My life is sooo freaking f'ed up! One more time someone talks to me about my stupid brother or asks me how he's doing in that stupid damn school which he's soo proud of because he thinks that he's soo f****** good..im going to kill that person and i dont care who the hell that person is..my hand is just going to move and hit that persons face..he thinks he's soo good and above the rest,well im sorry no YOU ARE NOT GOOD at all please loook at the better people dont even go to your school? And i can definitely prove that point because its just soo true..and they are definitely not losers like you..
Life is soo unfair for me..whatever i say or whatever i do, it just somehow doesnt seem to please my parents. But on the other hand, whatever that my brother does, just seems to attract soo much attention, joy and gladness to them. Even if he puked all over them, they'd clap their hands and say well done. Good job boy you've done a great job! I bet even if he robbed a bank, they'd be like wow this time you really did it! You're the best, now we just have to keep our mouth shuts about it and keep the money and dont report it to anyone alright? I mean its just soo unfair..they love everything about him, everything that he does..I try not to be selfish and think that maybe its cause he's the youngest in the family and since he's not very bright and a little bit retarded(ok maybe not a little bit but ALOT) i should like give in to him but most of the time, my parents being soo extremely nice to him even tho he's done soooooo many bad things just overwrites the treating him nicely part..
Ok some of you may still think that im really selfish but here's just something to maybe could convice you..So sometimes when he comes and disturbs me and irritates me, i tell him to just shut up and get lost and stop disturbing me..so my mom goes berserk and scolds me saying "Ryan, how many times have i told you not to be rude to your brother and not to say the word shut up? you're not allowed to say those 2 words you hear me?" So im like yeah whatever just leave me alone..so sometimes when we're in a car and i have a decent conversation with my parents, which i must say happens really rarely nowadays cause its a pain in the ass to talk to them, my brother tries to cut into the convo but i still continue talking cause im not done yet so he gest really frustrated and asks me to shut up..and most of the time, its soo clear and loud that everyone can hear it and my parents hear it too.. BUt guesss what???they doo not say anything about it and they dont scold him at all..let me repeat THEY DO NOT SAY ANYTHING TO HIM AND THEY DONT SCOLD HIM AT ALL..how unfair can that be??????okok so sometimes when he talks to me, i give him a really sarcastic tone and my mom just starts screaming at me like nobodys buisness..but when he shouts at the top of his voice at me when we're fighthing, my parents dont do aynthing at all..ok let me repeat that again THEY DONT DO ANY FREAKING THING AT ALL AND THEN JUST LET HIM CONTINUE SHOUTIHNG AT ME..ok here's the good part, when he's shouting at me like crazy, and i try to defend myself but dont get the opportunity to,he contiunes to shout at me, but when i do get the chance to..i start screaming at him using really sarcastic words and just instantaneously, my mom and dad starts screaming at me. LIKE WHAT THE HELL?HE WAS SHOUTING LIKE CRAZY ALREADY AND THERE I WAS TAKING IN ALL THE SHIT THAT WAS COMING OUT OF HIS MOUTH AND THEY DONT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT AT ALL, but when i open my mouth, i get shot at like crazy...what has this world come into?????????????????/i mean im totally innocent and when i say something i get scolded for something which someone else did..talk about respect you have for older people..he doesnt have shit respect for any bloody person in this entire bloody planet and my parents smile bloodly at it! ARGH
Ok here's more..its funny but they are always on his side..EVEN if he's wrong hello im the one who's not in the wrong..and the best part is that they scold me for it! Listen to this THEY SCOLD ME FOR BEING RIGHT!!!!!!!!!! ok thats just great im telling you..now i dont know if i should do the right thing or the wrong thing, be right or wrong cause either way i get scolded so why should i be nice anymore?Being nice doesnt pay, i get shouted at by that stupid retarded boy and after that i get a wonderful big bashing from my parents..sigh i really derno what to do in my life right now..its just soo irritating and i cannot stand the sight of him..he keeps calling me pimple face but he doestn realize that his face is worse than me..he thinks he's some super hot f****** idiot..well im sorry dude look in the mirror for once..you're soo F****** ugly like get a life ok..i serioulsy hate him and i dont want to ever see him again! I really wanna not live in the same house as him i cant take it anymore its just driving me nuts! its soo peaceful when he's gone, but when he comes back all hell breaks lose and even angels get scolded..what more mortals?????????i really derno what to do...i try to be nice but i get scolded, be good but i still get scolded..to do the right thing and i get slapped in the face..
its really a f****** shit ass day thanks to someone who came into this world..i've never had one moment of peace when he was around!
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