In life, we all have to go thru many things and one things for sure that we all go thru is change. Be it for better of for worse, everyone has to go thru it and sometimes, the more we try to avoid it, the more it will haunt us.
With change brings about new beginnings and new eras and it means to forget about the past and start afresh again. Well not necessarily forgetting everything from the past but yeah you get my point.
Watching too much O.C is amazing! it brings back so many memories, memories that i had since the day i started watching O.C and fell in love with it instantaneously..ok anyways yes its the greatest show on earth right ammar?
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Change brings about new friends, a new environment, a new class..im excited and yet afraid of whats gonna happen, things not being the same as before..i guess its a goood thing. Im happy im moving on and getting to meet new people. Thats cool and just leaving the past behind..
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been busy going out, buying stuff, and just being with the people that are really there, and really sorting out the rotten apples in the basket, taking out the bad ones. And yes we all have bad apples in our baskets, and sometimes you just gotta leave those bad apples behind and move on in life. Just like friends, you gotta know whos good for you and whos not, those that will be there for you no matter what and those that couldnt really care less about you at all. Those are the ones that you dont want to carry in your basket. The only thing they really do is bring you lower and lower and you find that you just cannot grow at all because they stump your growth. It can be hard losing friends and all but if you know what you want in life and you're focused on what you want, im sure you'll manage, isnt that what you always say to me? well im sorry i dont really work that way. Its difficult to leave people behind, i try to pull them along most of the time or well i try to until i really really cannot take it..Its funny how sometimes you can be so wrong about certain people. But sometimes you really just gotta let go. As much as you love someone, if that person continues to disappoint you time after time, why do you still wanna hold on to something that isnt there at all? You treat people so insignificantly, like they are just shadows staring back at you. You laugh and joke and pretend that nothings happening when you know you're hurting deep down inside, but you just put on a facade to try to make people think you're alright..
What you're going thru right now, is something that you brought upon yourself. I saw this day coming, i knew this day would come. It was just a matter of time. Prolong it you may, but time will always catch up with you and suck you in and then you'll finally realize that this is the hour. Now is the time when me and you dont exist in the same world anymore..
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You were amazing, everything i ever wanted, you had. Everything that everyone wasnt, you were. I thought you were special, but you turned out to be so different. You've changed too much, and i dont know if change is something that i want to accept, coming from you. Why are you doing this to everyone around you? Why cant you be more mature about everything? Why cant you just not say anything and let people say what they wanna say. It's their mouths/hands(when they type) not yours. You can never control what they say no matter how hard you try. Its just you against the world. Do you even think that you can take that?
I love you, i really do. But what you did was just too much for me to take. Its the hardest thing for me to do, and i just had to do it. Letting you go was the best option. The Best chance for me to move on. You were my life, but now you're just a memory, engraved in my mind and in my heart. You will always have a special place deep down inside of me.
And as we walked across this lifetime,
Leaving behind what used to be.
I hope you stop and smile think of you and i
And the dreams we dared to dream...
Remember to remember,
You and me..
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