just that i just get all the shit and i get blamed for every F***ing tihng that happen..and you know what???????? you're the f***ing reason why im like that now..its cause you're soo annoying and yet you get your way all tje time, and i've become cold, bitter, mean and im a total bitch now thanks to you..MUM dad heres your answer..HE TURNED ME THIS WAY..i swear i was never like that before..
f*** you man...like ok there was this thing on friday and it was someones birthday and stuff and i wasnt invited ok and heres the thing..my mum actually wanted me to make balloons and stuff for the party and i was like wtf?????im not even invited and stuff and i have to do it?like f*** off man biatch..so yeah i didnt go cause she said i wasnt invited..it somehow turned out that my friends went and i realized that my sister said it was a leaders meeting kinda thiing where only leaders can go..so im like ok fine i accept that cause my friends are leaders so yeah its alright..BUT GUESS WHAT? that little f***er went..like how the hell was he even allowed to go??????????like f*** shit alright...i have no idea how this whole system..oh and it gets even better...whoo is this twisted or what man..HE was SICK..let me repeat aagain...SICK and yet he still went for the thing..ohoh and i recall once that i wasnt feeling well and i was at a BBQ which was only at pasir ris and guess what i was asked to go home at 9:30..and what time did they reach home? like 11 something man..wow and im 18 and he's like young..isnt this just great? i mean wow i can just sit here and just start laughing like crazy its hiliarous..VERY hilarious..bastard...f*** off alright im just soo sick of all this nonsense crap..its ridiculous..i have no idea why he went and HE ISNT a LEADER..key words: ISNt and LEADER..but yes hmm i wonder..
And guess what this is even better..my mum doesnt allow me and my sister to watch desperate housewives..wtf????????????like hello just cause you happened to see a scene that was a bit obscene i must admit but wtf man you let your f***ing son watch wrestling when you think that that is totally wrong as well and you dont f***ing scold him at all? and you even came out of your effin room to check on us????/huh what kinda shit ass crap nonsense is this???????????? And you even got your husband along..thats just great..you can make it a FAMILY affair only that me and my sister are not part of it?you seriously should consider giving us away for good..i would be much happier im sure..i'd rather die than live honestly...trust me it isnt easy at all..i try to tell you but you're blinded by your own flaws..im not saying that im perfect..but we have to work this out togehter..but unfortunately you only care about him HIm HIM so yeah i really have nothing to say cause everything i say something you think that he's right and even if he isnt right he is still right, no matter what happens he's right
Whoa its been super busy tho its my free week now, and so many things have happened. The departure of Chris really affected me because of the fact that i really really want Chris to be in the final of American Idol together with Katahrine..i mean really those 2 are the best..but sigh its all over for him and i cannot believe the way Ryan Seacrest was towards him..utterly appalling. i would have never guessed that Ryan would treat Chris like that..dude thats not cool at all..When i broke the news to my friends, they were kinda like shocked..i remember the reactions of Amanda..she was like happy for a while and all of a sudden she went into a complete breakdown cause i can see that she really loves Chris..if his cd comes out i will be sure to buy it..
ok so that was on thursday..and yes french was yet again embarrassing..and i have no idea why mr Jerome must always call upon me and Rachel?why i mean like we're not like the best in class..ok wait IM not the best in class *points to rachel* hahahahahhaha okok sorry rachel (: anywhos she's soo good in french..i went for this conference thing and we ended up laughing the whole time hahaha it was hilarious and sabu was going nuts..we were soo high to the point where we jsut laughed at everything anyone said lol..super super high mainly cause we were soo tired but yeah its really really funny..
Friday was a public holiday..Amanda, Rachel, Vickie, Vikram and me were supposed to go out and celebrate Vikrams birthday, he's one of our frehman..just in case he reads this i dont want to call him a fresh*** he doesnt like it lol..so yes he couldnt make it cause he had to go out for lunch or something with his parents *looks up..okok so yeah Amanda, rach and me decided to go out instead haha to watch When A Stranger Calls..WHoa ahah we weere super scared when we went into the cinema
Rachel was covering herself already and we were making fulls of ourseleves as usual..we were talking soo loud and all of a sudden the lights went out for no reason and rach and amanda and me went OMG really really loudly and everyone heard and the show hasnt even started yet, there was just some technical dificulties or something but i derno..lol its hilarious..
The movie FINALLY started lol..and we were all soo scared cause we're not reall good with horror movies and we were prepared for the worst..the movie wasnt even a horror movie..it was just a thriller ahaha and yes we had to assure ourselves that it wasnt scary..The movie itself actually wasnt that scary but the SOUND effects really made it extra scary..i was scared because of the sound effects..and yes rach had her jacket covered over her eyes and amanda had to tell her what was going on lol..but yeah i hope everyone could sleep cause it wasnt that scary..but i pity the girl in the movie because she was traumatized and she would probably be like that for the rest of her life and she would need people to be with her to protect her..poor her..damn that guy who called..ass..
OHOH i bought one jess tie yest (: yaya and i posted pics of jess and lisa on my wall (:
Whoot we had french today and it was Mr. Jerome!!!!!!!!! yay haha not that i dont like the other teachers i just feel that jerome is a better teacher..he's soo good..lol and i was rushing to school to hand in my assignments today so i was kinda like a little late for the class..so i walked into the lt and it was all daark and i couldnt see anything but the screen in front. I saw that there were people in front of me but i couldnt recognize anyone of them as i was looking for my friends..and all of a sudden i see a figure in front of me pointing to the right hand front corner of the lt and i was like wtf?how does he know who im looking for and i stared closer and realized that it was Mr. Jerome ahahha lol it was hilarious so he knows who i sit with in the lt interesting..lol hahaha yeah i guess its cause me and rach are in the same class and we always sit together in the lt and in tuts as well.its all good lol
We were playing this loto game in class today but ah theres a twist to it, instead of reading out the numbers in english, he actually read it out to us in french. Cool eh?hahahaha..anywhos i got all 5 numbers in and i got a prize lol whoot a mars choc HAHAHAH i love choc and that made my day cause it started off a bit sucky cause of the fact i missed my bus, mistook my freshies for someone else, and got an idiot letter lmao..but meh haha its good chocs can cure all bad moods and everything they really make me smile (: i can never live without them and i dont know what i would do without them..its like my life support system or something, whenever im feeling down i just think about chocs and if that doesnt work, buy chocs and eat them and i will feel good immediately..its like an instant cure to bad moods..and guess what?it works better than normal medication because after eating just ONE bite, without digesting, i get super happy and a wide grin on my face can be seen..lol yes i love chocs (:
So yes my contract class was cancelled today so we decided to go to the lab ahaha and what i did in the lab made my day even better..i printed veronicas pics!!!!!!!!!! whooo hooo ahaha soo happy..now i can stick them on my wall..Jess looks soo pretty (: im really in love haha..so yes
I've been very busy the past week and yes i shall share how my timetable works out..i shall start with wednesday..ok im usually really slackish on wednesday and come thursday im less slackish cause i would probably have one assignment..and friday im slackish again BUT saturday and sunday and monday and tuesday are my super stressed up days lol cause i have like mass tuts congested into those days and yeah not good for health but once wed 10 is over, i start to breathe and actually live a normal live (: so yeah i usually cannot wait till wednesday comes from now on..
Yes so thats basically it..nothing much has happened so far..im currently working on my song that i wrote that has no melody i've come up with some progressionsbut have yet to try them out..
You're just a teardrop hitting the ground...
WHOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!
i've been waiting 4ever for this day..haha altho it was only for a moment of joy and happiness at least i knew that it was someone close to where i live..
Yes The Veronicas were in the show ahhhhhhhhhh they were presenting an award..The Best Indian Artiste..whoot..i was soo excited when their names were mentioned and when i saw them i went insane..i was literally jumping around lol..with the exception of screams cause it was soo late i couldnt scream but yeah i was suuuuuuppppppppperrrrrrrrr happy lol..And i was quite mad actually haha Jess was talking and Lisa had to just interupt and say and the award goes to..like HELLO Jess was talking ahhaha..nah im just kidding i love lisa too ahah she rocks aye she looked hot and so did JESS omg i lvoe both of them heaps!
You guys were amazing last night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!altho it was only 30 seconds on stage but F*** ME omg it was the best 30 mins of my life..ok shit this sounds soo effing wrnog but yes ahahahahhahaha alright you rocked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 4everrrrrrrrrrrr
Do you ever wonder why sometimes your friends are there but you just dont feel like talking to them? Even if they are close to you? I really derno hahah i myself have no answer to that..i guess its just cause you just dont feel like talking to them and you wanna be by yourself or talk to other people who actually support you in what you're doing.
I dont need friends who are just there and dont support. I want people who are there behind me no matter what i do..whether it may be right or wrong..i miss my old friends..i know they were..well we move on but yes i still talk to some of them..i need them back in my life..
but meh..im not happy with them right now so im just going to ignore them, something i do best (:
Evidence of their beauty (:
Jess omg i love jess (:
Both of them
Lisa total hottness
i have no idea but can someone just tell me why i am soo in love with them? I seriously cannot sleep now cause im just too high on them right now..especially Jess whoot Jess i just love her soo much..she's soo amazing and she's such a great singer..she really inspires me to sing..and yeah shes just soo good..sometimes i wonder how she does it? Is it cause she practices alot or is it cause its just in her and she's just good the way she is, hence the reason why she's in the music industry..and her face omg her face..it just captivates you soo much and her facial expressions that she makes when she sings..ok im sounding like some sick ass bastard freak..AHHHH ahah ok obsessed already..what am i going to do without them..oh and yes i love Lisa too ahah Lisa ROCKS MY SOCKS..she's the best!
I was watching all their videos today and boy i can never do it ever again at night cause it just means that i get soo into the song that i cannot sleep at all cause im just soo pumped up by them that its like drug i just need to listen to more and more of them and if i dont listen to it i will feel deprived, an urge in me will just serge thru and make me wanna listen to more of them..i only watched their live videos..what happens if i actually watched the non-live ones..i would probably just have a heart attack there and then and never be able to sleep for the rest of my life ahha..
Really these 2 twins are God's gift to earth and everyone who just adores them soo much..i really cannot wait to see them live and actually meet them in person..it doesnt really matter if they are small..cause honestly i dont care..they are good and thats all that matters..hopefully when im down in sept later this year, they will be there waiting for me to have dinner with them and watch them perform and scream like a crazy fan jumping up and down to their music and going nuts along with them and having as much fun as i possibily can..
JESS AND LISA ORIGLIASSO, I LOVE YOU GUYS HEAPS...YOU GUYS ARE AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh i forgot to mention that the veonicas dvd has been released in Aus finally after soo long..i wanna get it soo bad but there's no way that i can..im just soo depressed and sad that i cannot get it..mere words cannot describe my love for jess ahhaha..seriously i just love her soo much!
I have no idea how i am going to get it but i am going to.. its like on my wish list before i die hahaha
Wish List
1. The Veronicas [DVD/CD (USA)] - The Secret Life Of the Veronicas
2. Ryan Cabreras [DVD] - Live at the wiltern
3. The All American Rejects [CD] - Move Along
4. The Click Five [CD] - Greetings From Immerie House
5. Kaci Brown [CD] - Instigator
6. Rihanna [CD] - Girl Like Me
7. The OC [DVD] - Season 2
8. Lifehouse [CD] - Lifehouse
9. A new Ripcurl/Quiksilver wallet
10. A new Ripcurl/Quiksilver/Nike/Adidas Watter bottle
11. Apple - Ipod Video
12. A new phone (my phones dying already)
13. Jess tie 2 - black and white stripped
14. Jess tie 3 - full black tie
15. Jess shirt - full white shirt
16. Jess t shirt - black and white stripped
ok thats about it for now hahaha
YAY for friday lol no school hahaha..
the day started off really bad. My teacher was pmsing big time. She was venting her anger all out on us full force like she wanted to kill us or something. I must admit that i was a bit scared haha..anywhos it was a short day so basically it ended very quickly..
there was this Ne talk going on after school and i thought that it was compulsary that we have to attend at least 2 talks before we can graduate..so me and rachel and other friends happily went for it..turns out that it wasnt at all..
We played bingo during the whole talk ahha and had fun playing it..while playing, we overheard what the person was actually saying..she was talking abuot rape and all and then she said something about marital rape..and all of a sudden, all of our eyes and ears opened and we looked at each other in total disbelief ahhaha..cause we learnt in school that theres no such thing as marital rape..so yes we decided to confront her about it..as we were walking down, we didnt have the courage to go speak to her. So we decided to storm her oustide the food place and start bombarding her with questions..
We were asking her for the specific secion that stated that marital rape was actually a crime..but all she could answer was that they need to get a protection order or something agaisnt their husbands and thats totally not answering our quesitions..and rachel kept asking her for that acts and statutes whether or not it was stated in the penal code or the womans charter..but somehow she just said the same thing, so we decided that it didnt matter haha cause she didnt know what she was talking about..and yeah she figured that we were law students seeing as to how we asked her and confronter her on such a question..
Oh and yes im on a strike against my parents and brother..officially not talking to anyone of them..i just found out my dad used my slipper to go fecth my BROTHER and he dirtied it..seriously if he used it for something else i wouldnt mind but to fetch that f******* idiot..NO..what the hell what do you think my posessions are?and please i paid for my effin slippers..aight? so yeah you have no right to use it without my permission..not even touch it..i would be alright if you wore it around the house and all but you just crossed the line by wearing it to fetch HIM, the animal..like seriously go get your own ones..you have yours i have no f******* idea why you took mine..
I know your intentions are clear..you just want to irritate me and make me more angry by showing your love to your other CHILD..the one who doesnt desreved to be mentioned at all..but yes i will control myself..i will not let this bring me down..i know the both of you are in cahoots against me..make one move and i will bring you down..i will quote laws and statutes to go against you trust me and i will bring up the past about what happened and make sure the CHILD of yours goes to jail for what happened..
But yes its a friday..ahna i love fridays (: 4ever all the way man maratho again!
There was a carnival in schoool today..how weird is that?lol but it was all good i got free cotton candy (: yay hahaha i love it soo much it makes me high (: and yeah i bought donuts (: yay again ahah i love love love donuts (: they can melt my heart..
School in the morning was boring..my basic entre class was weird..i still think that im right..wait i am right lol my teacher doesnt even know anything about cutting down of trees and stuff..so much for being an environmentalist..but meh its all cool..i dont wanna argue with my teacher..
Then came french lol..haha me and Rachel are always very excited for french but todays french was embarassing..lol haha she was spot on infront of the whole class standing in the middle and she made a mistake..poor her..and when the teacher questioned me..i was speechless and i broke out in laughter and finally managed to laugh out merci hahaha..it was hilarious seriously..
And yes my parents are being extreme bitches yet again..sigh i have no idea when i will be set free from this unfairness..i do exist in this world too..you dont have only ONE son...god they need light to shine on them..like i really dont get anything at all..so yeah i should get use to it..
Im just so sick of everything that they do right now that it just irritates me and annoys me..its funny how that they can actually witness someone do wrong and just laught about it and say, its alright its all good..haha its amuses me seriously..like wow i didnt know doing bad was a good thing..i guess you learn something new everyday dont you? haha Lesson learnt today..being bad is still good as long as your parents approve of it and laugh with you (:
i've tried everything and nothing works..stop being nice to me in a fake way and use that weird tone on me..cause it aint gonna work no more..like seriously..bitches..now i know why im soo bitchy..i guess it runs in the family..and why im so fake sometimes..it runs it the family yet again..haha mastering the art of showing a fake smile isnt easy, but being fake all the time doesnt need any skill at all..the most important thing is that you have it in your blood and you can always pretend to be interested when youre actually disinterested and pretend to care when you dont care at all..
oh yes ahah after french me and rachel walked to the interchange and we had food (: hahah choc and PB waffle..yay my fav combi (:
i derno whats wrong with me lately, but ive been thinking alot about you..hoping that one day you'd come back to me..i still really miss you alot, the times we spent together no matter how long it was..i guess this was really meant to be, true love that was hard to find. im really sorry for what ive done..i didnt really mean to scare you away with what i did..honestly that wasnt my intention at all..you know that i loved you then..i dont know if i do now..but i still have strong feelings for you that cannot go away..i want it to badly but i just cannot forget about you..i keep thinking about you..all the time..i dont like what im going thru right now..i want to forget everything that ever happen but i dont know why your name, your face, everything about you just keeps coming back to me..you werent there when my world fell apart, you made my world fall apart..i miss you..
When It All Falls Apart
im having the day from hell
it was all going so well
before you came
you told me you needed space
with a kiss on the side of my face
not again
and not to mention
the tears i shed
when i should have kicked your
ass instead
i need intervention
attention to stop temptation to scream
cause baby..
everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
tell me what do you do when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up, where do i start
cause i cant turn to you when it all falls apart
dont know where i parked my car
dont know who my real friends are
anymore
i put my faith in you
what a stupid thing to do
when it rain it pours
and not to mention
i drank too much
im feeling hung over
and out of touch
i need intervention
attention to stop temptation to scream
Why cant it be easier
why cant i just change my life
cause it just seems to go bad everytime
will i be mending
another one ending, once again
LOL haha i'll blog tmr..but here are my updates of my fav singers and songs..
top 20 songs
20. Britney Spears - And Then We Kiss
19. The Veronicas - Leave Me Alone
18. Ryan Cabrera - Shine On
17. The Veronicas - Mouth Shut
16. Ryan Carbera - Fall Baby Fall
15. Hilary Duff - Fly
14. Rihanna - S.O.S (Rescue Me)
13. Ryan Cabrera - Photo
12. Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away
11. Nick Lachey - Whats Left Of Me
10. Aly & Aj - Rush
9. Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You
8. The Veronicas - Did Ya Think
7. Delta Goodrem - Together We Are One
6. Lifehouse - You And Me
5. Kaci Brown - Unbelievable
4. The Veronicas - Nobody Wins
3. The Veronicas - Everything Im Not
2. The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart
1. The Veronicas - 4ever
Singers
1. The Veronicas
2. Ryan Cabrera
3. Yellowcard
4. Kaci Brown
5. The All-American Rejects
6. Delta Goodrem
7. Kelly Clarkson
8. Tammin Sursok
9. The Click Five
10. Hilary Duff
11. Ciara
12. Beyonce Knowles
13. Britney Spears
14. Lifehouse
15. Destinys Child
Im really really happy (: i cannot wait to go to Aust in Sept..but i just found out that rah has exams and stuff so i cant go and stay with her for too long..so yeah its going to be a 3 day trip in melb..i cannot wait haha (:
Then its off to brissy to meet my fellow veronicas fans (: and have fun with them and go for a special dinner with them..
After that its off to sydney to visit my dear beloved family in aus..i miss them dearly..i cannot wait to see them again (:
Aus here i come!
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