Thursday, May 31, 2007
I hope that someday you'll think of me,
When you think back.
I know that i'll always tihnk of you,
When i think back.
You say you dream of my face,
But you dont like me, you just like the chase.
To be real, it doesnt matter anyway
You know its just too little too late.
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I hope that maybe one day,
we could be what we were before.
I pray that someday, we could walk down
That same road we took.
Remembering every memory we had
Reminiscing on the good old days
Its funny how we look back
And think about us, About what we had
Maybe it was all a joke to you
But it was something more
I know that we can never be together
And i dont think i wanna try anymore
You were everything i ever dreamt of
Everything about you seemed so real
But now i see you for who you truly are
And im sorry that it will never be
You and i are history
And im glad you're out of my life..
ok yeah thast just one idea i got, maybe i'll expand it we'll see
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Its so nice to just sit with someone and talk to them about what happened,
its heaps better than just keeping it in yourself.
Theres just so much i wanna say but never got the chance to.
You mean so much more to me than you think you do.
the beach was great (:
good long cycle and blading eh??
good exercise ahahhaa
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you're really starting to freak me out marcus lol REALLY
we've got soo much in common lol..
DURIANS SUCK ARSE!!!
RTR ROCKS WHOOOOOOo hahaha i love that song (:
ok hahaha YAY MISERY BUSINESS ROCKS EH i've mastered the skill of singing the second verse!
its scary LMFAO
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i made my life right today,
i've officially forgiven someone
im starting piano like this week?
haha i hope everything goes well (:
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
So i said this to her today..
Whos the ALL MOST ROCKINGEST GIRL EVER???
LET ME HEAR YOU SAY KAN-DY KAN-DY!
WHOS THE BESTEST PERSON EVER??
LET ME HEAR YOU SAY KAN-DY KAN-DY
WHO'S THE HOTTEST GIRL EVER????
LET ME HEAR YOU SAY KAN-DY KAN-DY
WHO ROCKS OUT IN GUITAR THE BEST???
LET ME HEAR YOU SAY KAN-DY KAN-DY
WHO DOES RY LOVE THE MOST???
LET ME HEAR YOU SAY KAN-DY KAN-DY
and she replied with this..
aaw Ryyy!!
pfff no one beats Ry rY RYRYRYRYRY RYRYRY RYRYRYRYR!!!!
RY YRYRYYY!!!
LOL looove you long time Ryyy ;) <3333
it made my day (:
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me..
You managed to disarm me,
My soul is shinning through
I can't help but surrender,
My everything to you..
Sometimes its just those things that you least expect to happen that turns into something that you'd never expect could turn out to be. Weird turns of events, flashing memories, thunder and lightning, ipods blasting in your ears, something that happens everyday. Yet people dont really treasure all these normal and mundane things that happens.
Well i for one am very certain that im gonnna start appreciating things like my ipod which i already adore to the very most and many other things, however thunder and lighting and rain is going to take me a while because i hate it...
But yes meeting someone randomly and actually getting to talk to that person alone can really change a lot. It makes one think about everything, his life, friends, relationships, school, people and everything else.
People put on a front and they try to hide what they feel but they themselves know that deep down inside they are hurting immensely, but for some godamn reason they just cant admit or cant put themselves to admitting that they are suffering and burning inside.
If you ask me, i deff miss those times when we were together, laughing and joking and making the best of times and treasuring each other. Being there for one another in good or bad times. Sometimes the company just makes a whole lot of a difference and people dont really know that because sometimes they dont tell you.
Its not that easy to just forget everything that happened so quickly, as much as i would have wanted to. Its really hard and it hurts deep down inside. But im glad that at least i have people who are there for me which is more important than anything else and i want to be there for them as well.
People should start showing more appreciation to what other people do for them, not that im saying there isnt enough already but at least let the other party know or at least attempt to. You never really know when it might make their day, turn something around and change everything just by your one kind thought or gesture.
All im saying is that im gonna start treasuring everyone around me and not just be so complacent about everyone, i've lost enough to know what losing someone feels like and i dont like history repeating itself. Time goes by too slowly for me to feel the pain, and i know it as much as i try to avoid it, it cuts deep down inside my soul. Depressing it may be but thats part and parcel of life to my dismay, and sadly i've learnt it the hard way!
To all my friends from Australia, American, Eurpoe and Singapore, you guys are amazing and im really thankful for all that you've done.
You Australians kick some SERIOUS arse man i've had heaps of fun with you guys and i love each and every single one of you! just to name some theres, Em, Katie, Eeeeeyan, Terran, Ash, Lisie ,mike, nick. You guys are the best EVER all those long talks that we had i will never forget (: you guys never fail to cheer me up. Those bashing veronicas days were the best i ever had (: tho sometimes we dont get along, its those fights that bring us closer together and i really cant wait for 2008 (:
Americans Americans, CINDY you SOOOO need to come back online!!!! we havent spoken in ages dude!! not coool not coool. Tifferoo, Jessie and Jojo. You guys are fecking funny LOL hahaha..thanks for talking to me in the early hours of the day!! time differences rock eh??
Europeans..weeee hahahaa again time differences rock. you never fail to keep me occupied (:
And last but not least all you Singaporean people!! you guys are also one of the bestest ever!!! and yeah i would really like to make a list and all about everyone. i'll do it soon i promise!!! i will trust me and YOU, YOU, YOU, YOU , YOU , YOU and YOU will deff be on that list i mean YOU YOU!!!!! and you know who you are eh? haha trust me you do!!
And as we walk across this lifetime
leaving behind what used to be
i hope you stop and smile think of you and i
and the dreams we dared to dream
remember to remember you and me...
Monday, May 21, 2007
People like you dont deserve to exist in this world that everyone lives in. and i say it with a heavy heart, NOT!
So yes you act all pretty and elegant in front of everyone else,
You are strong in numbers and you thrive on bitching about someone else.
You love mocking someone and just adding to the flames.
Worst part is that that person isnt even there to defend herself.
The worstest part however is that you can even do it in front of Lisa?
Dude that is so not cool?
I've warned certain people about you already i really have,
thank f***ing goodness you're out of his life.
Seriously he didnt deserve you at all you f***ing c**t!
The funny thing is that you dont even deserve to be called a bitch..
You're a backstabbing evil douchebag!!!
I really hate you!
I've tried to get along with you but failed after countless attempts
You and your stupid friends should all just shut the f*** up and stop saying mean things about other people!
All you know is just to suck up, booot lick!! go f***ing wipe jess' asss you f***face!!!
You think you're SOOOOOO great
God just take a look in the mirror for once..
YOU ARE NO JESS OK AND YOU'LL NEVER EVER BE JESS
when you stand next to jess, as much as you try to look like her youre f***ing ugly thats all i have to say
you suck
ok im done sorry just thought i'd say something about someone who's hurt my friend!!
asshole im pissed and really exhausted!
Friday, May 18, 2007
LOL the title is so emo, but seriously its not about me at all..
it just makes me so upset that i cant help my friends the way i really want to ):
it makes me sad that i can do nothing about it but just sit there and watch them,
watch them cry in one corner with pains and stabs in their hearts
tell me what to do pleassseeee,
i really really want to help you with all that i can
i just wanna be there for you,
to be there until the very end,
if only you'd open up more, well not that you havent
i just want you to know that it makes me sad to see you in this state,
all i want to see is that you're happy and i'll be satisfied.
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i've been your friend for quite some time now and i must say our friendship has grown stronger and stronger by the day. Yes sometimes we do fight, well a lot i must say but everytime when we apologize, there's a deep mutual understanding that no matter what happens, both of us know that we've got each others back! You're someone i know that i can really tell everything to and i know you wouldnt judge me for whatever i've done, and i know as far as you can, well where your brain takes you that is, you'll never fail to always help me in everyway. And i thank you for that. All i wish is that you'd open up just a little bit more man, you know im not like one of them, im never going to backstab you, i swear!!! and im sorry for what happened before, i know i made a promise that i'll come visit you but i didnt, this time its for real and i really am going to go down, i'll make a declaration to the world saying that i will really go down (:
i wish you and whoever you are with now the best of luck, you guys are amazing together and im really happy about it! At least you're not with that other whore..i really hated her and yeah i dont need to go into details, you know how much i do lol and yes we've fought alot about that and i think thats clearly something that kept you from moving on, but now that she's out of your life, im really glad that you're a whole new person (:
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i've missed you heaps ): we havent been talking for a very long time, i wanna know whats going on with your life..is there something you're not telling me? why? please just at least say something to me, i feel completely lost.
we used to talk heaps, what happened to that? you staying up late just for me and me doing the same, well waking up early, but its all gone..what happened to that? i really miss those days and it makes me sad that we are going down this dark road. i really dont want us to become what everyone has become..please give me a chance to explain myself, for what i've done i really dont know lol
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on a not so sad side, OMG BLOGGERR IS FINALLY WORKING WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo
ok and AMERICAN IDOL IS SHOCKING!!!!! SHITTTTTT MAN but yes BLAKE FTW i want blake to win now!!!!
and im soo proud of my student (:
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
There's people talking, they talk about me
They know my name they think they know everything
but they dont know anything about me
People talk, they always do
About good stuff, about bad stuff
In front of you, behind your back
they dont really care
As long as its about you,
its all that really matters to them
You bash them, you scold them
You hate them, you love them
You insult them, you make fun of them
They say, "Oh im a human being too, i deserve the right to stand up for myself!"
You say, "f*** you!!!! you think i really care what you deserve? the way you've treated us doesnt say otherwise!"
I've given you the best,
tried to be nice,
tried to be your friend.
Trust me really i tried,
but no,
second chances they dont never matter
people never change.
once a whore you're nothing more
im sorry that will never change.
Well all i've got to say is f*** you!!!!
Nothing more, nothing less
This is the end of you and me,
for sure.
forever and ever...
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on a side note, jess just broke up with steve and she turned lesbian. Apparently she broke up with steve because of another girl. Steve can sing this to her, 'cause the girl that you want, she was tearing us apart' ok well not really but yes...and also they have matching tattoos, jess has lyrics from steve's song, red 4 you on her arm, and Steve has jess tattooed on him i think? Well it was jess' fault not steves. Steve loves jess a lot but now imagine that poor guy when he scratches his arm and he'll look and go oh shit i onced loved her or still do but she left me for another woman..poor him. i blame jess, well im not surprised anyways she's a bitch!! and lisa is dating dean geyer, who's acclaimed to be a virgin, well im gonna bet on this, he's not going to be one soon AHAHAHAH with lisa as his girlfriend, thank goodness his not with Jess, because his virginity will be gone in a matter of seconds when the relationship starts..
ok yes sorry too much info lol just thought i'd be so kind as to inform everyone about the progress of the wonderful lives of the veronicas (:
Monday, May 14, 2007
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