Im sure the title says enough already, and i dont really need to elaborate at all.
Well well well, its been a great one year i must say since the day i got this song. On that very faithful day on 30th June 2006. I remember when i first downloaded the song i went nuts. The reason being cause i love Jojo and i've been waiting for her new stuff for ages. The other reason would also be that its the best song ever in the world!!!! OMG it was sooo addictive i swear i was obsessed over it. Well i dont know how you define obsessed but you be the judge, i've played it 1052 times to date and counting soo yeah haha im sure after a thousand times it would count as obsession.
I really love this song and there have been so many memories, both good times and bad times and this song has always been there. The passion for this song also grew when i got the Spanish version of it. I literally went nuts lol it was hilarious cause i love Spanish and yeah it sounded amazing and the meaning of the Spanish version is really cool too lol and i really love it (:
This song has mean so much to me and its just one of those songs that you know you're gonna love for the rest of your life and sometime 10 years down the road, when you hear it again you'll be like OMG thats the song that i was crazy about and you just know somehow that this is your song. Butttt i dont care what people say because i honestly dont care! I love this song and thats it if you dont like it then thats your problem (:
I can love with all of my heart baby,
You know i have so much to give
With a player like you, i dont have a prayer
Thats the way to live..
Its just too little too late,
A little too wrong and i cant wait
For you know all the right things to say
You know its just too little too late
You say you dream of my face
But you dont like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesnt matter anyway
You know its just too little too late...
Its amazing how you do things ay? I dont know, the more i think of it the more it disgusts me. Its just even more disgusting when you go so low just to get what you want? And you're able to live with it? I mean after all that you've done and all that you said, you're just willing to go back on your word just like that?
The worst part is that you can even betray your friend by doing so. I mean wow..to ignore every emotion, every feeling, every respect and every mutual trust you have with someone and go for what you want. Even if that person gives you the green light, you dont have to pounce on things ever so quickly? its not that you're totally fine or anything but you know it just amazes me how you work and stuff..with such urghh you know what nvm i dont even wanna go into it at all..
I dont know if i should feel sorry or happy really. Because 1, its not my life, 2 i dont really care about you at all but the other innocent party, God it just makes me sad for them and yeah i feel for them. See the difference between me and you is that i have a conscience and i care for my friends. Note i didnt even use the world close or anything. At least i know like whats right and wrong and i'd never do what you did.
I mean i still cant put myself to comprehend what you're doing at all yeah my mind is still slowly trying to process everything and im just really upset and disappointed and theres no way that i think of you the same way anymore.
I guess when you're desperate for something, you'd do anything to get it. Oh welll thats life have fun and i hope you have a good one! I just want to say this again,
You're so repulsive, its disgusting!
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Stop stealing my place okk!!! dont fight with mee!!!!!!
I mean like im soo gonna get my dad to do something about it!!
ARGGHHHh
Argh something i regretted and dreaded and really wasnt excited for. But what can you do about it? well nothing much.
It didnt start off really well anywhos..i havent really been myself for a really long time, and falling sick doesnt really help much. However, i have a strong feeling that my sickness is cause by my emotional instability. Ok its NOT that drastic just you know when someone feels down too much it affects their health. Similarly if someones always happy, they dont fall sick that easily.
I tried to brush off everything as tho nothing happened but to my dismay, that was extremely impossible. Everything i do just brings back memories. To aid my difficulty, i've deleted songs that i really love off my current favourite list. Trust me it wasnt easy to do because i mean i really love those songs but i guess when you want to be a stronger person, you have to let go of those things that bring you down, and right now its those songs. Soo yes that was extremely difficult but i think im doing better now (: Props to Kelly Clarkson for her ever so angry songs, Carrie Underwood, Paramore and The Veronicas (: (Well mainly Lisa cause Jess doesnt bloody do anything because she's too busy running/ruining her own life by doing stupid things to actually care about the band and its future at all. STOP BEING LESBIAN JESS.)
Till next time yall!!
Here's wishing you guys a great year ahead!
Dont worry shahira!!! everything will be ok! ok???? im here for you!!!! i will never ditch you for.....
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I'm over your lies,
And I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me,
When you know I'm not okay.
How I feel, read my lips,
Because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
You never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I'm so over it.
When i look back and think,
I don't know if i should be happy or sad.
Sure we had many good times
But with that comes the present.
You always give the impression that you're different from the rest. That you know how to stand up for yourself. And when you don't like someone, you tell them straight in the face that you don't like them. But when it comes to your personal life, you don't really live up to what you say and it puzzles me. You say that you're not fake like the rest but honestly, i don't see any difference at all. And time after time you disappoint me without fail.
People have made many sacrifices for you, to be with you when you need them the most. They've been trying their best to always cater to your needs and your needs only. They are always there for you most of the time. But just because of one incident, that they weren't there, you just totally ruin everything. You know, people do need to work and they have certain commitments in life. I'm sorry if you don't need to work and all but others do. You cant just get mad at someone because they need to work and cant go out with you due to certain responsibilities they have. You really cant blame them at all because its not their fault. And its not as if they are always not there for you and completely ignore you.
Its a relationship! it works both ways. And if one side is willing to work extra hard just to keep everything together and the other isn't, then I'm sorry to say that its not worth it at all. Cause in the end its just gonna be like that forever, one sided and nothings gonna happen at all. its a TWO way thing.
Sometimes difference is good and difference brings people together. You think you're so special because you're different? well good for you then. I'm really happy for you because i mean to me you were different but you turned out to be the exact opposite after time went by.
I've lost complete respect for you in the way that you're handling things. You don't face up to your problems at all but just run away from them, completely opposite of what you preach. I know it isn't easy to lose someone, but the lease you could do was to at least try to understand the other party. Instead you just ran away from everything and started a new life. Things don't just get settled like that. It needs time, it needs talking and it needs work. Running away to a new group of friends isn't going to solve anything at all. Why cant you just sit down and have a good talk with that person? And I'm glad you're happy with your new life, new friends and new sexual orientation. Congrats on finding your true self. Though I'm extremely disappointed in you and all but I'm still gonna wish you all the best in your future life (:
Ps, you dying your hair orange isnt cool at all. Like i mean you need to get your life back. Looking like yourself below is horrible!
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Its not easy letting someone go
I'll always think back on all those times we had together
I know that I've forgiven you and apologized
The door is always open no matter what
I know that deep down i still care, i still really do
Its just that its hard expressing it
Maybe one day in the near future we'll be friends again.
Who knows?
Only time will tell..
Thanks for everything (:
Well so much has happened and i just feel that i need to express something. I've loved this song for ages already but for the wrong reasons, well mainly for nothing, i just liked the tune and all and the rhythm but now im loving it for the lyrics and it just really describes everything.
Life goes on
And it's only gonna make me strong
It's a fact, once you get on board
Say good-bye cause you can't go back
It's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me
And this feelin' that I can go back
Wish I knew then
What I know now
You held all the cards
And sold me out
Baby shame on you, if you fool me once
Shame on me if you fool me twice
You've been a pretty hard case to crack
Should've known better but I didn't
And I can't go back...
No words can express how i feel right now, the joy, the peace, the happiness. Something that i dont really have the luxury of enjoying. Well i mean i do, just not when i get heaps of stuff to do and get so busy. But being able to actually sit down and have a cup of coffee with a group of friends and breathe is actually extremely satisfying.
Sometimes the things that are so minute and just things that you wouldnt normally do, refreshes you and totally changes your energy level and you start to vibrate at a high frequency, as what my therapist always tells me to do. I have to think of happy thoughts or hang around people who vibrate at a high frequency, that way i can channel their positive energy into mine and then i would be able to vibrate at a high frequency. Well if you dont understand that whole piece of information, in a nut shell, its best to always remain happy and hang around happy people! (: happy people rock!
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I can sum up my personality these past few weeks in just one word, "blonde". YOU HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA HOW BLONDE I'VE BEEN and its soo embarrassing!!!!!
anywhos im not going to go into details! JUSTINE WON (:
Im gonna keep walking tho it may seem far
Im gonna keep preaching when life gets too hard
Not gonna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road
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Will tomorrow come?
Or is this just the end?
I dont want tomorrow to come
I dont wanna face reality
I just want to stay here
To stay here with you by my side
Always and forever
Im having the day from hell
It was all going so well, before you came
You told me you needed space
With a kiss on the side my face, not again
And not to mention the tears i shed,
When i shoulda kicked your ass instead
I need intervention,
Attention to stop temptation to scream
Cause baby,
Everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up
Where do i start?
Cause i cant turn to you when it all falls apart
Dont know where i parked my car
Dont know who my real friends are anymore
I put my faith in you, what a stupid thing to do.
When it rains it pours
And not to mention, i drank too much
Im feeling hung over and out of touch
I need intervention,
Attention to stop temptation to scream
Cause baby,
Everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up
Where do i start?
Cause i cant turn to you when it all falls apart
Can it be easier,
Can i just change my life
Cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will i be mending,
Another one ending once again...
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Come with me stay the night,
Just say the words you know girl it dont feel right
What do you expect me to say?
You know its just too little too late
You take my hand
And you say you changed
But girl you know your begging dont fool me
Because to you, its just a game
You know its just too little too late
So let me on down
Cause time has made me strong
Im starting to move on
Im gonna say this now
Your chances come and gone
And you know
Its just too little too late,
A little too wrong and i cant wait
For you know all the right things to say
You know its just too little too late
You say you dream of my face
But you dont like me
You just like the chase
To be real it doesnt matter anyway,
You know its just too little too late
I was young and in love
I gave you everything but it wasnt enough
And now you wanna communicate
So go find someone else
Im letting you go, im loving myself
You gotta a problem,
But dont come asking me for help
Cause you know
Its just too little too late,
A little too wrong and i cant wait
For you know all the right things to say
You know its just too little too late
You say you dream of my face
But you dont like me
You just like the chase
To be real it doesnt matter anyway,
You know its just too little too late
I can love with all of my heart baby
I know i have so much to give
With a player like you, i dont have a prayer
Cause thats the way to live...
f*** you! thats all i've got to say (:
I'm torn between both worlds
The ground beneath me feels unreal
I don't know what I'm standing on
I feel unsafe
These thoughts run through my mind
Everyday and every night
The world around me quivers
As i stand all alone on this earth
Afraid and unsure of what lies ahead
There is only one person that i can place my trust in
My hope, my all, my one desire
All may fail and tremble at my feet
But i know you'll never part from me
You're my best friend, my closest friend
In the dark you shine so bright
You never fail to keep my by your side
From all that's around me
My worries and my loneliness
You keep me safe, with you i find my rest
Never again will my life be the same
Always and forever you'll be there..
Finally, the day that we've all been waiting for, when all the exams are over. A time for some of us to start having fun, to start living lives that we longed to live after 2 whole tiring months of school. But i wouldnt say its tiring, as much as it was very hectic and stressful, im glad i had people around me that helped me and guided me thru all those tough times (: Thanks guys
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So we went to ikea for lunch/tea..haha it was great, well more like expensive but yeah at least we were happy and that was the main thing. So while Alvin was at home, i went to Marcus' house hahaha soo cool!!!! lol hmmm and after that we went to the Esplanade. Oh i really have to thank Marcus for helping me, like seriously, FINDING PIANO PIECES IS A BITCH AND ITS THE WORST FREAKING THING TO EVER DO!!! DONT TAKE PIANO OK???IT SUCKS LOL...
but at least i had help so it didnt suck that badly..
we went home for the most intense match that i watched LOL, Justine V Jankovic. i wanted Justine to win sooo badly like i was going crazy lol and finally she won and it was kinda like a trashing??? 6-2, 6-2 (:
we went to the esplanade again and just hung out, this time alvin was there and just talked and crapped heaps i swear, we were all high or something.. AND OMG i was SOOO blonde on that day its not even funny. i said the stupidest things ever and it was extremely embarrassing and i didnt even know where to put my face. i wanted to stick it into the ground or something. gosh the things i said arghhhh.. but yeah ahhaha alvin told seriously lame jokes..OHHHHH and i got marcus' chinese jokes faster than alvin and i dont even speak chinese..BAHHAHAAHHAHAAHAHHA im soo smart LMAO!!! NOTTTTTT.. my chinese sucks man but yeah haha thats about it..so yeah im bored..
im going to watch the finals soon so i'll see you guys soon take care byee!!!
"Its funny how you can be so wrong about someone, you think you know them, but they turn out to be the exact opposite of what you thought of them" - quote from some movie which i love (:
yeah but i mean sometimes its just that you really think you're friends with someone, or well at least you try to be but theres always something that you know they are hiding from you. They always assure you that its nothing when you know its something. They tell their other friends about it and stare at you while telling them.."oh everythings fine, really" is the usual reply you get from them.
Then i think again, why do i even bother? Honestly..i mean like i have a thousand and one things to think about rather than that but somehow, i just cannot get it off my mind and it annoys me. Well fake and pretentious people annoy me soooooo yeah maybe its all these people that do these things that are fake and pretentious, hence why they annoy me? lol i wouldnt know..
People change heaps, some say second changes work, some say they dont. You know what i think? if someone makes an effort to, you should at least give them a second chance. But if they really cannot be bothered at all, then dont bother and wallow in self pity.
I feel that my second chance was just wasted, yeah we talk and all but you know everything is so surface now. Like i used to be able to tell you stuff and everything and the same goes for you, but now i have to watch every single word i say, lest i avoid confrontation. I dont wanna say something that i know is going to hurt you, its hard and sometimes i just have nothing to say. Its just not the same anymore. I always tell my friends, well only terran mainly that when we fight, we always get closer and we understand each other better. Like just the other day, we fought majorly and it was quite a bad one, its usually me that gives in and i'll be the one that apologizes, but i was just too upset at what he said that i couldnt bare to even talk to him or look at him even. But he made the first move and said he wanted to talk to me. We kinda started talking and in the midst of talking, i kinda broke down cause i couldnt take it anymore. It hurts me to see him getting hurt somehow i dont know why, but i just do, strange but yes. Well he did hurt my friend, and she was extremely devastated and there was no way that i was going to forgive him for what he did, but somehow i just couldnt do it, i couldnt not forgive him..but in the midst of all the fighting and making things work out, we kinda got over that phase and now we're back to where we were before, tho we havent been close for the past 2 months, and it was mainly my fault but at least we're trying. And yes im sorry for the absence.
But between you and me, i really dont know what to do about us. Somehow i dont wanna see your face anymore. After all that you've done to me, i cant bare to see it. To think we had something, well it was just a complete joke to you apparently, but yeah i dont wanna dwell on that anymore. Its time for me to move on, for us to move on. Hopefully someday when i look at you, i'll be able to forgive you..
Whenever you remember times gone by
Remember how we held our heads so high
When all this world was there for us
And we believed that we could touch the sky
OMGGG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!
I AMMM SOO HAPPYYY (:
THE LOONG AWAITED MATCH BETWEEN JUSTINE HENIN AND THE AMAZON WOMAN FINALLY CAME!!!!!!
GUESSSS WHO WONNNNNNN?????
BAHAHAHAHAHA OBVIOUSLY JUSTINEEEE WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
omgomgomomgomg hahahhahah yay (:
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OMG i f***ing got a curfew wtf man seriously!!! idiots!!!! i cant believe that like hellloooooo im not like 5 ok!!!!!!!!! and im not my stupid retarded brother who does stupid things to himself!!! whyy the f*** do i have to come home at 10 everyday?? JUST because you think its the right thing to do. "We dont go out eeveryday and come home so late, so you shouldnt either!" Yeah thats cause you got NO LIFE! and like seriously there is f***ing nothing to do at home and you want me to f***ing stay at home and do nothing? well not really when i use the com too much you scold me, when i sleep too much you scold me, when i watch tv too much you scold me also..i really dont know what you want me to do, i stay at home too much you ask me to go out, now i go out too much you want me to be at home! LIKE F**** HELLLLOO what you want me to do???? you're driving me insane it isnt even funny! you are also driving my sister nuts ok we're both going crazyyyyy like seriously!!!!!
anyways im soo not going to be home at 10 everyday you'll seee!!!! BAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
wokay whatever im pissed
but im supposed to be happy so im gonna stay happy (:
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